just had basketball matches with elias mall people, my 'hometown'. that was where my 1st outside team was formed with my old friend. well many memories flashed back through my mind, like how i used to be slim when playing basketball with them 3 years ago. lolx. had my dinner 10 plus at elias coffee shop with jeryl alvin kaya and many more, about 10 of us. before the basketball match, we went to changi village to had our lunch. take bus 358 from central to elias mall there, on the bus, had a eye contact with this gal we came across. she was like 'punk' singer, as if there was drum in front of her. haha. quite cute. i smile at her and she smile at me, so thought of asking her phone number but in the end i backed out. can't really understand why am i so timid?? phone number only can't even get it. i am a failure. seriously. well tat all for today, i am very tired. got to sleep early of not late for church again!!!

19th Aug'06
haha ytd my 1st visit to SINGAPORE night safari! well it's the 1st night safari in the world anyway! hahaha. haizx ytd one of my cousin spoilt my mood man!!! totaly piss me off! told them i needed to use the car and i need it 'RIGHT NOW' and well they reply me' okay when 11 plus u coming out from the safari i will return u' well in the end? they just drive to malaysia without asking for my permission lo! and some more she still shout back to me at the phone! well can't really blame. she's a spoilt brat! she thought everything can use money to settle! well when i got back my 'bao bei', she's so dirty man!!! full of mud! damm it! i wonder where they went to!!!

20th Aug'06
well today i am late for church again, haizx ytd my cousin return me my car at about 5 am! pass the key and dunno where the hell they off to!!! about 7 plus went down and see my 'bao bei'. haizx i cried, i can't hold back my tears. she's so dirty man! even the head light is cover with mud!!! about 8 plus waiting for bus, miss 1 bus right in front of me! wait till 9.05am then take bus 12, about 9.30 reach PMC. well maybe i cry too much lolx, i'm so sleepy, i can even close my eye walking to PMC! haha. During SG, we discuss about celebrating teacher day. thank sister Z and her bf and KK for teaching us this bunch of MONKEY! haha shui min darryl yong wei and me making sushi and i feel like preparing KOREAN food too. haha i guess who ever be my GF doesn't need to worry for her 3 meals a day! hahaha. evening went to play bball and not ball. haha manage to block steal and intercept their ball haha! after bball, 8 plus went to wash my 'bao bei', took me 2 hours to wash it 'clean and clear'! clean clean clean! i'm so high now! haha uploading photo now. haha ytd night safari took de! hahaha not bad. hahaha i never regret to join PMC! hahaha

"Dear father, thank for today talk, u send down a lot of 'angel' to accompany through my lowest point of my life! thank sister Z, her BF yeang qin and BOss KK! thank for everything u set for my life and i'll be most willing to learn many things from u! thank for the upcoming teacher day as a day for me to be grateful for my teachers who had helped me! thank for your will of sending my cousin to make my heart ache again, this let me have the chance to control my temper again! let me learn more about how to change to be a better man! thank Father! with jesus name i pray, Amen!

