wahaha... today went to school with a heavy bleeded heart.. but once i reach school i saw baobao le... wahaha... haizx she today actually can go school with me de... but too bad she need to reach more early than me... and dun wanna other people to know we have some feeling for each other so she choose not to accompany me go school... haizx haizx
well till today then i know where she sit in the morning... center of the parade square... haha from my sitting position i can saw her... well today f&n very boring.. so boring... everyone so quiet... mandy also quiet... haha so nothing to do.. also quiet lohx... then keep on doing my work... suddenly she sms me... heehee... ... cos her teacher quite xiong de... cannot sms too much... haha she say she afraid of MDM GOH... tat o ba sa... haha aunty goh... no worry will go and have a talk with her de... ask her give me some face... dun scold u too much... heehee...
hmm today recess also very funny... after eating... going back to class... we went pass baobao class... haha she behind me yet i dun even know... keep on looking into her class... haha after tat then i know she behind me... aiseh... no face le la... then her frenx came by and say to darryl dun disturb her le.. haha stupid darryl...
all the way till school end... kanna hold back by mrs ho... sweat... stay back to nearly 2pm... haha while on the way to basketball court... saw her... standing outside class... looking aimlessly... dunno is it looking at me is it... haha well i stand at one side and watching her every movement.. she smile look pretty... the face to cute... pink pink... haha well she dun put any make up de.. so tat make her more attractive to me... haha she was talking with other guy... haha wonder is it i become mature le or changed in my attitude... i dun feel jealous at all... is like maybe we need to find a balance in our love relationship and frenx relationship... so tat we can last all these relationship for long...
playing bball at the school... till about 3 like this... haha then went in to the library... borrow some books... then she sms me... ask me where am i... well i say i am in school.. after a while she reply she just went out of school... ... haizx becos i promised darryl they all i will accompany take taxi to their house there... then take bus 12 go for tuition... well she and me like going place tat name are alike... i going to temasek jc for tuition and she's going to ngee ann for tuition also.. haha... after tuition i sms her... say when we in school i wont go disturb her le... wont go and stand in front of her and say hi to her.. maybe we r not close ennough bahx... haha well maybe really getting uneasy when never sms or see eeach other le... she say if i never go up and say hi to her in school she will come and say to me... so steady... haha no la... try my best bahx... still shy... she's so hardworking... everyday study till so late... sayang... no worry... i will support u no matter wat...
weeeeeee... hee hee... i am now her teacher le... gonna teach her chinese and social studies le... heehee... studying at the school canteen together... wow... so close with her... well can see her pink pink face will let my heart stop bleeding and forget any unhappy thing... haha ok ok gonna sleep soon le... to learn many thing... got more confident for 'o' level le... haha... bb... miss ya baobao

wtf.... damm today... kan sway... morning... bet world cup lose money... lose $100 sia... damm these few day like lose lots of thing... haizx let me learn alot... alot alot...
well today in chinese lesson... it seem to be the lowest point of my life... shui min use my phone and send some unpleasant thing to baobao.. haizx she totally fare up with me for the whole day... dun wanna reply my sms... haizx heart damm pain lo... li's like my heart bleeding again... haizx now i know i am a sinner... last time toy with so many gal heart... now my gal angry with me... haizx... totally sad till afternoon she willing to reply me le... welll guess i lose her faith and trust for me... she hate boy to treat gal heart like this... haizx... well now we seem to going back to normal le... but must rebuild our whole trust and faith again...
well afternoon when sleeping... she called me and finding me... well i thought she got wat good news for me... but it seem she like care about her thing only... well i cant blame her... cos i know when she talking to me she is having a hard time... well is not i dun wanna understand the situation is like... the way she talk to me... the way she type words to me... every word every single word is penetrated through my heart.. maybe i was really at fault 1st... haizx father... pls forgive your son still being so stupid and didn't seem to change anything.. father pls help me change myself not when the time someone will leave me damm far away...
after some thought maybe wat father teach may not be right... must forgive the person who done something wrong to u but never forget how they treat u when u need them.... seem like she wanna me to forget her too... well ok father i will try my best.. promise to be a better man... never ever let someone be so angrily talking with me anymore... maybe when the time i really gone... then she will be able to live in peace...
hmm nbm... i must live like a bird... fly high and throw away every sadness we had and get ourselve free... hope next match i will win some money back... haha seem like i get over it le... forgive and forget... thank father... bb

