phew... today so unlucky, some 'one' said i wear spec so ugly??? haizx ugly mehx??? maybe bahx... but dunno why these few day i like to wear spec to school or to outside... i finally think of a reason why i now a days like to wear spec to school... the reason is: i been hurt, hurt really hurt, i wanna use the spec to cover my eye being look through by other! many people say eye are the spirit of a human being, if u can look through it means u have look through that person heart and soul. After all these years, i found out that i always been living for other but not for myself. although my life have been fill with many other thing but i felt my heart was really empty real empty! sometimes my intention was just to help or maybe wanna the good out of them but it always the other way round, always againist my orginal intention. today, went to shui min house, woo, saw him play guitar... so cool real damm cool... the desire of learning guitar was burning in my heart... few weeks ago, i lost my confident on going song writing lesson where some bad things happen. But after today, i got my confident back, back to myself. haha nice one... my heart is to empty now, nothing fill inside... after all these years, return to square one back... so sad... cover my eye from being see through by other... say good bye dun say forever, good bye wont be forever... good luck for 'o' everyone...

... wordless... nothing seems to be able to type it out... haizx... we really fall apart le... no turning back... for the sake of your 'o', i given u up... hope u will do well for 'o'... i had know u since 7th feb'2003, 13th feb'2003 is the 1st day i stead with u, we stead for 3 days, just 3 days, but this is just the begining of the journey between us. haha... so funny, people stead at least 3 months then break but we 3 days only... but i treasure it very much. then our 1st patch came, 15th april' 2003, in between many thing happen, so many thing happen. althought this time we did improve, we patch for 7 days, and 6 night. lolx, strange couple but still we break... luckily, god give me one chance again, on 10th of june'2003 we patch again, hmmm this time is 10 days... but in this 10 days, i found u, keying, which i treat this relationship very seriously. haha although is bery short but it still flash through my mind so often... so often... then we break. haha, we r real funny couple... haha... but dunno why heaven change my fate so soon as i thought it will be the end of our fate but heaven still brought us together... on 23rd of june'2003, we patch back for the forth time... hmmm maybe we really so in love or maybe heaven doesn't wan to see me go round to cheat other gals bahx... haha this time we stead for the longest period... 2 yrs 9 months and 29 days... so happy.. longest record lehx... haha... but still we break le... i know this time will not be the same as last time le... but i hope u will be living well... hope u will find another guy soon... i know what kind of person i am... selfish, petty, hot temper, and zi yi wei shi... hmmm, i am a bad guy... so bad... always wan the prefect of u... i know i am lying to myself... but i hate to give u up... in the end i still did.. nbm... carry on with your life... dun get trouble over me... i know u will come to my blog to read this story... this story wasn't to soften your heart or wat... just to show u i treasure this relationship seriously... very serious... so in here i thank you for all the happy and sad memory u give me... THANK YOU... i know u must have cried alot yesterday night but sorry for all the hurt and scare i left behind... i am so sorry... let your prince charming recuse u and put medicine on your scar bahx... hey if u r the another guy of her life and u get a chance to read my blog... listen up... there are 10 thing u should know be4 u stead with her... 1st:U must be mature but doesn't mean u must be old!!! 2nd:she like to eat beef steak alot, bring her often to HANS or jack place to have dinnner and she will love u deadly!!! 3rd:remind her to drink lot of water everyday and stop her from eating too much snack or she will get sore throat easily!!! 4th:she love to drink Qoo very much, even when u r having dinner with her and tat bloody place doesn't provide it, FLY to the nearest 7-11 to buy it just for her!!! 5th:although she often quarrel with her parent but she treasure her parent more than herself, so u must treat her parent well if not i will come and K u ok!!! 6th: DUN ever add your thinking to her, in this way u will add stress to her only and she so weak so dun treat her in this way like i do!!! 7th: she love to be cycle around, so u must know how to cycle and you must cycle well enough to ride her along, dun ever let her fall down!!! 8th: she love surprice on every moment u share with her, and most of all she love to have rose on special day!!! 9th:when she is in bad mood, let her vent her anger on u, after tat hong her back, and treat her with love and care!!! last but not least: give her a kiss on forehead everyday when u met up with her... she love her love one to leave a kiss on her forehead, i study be4, this way can calm a person heart down when she is lost in our world!!! above all is wat i know in this 2 yrs 9 months and 29 days, and becos i cant keep up those rule so i lose her and left a scar on her!!! so pls be nice to her... thank you!!! (i promise myself not to shed a tear for u but in the end i left a pool behind, i am lost in these few day so u shouldn't be as lost as i ok???!!!) study hard and pass with flying colour for your parent ok? go into jc if u can, if cant't, find a good poly and a good guy to take care of u... (looking back of the thing i done, i been trying please someone, i played my part, kept u in my heart, now let me show u the shape of my heart)

haha... woo... 1st time i create my blog... just quarrel with someone... but i not feeling bad or sad... i feel i have been release by myself... release by my stubborn... everything so new to me... haha... like just born into this world... lmao... althought today i had a bad day... but i treasure today as becos i found the answer i long wanted to know... haha... now i can laugh alot.... laugh till no one will stop me... =) !!! my target: everyday must be happy no matter wat trouble fail on me!!! anyway... my 'o' coming... so sad... my game time will be limited... so sad... haha but much better than i wasting my time on game.... hmmm this few day i been studying till late night... real later night... till about 3am or 4 am bahx... haha... althought some thing i prepare doesn't need it in the last mins but after all i still learn something from it... not bad ma... haha... life great... to be able to free from yourself will truly make a wonderful day... =) ok tat all for 1st blog i make... =)