YTD
hmmm ytd totally a bad day for me!! why? becos i quarrel with my buddy! a damm serious and bloody arguement, nearly result in a fight! well all started after our math tuition in school, where we were all on the 2nd floor watching honghui 'gf' and gelin playing netball with the sec 3 girls! starting one of them keep on teasing me about this word " FREDDIE" and it really pissed me off at tat point of time, well i did telling them to stop it and 2 of them did stop it but left him keep on playing with fire! when we were going out of the school, near the general office, he damm pissed me off by saying using my leg to stop the car or watever it is. well this trigger off the furious in my anger, and without any 2nd thought, i shouted back at him. well out of the school zebra crossing, he scolded me back with "dirty" words! and well starting i was very hot headed, and he must count himself lucky tat i'm not the last time ting song, although i feel like wacking him on the spot and call people down to wack the bloody hell out of him but i control myself. learn self-control 2 weeks ago in my small group, although i am really damm pissed off, i manage to calm down my anger before it gets me into deeper trouble. then he keep on scolding me f***er, b***h, and other. i am damm sad, f***ing hell sad. i treat him as my buddy or brother and even when i am pissed off or angry, i didn't even scold a single dirty word back at him yet this is how he treat his frenx, haizx damm disappointed la. well in the end he left some words say tat whenever i ask him thing he will only reply yes or no. walao, this kind of words, aiya forget it, since he dun treat me as a frenx forget it la. anyway not his fault, everything my fault, scolding him in the 1st place also my frenx, let him say i am freddie also my fault. just take all the blame la. well it seems i never learn my lesson, when reaching home, i nearly called 'them', a past which i dun wanna to be buried into my memory. maybe it's just 2 sec away from the call but i feel many memory flash through my mind. haizx i really dun wanna rmb it. damm it. i know once i called 'them' many thing will happen and he will be injured if i really done so. well maybe i still treat him as my buddy i put down the phone and went to bath and sleep. wake up 10 plus, study and online till 1plus. thought of many things, although he sms me and he's sorry about it but i hate it when my frenx say those bloody thing to me, not tat i am petty about it but i treasure frenxship more than anything now. since i had lost my relationship, frenxship is the thing i need it most and yet things doesn't go smooth for me. freak out!!!!!

today
well today meet ah sng as usual, but i seems to be early today. 6 40 reach there and wait wait wait. saw my primary school frenx, and wow she so pretty liao, last time always being tease by her frenx now change so much, well "ren bu ke mao xiang" then go to school and 1st thing from ah shui mouth is "chong dun angry le la" "u not so petty de lehx" well i not tat angry anymore and i never hate anyone, just tat i not those type of person when quarrel with me then the very next day i can laugh with u together. i need time. hmm today whole day so lonely sia, lucky got cheryl my "gal" who keep on advertise her sister for me and my another mei mei chat with me throughout the school time if not bored will send me to hell! well today whole day i was so quiet, when people call me i just give them a "deep thought" look, wenster and yongster suspect me am i falling in love with a gal so tat y i give them this kinda look or i am stress. well i not really stress but really dun feel like talking. i only talk to ah shui and ah sng today. after school went to play basketball, althought my whole leg is still swollen but i am a guy, who is so active, so i dun give it a damm to the pain on my leg. well i manage to block 3 shot today, i am so happy, welll i manage to read the game well during after a game. althought i trying to go for lay up and shoot, my leg keep on giving me problem, can't really run well cos my leg is so heavy. after playing for a few games(although we lose) but i am happy overall, i manage to eep myself happy without anything tat trigger off my dark side! after tat we went to GYM for a work out. i am so happy, finally can see some result, my hand or arm muscle finally harden, and i seems to slim down again, can see my rip cage le. damm high. on the way to WS, darryl to some sense to me about ytd matter. well i agree with him i shouldn't let my anger got trigger off but well i am not gentleman, i am a teenager where i will be so hot headed. maybe he didn't manage to see my past so tat y he think i am very scary bahx lolx. today talk to a blur sotong in my class through msn. she really damm sotong lo, all i can say she very blur.!!! well after tat study till now, finally got time to blog le.

"Father, once again, i failed to surpress my temper. i didn't mean to let out my anger but something really trigger off the darkness side of me. here i am to ask for your forgiveness, i know i am at fault too but i consider i improve alot. In the past i will not let off someone so easily but after i know you, i manage to learn self control can prevent many bad things happen. Please send down a "angel" for me to control me, i don't want to lose my temper again. i hate to return to the past, i hate to lose a friend again, i hate to see myself in this state and i hate to leave this school with bad memory. Although 'she' had left me a scar in my memory but i believe whenever i need help, you will always be there for me, guide me toward the path of light. Please don't let me fall to the dark side again! With Jesus name i pray, amen."