yo yo yo... today was like... damm sianz... still the same... never saw her often only i think about few times... then she was like she can saw me whenevery she one... haiyo God y like this... haha we keep on sms everyday... till very very late then every night always got many sweet thing to share... haha...
today si hui so funny... come to talk to me so many times.. haha ask me got bet world cup anot.. yeah of cos... then i with yong wei brotherhood 1st time lose money... but nbm... it a good happy memory.. haha in the last few months or weeks is like we all cold cold de... but after going to church and all these and tat we all are like brother again... thank God... well today gonna bet on brazil...
just now come home online... si hui find me... haha ask me who baobao... so i tell her now still cannot say.. when we stable le then i will let her know... haha she my sister... of cos will tell her but only when i dare to talk to baobao in front of so many people... hahaha
today recess i am so disappointed sia.. me jeryl darryl shui min yong wei they all... went pass her class... then saw her... omg this is the 1st time i really feel my face damm hot... i think shy too much... haha she also shy... then darryl and shui min... these 2 useless guy... wa lao shout so loud her name... haha i run away sia... haizx... then they keep pulling me back... i think i not like last time le... haha but it's ok father will help me get through this... then baobao sms me... is it just now i call her... i say no then sorry never go talk to her... haha... sweet... saw her pink pink face again... haha.. she sms me in the class... asking me why never go talk to her.. her frenx keep bullying her... say y i carry my tail and runn de... haizx she starting angry with me... sad... then i tolld her ok i will change... will go talk to her... haha... a good start... she today whole day very busy... got training in schoool then after tat lesson... poor baobao... she say she miss me today... omg omg omg omg omg... i am so high now... wahahaha.. must faster get my confident back.. so i can talk to her... look through her eye to calm me down... yeah...
hmmm baobao say she also like junyang and he jun xiang... the guy who starring in the er mo zai shen bian... so we go buy the disc together... we share share money... haha she ask me to keep... next time can watch together if got chance... hmm is this giving me chance? omg omg... i cant tahan le... cant sleep today... now a day... always listen to 2moro de qian zhe ni... haha well we both like this song... so happy....... ok now need to go bath... then watch world cup... oh ya... haven give baobao a call... call her tell her i going to watch world cup... after tat go home study le... she sure nag nag nag... hahaha welll i like she to nag at me... =) oink oink take care le oink oink oink oink oink oink oink oink

oh today school reopen... nice nice... haha it so funny feeling going back to school... its like oh my final year in coral le... gonna leave this school after spending 6 years in here... so many memory in here... haha...
hmm today went to school with happy mood... haha i saw my bao bao... haizx... i miss her so much.. yet only saw her twice in school today only... well not like her she saw me so many times... haha ask her y never come and chat with me... she say she shy when we so openly meet and so many people around.. haha shy lehx... lol i also... but seeing her face let me forget many thing le... so cute cute.. pink pink de face... haha today lend her the disc... haha she like dun wanna own me anything tomoro will return me... haha she so good... well none of my ex is like this de... haha...
just now sms with her... she so sweeeeeeeetttt.... hahaha i think i rather be ant soon.. haha... ok ok i today with yong wei they all bet the soccer match... so now must go watch le... kkx later come back then update... =) love baobao... miss ya so much