ytd
hahaha, ytd went to church, our small group very funny, ah sng and me we keep on fooling around and taking photo of marie for the sake of someone ahahaha. well this sat going night safari, maybe i'll be driving there but if i drive there many problem so still thinking whether should i drive or no?? cos we been planning to create chance for them hahahaha. see how it goes.
after church went directly home and drive around singapore and one stupid idea stuck into my head! from pasir ris drive till night safari there, near bandai. hahaha very far sia some more waste 1/4 of my petrol tank. hhahaha after tat went home, and went to 230 play bball with ah sng they all. well i could only say my eye pai jiao liao. eileen and chai shia sitting on the mini mart there i can't even spot them. sweat. God pls help me!!!!!!

today

haha today totally freak out man. got chai shia number so try to play sms with her lo, she's using hi card so can't sms much but hor, her sms really very pro and attitude sia. i write about 1 full sms about 160 words, she can just reply 2 words!!!! really attitude ahahhaa, but cannot blame, guai gal maybe like this de or maybe we dun really know each other well hahaha.
after school went to loyang point eat waffle. hahaha went to 7-11, nearly had a quarrel with the cashier there. f*** up attitude lo. and wasn't my fault anyway still say i rude. luckily i calm down before i burn down her shop!!! damm it!!! haizx down with flu again sianz must be someone keep on scolding behind my back ahahaha.

okay wanna rest liao haha.
"Baby I love you and I'll never let you go But if I have to gal I think that you should know All the love we made can never be erased And I promise you that you will never be replaced. "

Father, i asking for your forgiveness for today afternoon, i wasn't really intented to had a quarrel with other as u had just teach me self control just LAST WeeK. i'm sorry if i let u down again, but i hope u can lend me your wisdom and lead me out of myself. i hope u can send down an angel who will help me believe in myself again, and wish my another 'she' will appear soon!! with the name of Jesus, amen

D.P sOnG

wahahaha, 2 or 3 days never blog le, now find tat blogging very sianz, hahaha. need to waste time and energy to think of wat to write in order not to offenced anyone and something can't really say out in my blog so lost interest in blogging le hahaha.
today i help darryl, ah sng to modify his blog, very the zeng lo. hahaha EVO 6 sia, some more the fast and the furious main character car lehx. drift untill so zai ahahaha. overall all very zeng!!! hahaha
today from 9 till 7 plus or 8 plus inside church helping out hahaha. got so call competition and they need ava to help out. hahaha i am glad i in it hahaha. then keep on act like pro but ok la now start to be abit pro in all these sound mixer and the video de haahha. very zeng!!! hahaha.
well today saw her coming to church, hahaha she's not verry 'zeng' la but overall she is a good gal, a guai guai charbo. hahaha and cute also ahahaha. admit got good feeling toward her la but not like or love just tat wanna know more frenx and her attitude seem to be zeng then i think it's ok for me to know her la. hahaha
ytd went to tuitionn with ah sng which is darryl, hahah 2 hours sia. very tired lo and soe more after tat need to accompany an sng go tampines mall buy present for his charbo birthday hahaha after tat we walk around tm and i brought a ear ring, hahaha very zeng, $8.50 ahahaha. dun think is a waste but ah sng pray me like a god say i so willing to spend tat money just for tat ear ring!! hahaha well no more stead le of cos i can spend my money when i like ma, no need to think so much and dun need to think of wat if go out need extra cash bo cash. very ho jio lo hahaha. after tat go eat ahjisan hahaha wei jian la mian ahhaha ok la $30 plus only still can afford it. hahaha come back and found out got durian eat hahaha. now still can't really stand the smell but i like the so call texture and taste of it le. hahaha

okok now very tired need to go back to my dreamland and zeng myself for tomoro service hahaha, better dun zeng until overslept again ahahah.

D.P sOnG

ok about ytd, after school went to mac and eat bread fast with shui min and darryl. hahaha saw mr lee treating his tkd boys big breadfast ahahahaha. after tat went to shui min home and gay with him and his sister. hahahaha mr lee drive us there, and wow, i starting to like mazda 3. it's cool man, i think i may consider change to tat car but i can't bear my bao bei!!! haahahaha nbm maybe consider for a few month bahx. hahaha
in ah shui home i watch movie and movie, with his sister. hahaha his sister very funny, those funny movie she will also becos of a sound and scare. cute sia ahhahaahaha. well last time she wasn't so friendly to me de but ytd suddenly very friendly with me hahaha, we still can chat also hahahaha. treat her eat something, but also treat shui min la, if not later he say i 'pee' her sister!!! sweat. stay till 7 plus then 8 plus reachh home, hahah never had my dinner, went to bath and then sleep le, tat y never blog hahaha.

today
hahaha today also very funny, afternoon went for tuition, tuition teacher suddenly treat me eat durian!!! o my god, i nearly vomit infront of her hahaha. well but after eating a few mouth, start to get used to the taste. hahaha now i found out, last time i eat durian becos of someone, the durian always taste so awful, but now when i really wanna try it, i actually can stand the taste of the durian hahhahaha. well after tuition, marie talk to me, hahaa she is so called my 'girl friend' hahah dun wu hui, we talk alot of thing but everytime very de 'short form' conversation only hahahha well she join me le, finally someone join me the pai ka group le hahaa she sprain her pig foot ahahaha, then when i reach home she chat with me about it already lol hahah, so i say if she feel very unsafe i can go help her buy dinner or lunch de, she scare to troublesome le so nevermind haahahaha, then i told her about those indian guy ask her if she feel those ah nai following her call me i drive down and pick her up lol. she say wil see lo hahaha. 5 plus went to play basketball with darryl they all lo. haha today really not my day, hahaha i cant really run yet and somemore i wanna so call inprove, still run now my leg is making my whole body pain like siao. hahaha well in the end eileen and liying came when i dunno even know who is who. aiyo die le la, i thought eileen was shui min sister ahahaha. really die la need to wear spec le. hahaha must really go have a look at them. haha after the match, go to MOS and attend a concert, hahaha very de rock but i dun really like it. hahaha dunno wad luck i having now, sit at there and i'm so low profile still got charbo come and ask for number, really die le la. when i am alone tat time need someone, no one is there, now got so many, really die le. cannot play with fire, been hurt deeply recently so dun really trust LOVE but i still so qi dai for LOVE, guess this is so call human nature bahx.hahaha ok just came back from MOS, very tired, wanna go sleep, luckily today got study abit if not die liao la!!! hahaha


D.K sOnG

phew, today very tired. my eyes lid is so heavy, keep on closing it. sad sia!!! today let mr lee down again!!! i really try very hard to stay awake le but last weekend i really didn't had enough sleep so keep on lying on the table then just went into my dreamland le. !!! haizx!!! sorry mr lee. i give u my promise i friday will be fully awake for your lesson!!
ok another story happen today!!! one of the 'gal' in sec 5 in my school really pissed me off. totally pissed me off to hell!!! well last time can so called good frenx with her but after some thing 'happen' she like keep on staring at me or when i in good mood kind enough to talk to her, she will say "oh is it? tat's your problem not my problem" wa wad the meaning of this? not happy is it? hey U, if u happen to read my blog u better think twice again when u say those word to me again!!! come on la, pls be mature man, wad other people say de thing u listen but u never listen to another party story then blame tat person. is this fair? and stop staring at me la, dun let me return to the old way, i can make your life living in hell if u do tat to me again!!! i already told your frenx about it so u better brighten up your eye. dun let 'devil' enter into your life!!! ok stop talking about her!!! if not i will really find her trouble tomoro, and dun anyhow guess, not ky!! i not so stupid anymore and wad for saying her??? hey kelly jie, believe me la, i not so free like tat time will write stupid thing in my blog!! haha get it??? stop nagging me as if i am really gonna repeat my mistake again!
hmmm well nothing more to write le so i guess i just add one lame joke into my blog for ending!!!