well... today i went to church with darryl ashui min and yong wei... haha know so many frenx... they are such friendly people.. well as usual when i know many stranger at a time i will be damm shy.. haha.. today 234795 = baobao... yay she become my baobao... although we haven stead but gonna let her have faith and trust in me 1st... well she asked me a strange question... if she left 15 sec to live wat will i say to her? hmm my 1st reaction is tat hmm dun leave me again... i was left alone by her oncce le... very scare to be lonely again.. so i reply her.. from the bottom of my heart... " dun leave me pls, i was lonely once dun wanna be again le... if can i'll request a wish fro God, let me die in her place instead and when i die, i can be her guardian angel and watch over her every min and sec" well... this was wat i thought when she asked me tat question... haha she reply saying she didn't thought i will answer tat way... she thought i will just go find other gal... well no i am not these kinda person.. she say she very very touch... tat very sweet of me... well i reply her le... saying this is not about sweet word... i gone through so much... learn many thing... got a lesson which is so painful so now it make me change as a person in its attitude... well i dunno y i feel kinda strange when never sms her.. haha then so i bet on everything i had in me and her relationship now... when about 2 something... meeting jeryl darryl and yw going to gym at tampines swimming pool there... 2.30pm reach there... wait for them for about an hour.. shit.... well i also need to thank them... hee eeee.. oink oink... i sms her... asking her does she feel my presense in her heart make an impression... well she dun get wat i mean so i just ask it directly... after all these days of smsing meeting and phoneing... she say dunno whether got anot... but she will also feel uneasy when never sms with me... aiseh... haha so happy... then she say maybe yes le bahx... i getting more and more into her life now... hmm well i dun intent to stead so fast... just wanna help her in her o lvl chinese in this year end... and her studies too... must really help her le... hmm she's also going more and more deep into my life now... well i cant say tat i can't live without her but i do know now i can't live when we are not smsing or talking ... haha she gone overseas ytd... miss her sia... haha when she come back she sms me tat question... wat if she left 15 sec to live... haha... she also like to say b**s then now becos of her i nearly get infected haha... so i now oink oink with her... haha then went to cut my hair... aiseh from a yandao hair to a army hair... sweat.. haha but still very cute... hmm after eating dinner... i wen to sleep awhile... dream of her... nice dream... dream of after o lvl... i get my car... i bring her go round singapore and malaysia.. haha so romantic seh... well nowaday i dun think of those dirty thing like i used to think in the past.. now i only hope to have a stable relationship and not crossing the border line... hmm now thinking for the past one month is like... hmm always cry in the starting but now is like i dun shed a tear for someone who dun worth it le... although is still abit paiseh when we meet in school but well i got all over it... give her a smile or maybe a hi then walk away... this is baobao and my cousin teach de... must learn... this is call gentleman... now... can't stop thinking of baobao... haha... is like her face... so pink sia... very cute... next time if our relationship really stable le... i will bring her go let my cousin see... now then i know dun becos of a tree give up the whole forest... i still very grateful to keying for wat she did to me... heehee oink oink... b**s b**s haha dun misunderstand is not a vuglar or wat is like dun wanna write all out later she angry with me... haha oink... thank God for giving me a new life when i am in my lowest point of my life... thank God for letting me know my baobao... i will promise to learn from the past to avoid another mistake again... thank God Amen

wahaha.. today went out with my cousin and his stead... kenneth... haha we went to parkway shop shop awhile then go roxy square there play pool... hahah funny... after so long never touch seem my skill never deprove... hahaha good... after tat we went to really shop shop in parkway... haha then saw some children show... funny... and yo yo road show... it's like wow... damm those american damm many skill to show... i was like woot... if i can perform up there dunno whether she will come back and see me anot... haha.. hmm after tat we went to marina south to eat... last time my cousin work and chiong at there one... haha... so go back and see some of his old frenx.. or maybe uncle... then is like... so manny food.. one whole plate of chicken another plate of roast meat and some fat meat... then some more i stupid enough to order prawn noodle... so much... thought cant finish at 1st.. but in the end we the three fan tong... haha ate the whole chicken up but left the prawn noodle... well nbm can ta bao for my family... hmm then my cousin have talk with me... it's like he also encourage me to forget ky... well i know... i am already trying very hard le... is like my tong dang people, cousin and many frenx and also 243795 helping me to forget her...haha... then we went to play game... haha went to play daytona at 1st... then after tat scare too bright in between my cousin and his stead so i went to play other game... well i played bomber man... last time used to play with her de... hmm so many months never play le... skill lost... haha use one coin only can reach till stage 4 only... now then i know how she have been a great help to me in the past... last time we 2 can use one coin for each of us to complete the whole game... now one person... seem to be so diff.. haha but 243795 told me she also like to play bomber man... yes man... if she willing to play with me... i can take away the image i used to have when seeing this game and create a new one with her... haha hmm after the game stil left some coin... go play the pick up toys the game... wasted $3 to get a big winnie the pool... haha well actually thought of giving it to her but she told me she like another thing... some more write in her msn sia... so blushed... hahaha so i give the toy to a gal there... well she thought i was like wanna get her phone number so she give it to me... haha well i dun intent to becos i dun wanna like last time so flirt... always go round talk to gal then lie to her is them make me their god bro... haha well i know my mistake so i just take the number down... haha dunno is it after breaking with her my ren yuan become so good or maybe now i am confident in myself neh??? omg i use neh... lol kanna affected by her le... lol... later more and more unusual words come out... haha well she gone overseas le... miss her sia... is like 1 day one nia... miss so much mehx??? dunno y the past 1 month i always cry cry for her... but now suddenly i dun cry anymore but miss 243795 le... is like miss her dressing at library and her so so pink face... haha guess i got over it... hmm is a good sign... learn a lesson... hope i wont repeat my mistake again... thank to her i suddenly feel how many real good frenx and brother i have... and also if nothing happen i wont know my feeling for 243795 growing day by day... so cool man... hmm next week my cousin wanna bring me go pub... hmm hope wont get other gal affect me again... i really treasure her alot now... miss her so much now... yeah gtg le... see ya... bye bye lo... neh neh neh... hahahaha i miss u