Question: which country shirt is the most safe to wear when u r on the road???
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ANSwer: Singapore!!! y? cos red wad, so every car will stop and let u cross the road. tat y no accident will happen near kallang outdoor stadium every national day!!! hahaaha


May the force be with me
thank god

D.K sOnG

YTD

well ytd many thing happen, wo de bao bei car car spoil, engine something wrong. haizx took me more than 16 hours to repair it. very de tired, keep on tuning tuning tuning till i really going mental hospital soon hahaha. but in the end god let 'him' have the chance to reborn again!!! hahaha thank father =)....
well watch midnight movie with my cousin, "dragon tiger gate" very de funny lo, the fighting very nice but the story line same as the fast and the furious. IT SUCKS!!! very sucks lo. haha lucky got my idol nicholas tse if not i won't even watch! haha
ok main topic, well had a talk with kor and jie, hmm i admit at tat point of time i was hot headed and so sad xin tong. tat y i will say those brainless words, well dun tell me when u angry u won't anyhow talk about other?? talk "jiao wei" about tat person??? and now i dun give a damm thing about her matter. in school or outside she got problem with lower sec or wat i won't bother about it! later people say i kapo and "de jiu" her!!! well all past le, since she hate to see me then ok lo i be jue lo, she give de thing can take back then those jay chou cd or vcd just return me lo, i dun mind putting them at home!!! since she see le will remind of my those insulting words then might as well take it as never stead or frenx before lo. simple and clean! haha so happy tat she release me from hell!!! hahaha thank q and sorry about it. if u wanna hate then hate me forever, well u should hate me forever de! =) last word: take care! =)

TODAY:

hahah today 1st time operate the sound mixer and the computer in front of the public, so shiock sia, very song. hahaha after service went for lunch with them, suddenly shui min give me a cold smile!!! lol i very tired today, totally very blur and shut down lo, dunno even know wat really happen in my surrounding! so gon gon. then shui min came and sit with us say her gf frenx wanna know me!!!! wa really dunno how to say!!! after break le still thought can just be alone for few months or wat in the end i still go diet and trying to get back to the past now so many gal around!!! hahaha let me count, let me BHB awhile, too long never BHB le haha. ok hmm maple de still got contact, in my team de "ah lian", one from greenview, 1 from coral.... now one more at church!!!! really siao siao le la!!! this time yao really settle it peacefully and avoid trouble. if not again really will affect my studies!!! hahaa ok ok now really must go recharge my "battery" le if not tomoro i dun think i can survived in school liao!!!!

father, thank for giving me a new leassh of life and let me learn so much thing after my lowest point of my life. thank for being there with me and give me the wisdom to continue my journey! thank god! amen!

cheers

D.K sOnG

hahaha, ok continue ytd story, ytd nothing much happen, just the same as everyday bahx. Study sleep chat and then keep thinking about cars cars cars!!! hahaaha well i watched the fast and the furious le, I dun like the story, it's all about love and money matter. Starting thought all about car like how initial D was, but I was wrong and totally wrong! hahaa well most of the car is nice but one part of the show the drift very de fake! Tat guy stop and wait for this American guy after tat he can suddenly drift through round the muiti storey car park!!! Tat is totally impossible! As far as I know if u wanna drift u must at least be 70km/h above then u can drift, but tat speed wasn't even 70km/h!!! So disappointed!!! Well got some advise for everyone who is reading this right now, if u ever wanna try drifting, better prepare a plastic bag, my 1st drift totally freak me out man! Tat was so scary hahaha. but now get used le, u try be4 1 time u wont be so freak out le!