well... today i gone for a hair cut... hmm not bad... quite style... but very ah beng sia... haha 1st time my cousin cut for me... must treasure this hair style le... hmm sim card siao siao again... cant sms people... can call but cannot sms... haizx... cannot sms her... miss her sia.. just now had a talk with my brother... darryl and shui min... they know wat problem i having now... although i dun wanna admit.. but i still miss 'her'... really miss her... but is like 243795 starting to get my attention away from her... maybe she is not as serious as 'her' but i do hope as time goes by... i can change everything... hope from this lesson i will take it into my heart aand treasure my next one better... dun let the same mistake again and history repeat itself again... although i been crying for the past one month but everytime after i cry... i seem to forgeting her bit by bit second by second... seem to lesser my pain... good... and now i starting to believe in GOD le... hope he will take me away from the pain i having now... well i seem to have change... for a better person le... good keep it up ting song.... last but not least... tian hui hei hui bu hui rang wo wang le ni shi shui... mean the sky will become dark... will it let me forget who u r??? well i guess i wont forget the happiness and sadness and pain keying left for me in my memory... i just take it as a lesson not to let thing go easily again in my life... must 1st let them have faith in me 1st before anything else... bye bye... today i feel so relieve... happy

haha... ytd i was like a boy... still need to beg someone to forgive me.. nearly flood my own house... haha after tat meet my jie out... wa lao.. kanna one slap from her.. scold me till i am so weak... now think of it very funny.. few hours ago... i am just like a lamb... waiting for someone to accept to kill me off or take me in... but now... today meet her at the library with her small cute cute brother... haha so cute sia... she ask him to call kor kor.. he say hello kor kor... aiseh very cute lehx... heehee... accompany her and her brother walk around the library... finding book for her brother... then when i touch her brother head.. look into her eye... omg... i going to faint soon... i kanna attracted le... if i not wrong she today put make up... her cheek so pink... cute cute cute... now i cant stop thinking about her... dunno y got this feeling... when ever i had the thought of ky... she suddenly appear into my mind and stop ky from destroying my life again... thank god... fate let ky walked out of my life and turn into whole place darkness... then fate again let '243795' enter my life again and bring a glim of light into my world... hee hee... after they borrow the book... i sms her how about going for movie with her brother... i dun mind taking care of him... haha... actually we plan to go on today de but today i got mock exam so everything blown up... bloody mock exam... but never mind... i hoping next sat will come soon... hoping for it so much... cant wait to wait movie with her... even with a child sitting in between ask... hope she dun mind i jio her now... i know o lvl coming... she also worry for me... but for her sake and let her parent agree on this relationship i must work hard... work hard... i need to be damm hardworking... so happy now... thinking of her every moment every second... i will try to take a neo print with them on next sat... haha must wear nice nice le... wear jean... haha cant wait for it man.. i try to update as much as possible... haha so xin fu now... finally can forget her totally... now hope tat i never met her be4.. so i wont be so sad in the past few weeks... =) bye bye...