today
hahah today is the same old day!!! Nothing really happen in school. Well I was totally very sian, very very sian! ahaha sian until I really no mood to talk to anyone except for my buddy Darryl shui min yong wei and jeryl!!! hahaaha after school Darryl told me many thing about how father wanted us to be! I admit I carried a lot of sins in my soul, I can't shake them away or just buried them into my memory, I need to use my action to prove to father that I really got the effort to repent my sins! I used to be a gangster a guy keep on playing gal heart a guy pierce ear and go for tattoo!!! I quit all these gangster thing about 3 or 4 years already while once pierce my ear, the hole will always be there forever! As for gals, well I got wad I really deserve, been ditch by someone I truly love before so tat make it fair and square! hahaha hmm about tattoo, no one know where I tattoo on my body, every one thought I put on my arms or body, even my buddy dun even know where I put it, y I dun wanna let them know? I am too ashame to tell them. I regret putting this stupid tattoo on my body!!! It'll always remind me of something which I dun really feel like remember it!!! But after today I know father will always forgive me for wad ever I do, because I know I will try my best to repent my mistake and sins!!! Well there is a phrase " the sun will always promise a new day, it'll stop the rain, break the chain and chase the pain away!" so father I ask for your forgiveness, pls guide me toward the path of light, show me the meaning of being true to myself. i know i made a lot of mistakes and carried a lot of sins with me, i know u'll be there for me when i need u. thank for your forgiveness and i would like to ask for your wisdom to bring me to the gate of heaven when i joining u. thank god, amen!

today no mood to blog. so wont blog much! well not no mood or 'moodless' just becos after studying for more than 14 hours a day!!! it will make me feel sick facing the com or blog cos need to use brain to think think think and write write write!!! haha after 'o' i'll be free le!!! hahaha. i can go for rally training and anything i wanna do, like go pub more often and focus on my singapore driving theory test!! hahaha one time sure can pass de!! hahaha okok nothing tomoro then continue more on today story!!!

*happy go lucky*

YTD...
well ytd i'm veri de tired so tat y never blog. hmmm let me recall wat happen ytd??? oh hmm i tore darryl school uniform ahahahhahaha!!! well becos shui min and him keep on disturbing me and challenge me to catch them, in the end i get a hold of darryl and he trying to get away but i dunno wat really happen in the end heard a zip sound!!! hahaha his armpit area been tore haahhaha very big hole!!! ahahaha well shui min of cos stop le la!! hahaha
TODAY...
well today nothing really happen. hmm if there's one, it must be my slipper hahaha, very de bright, many people keep on staring on it. wahahaha. ok oki not trying to action or wat here but ytd i decided to quit maple le, sold my cheif bandit and dragon knight!!! all third job de lehx!!! hahaha sold for about $600 plus!!! hhaahaha rich again so decide to go down have a walk and shopping round bedok interchange so brought a slipper bahx!!1 hahaha today really attract many people attention! hahaha
hmmm before math remindial, had eye contact with her, this time to me no doubt is a eye contact. some more near staircase. really veri de strange. hahaha well today touch 'laopo' de head!! hahaha well she veri de funny lo, ask question without using her smart brain!!! hahaha her hair smell nice, got those so called baby smell. hahaha scare later i will fall in love with her then die liao!!! but i know she maybe still love 'him' well she know who he is, so wont fall in love with me bahx ahahaha some more i never jio her so nothing will happen!!! ahahaha my 'classmate' hahaha ok dun joke le later she will gonna kill me alive!!!
after math remindial shui min darryl and me walk toward white sand, saw our church frenx, samantha. well they 2 spoted her 1st and say hi to her but i just gon gon never saw her ahahaha then when i say eh, how come she will appear here??? she joke with me 'y cannot arhx? see me in white sand really so rare is it? hahaha' well i joke with her ya of cos is rare 'u jc student lehx, surely everyday study de ma!!!' hahaha then darryl and shui min say she seem to be interested in me, omg, lol i think they two joking de la. she jc student and i some more wasted 2 years of my life. hahaha she wont de la. but later on heard from shui min and darryl she doesn't talk with guys de, i mean the church guy or maybe our group guy la. but only me seem to be able to click on well with her!!! hahaha ok my hand tired le wanna go sleep le tomoro update joke and other thing!!! hahaha