... today i make thing clear le... she will no longer live insside my heart le... look's like i need to change the heart house door le... hope there will be some princess tat can open tat door and make my heart as her castle le... today quite down but tomoro i will update more... =)

hmm... where shall i start??? i dream about you... was quite a so 'called' sweet dream... haha well cant really say it out here... cos this dream belong to me only haha... day after day... time pass away... holiday is gonna end soon le... sad... but in another meaning... o lvl is coming soon... haha hope i can get about 20 to 24 for my L1R4... so i can go study the course i wanted my life to be in... afternoon got a call from xiao hui.. haha she's so good man.. give me free tuition... some more treat me eat... hmm well about yesterday body scent question she asked me how come i am so interested in body scent... haha maybe my nose very sensitive bahx... but after all i like body scent smell good de gal... like this when u r going out with them they wont let u feel paiseh... haha well i guess i am not tat sad anymore le.. becos someone make me believe in myself when she can't help me any more... becos she lift my world now... seeing you living happily i guess i have done my part le... although promise are nothing but words with no meaning... but when you make tat promise i always have some hope believe in it... maybe i am using xiao hui as a replacement now... but it take times to heal the scar... at least ky didn't let me waste my 3 years of memory in my life... we created many thing other couple cant finish it and we hold on as long as we can... leaving is just a stop for us to rest in order to walk a more long road in our life... i never hate keying before but only love in it... hope after o lvl one prince charming will come and save her from her family problem and other problem... as a frenx now... i only can give her my best wishes and if can just be a guardian angel... be there when she need me =)... hmmm now gonna go jogging le... later still need to watch world cup then study till about 4 am bahx... if later got any funny thing i will update in here... see ya...

woot.. today morning had my o lvl practical exam... it's like oh man... although i have prepare for this exam and i am quite confident in my cooking but it's seem tat teacher seem abit baised against me.. haha nbm la now watever thing i do i am confident with... haha
after the exam... saw mandy and lucas walking toward to the white sand there... haha starting thought they stead le... haha but now still think they are steading haha... reach home about 3 pm soon... while taking bath till half way... she called me sia... lol funny... was like omg bath till half way need to come out and answer the phone with just a towel to cover myself... haha... she wanna treat me eat becos ytd helped her spotted a pervert... haha well got free dinner who dun wan.. haha meet her about 6 going 7 pm le we went to HANS and enjoy the dinnner... hmm ordered a beef steak... memory flashed through my mind again.. when our 2 yr anniversary tat day... we order a LOVE beef steak to eat together bahx.. haha now think of it... quite sweet, at least make me learnt a lesson... hmm while eating, we talk alot of our past... hmm.. can't believe a gal like her kanna cheat by a guy before... sweat... nb must find the guy out... y cheat a gal like her... well i think i am in no position to scold tat guy as i cheated 'her' before... sad.. i guess after tat incident i changed alot... real lot... suddenly while eating i can talk alot chat like siao... haha while i talk about 'her' in front of her... she say i quite a chi qing guy... wear green hat before still can forgive her... hahah well love is just a strange thing... even through u know love betray u before yet u still able to accept her when she return to your side...
hmm suddenly my whole heart sink... thinking y isn't she the one sitting in front of me... nearly drop a tear sia... so paiseh... haha... well she make a turn inn my life now... while thinking of 'her' she splash a few drop of water in my face... omg.. make me nearly blow my top.. well i asked her wth she doing... she ask me look at her... hmm 1st time i dare to look at a stranger so close before... she said "whenever your world turn into darkness, look further away into the road down in your life, u will see a angel holding a light ready to bring u out of darkness"... well i think sort of this bahx.. haha... after dinnner walked her home... on the way home her body scent... wow... smell good.. lol asked her wat shampoo she use.. she say natural de... hmm suddenly think of 'her'... she also got a natural body scent... lol i must be siao le... gal around me always can sense their body scent... lol monster arhx me...
well reached her door step le.. her parent saw me... lol thought i am her new bf.. lol i say we are just normal normal frenx... haha while walking home... i thinking y thing in these world so strange strange de... few day ago my life was totally upside down.. now suddenly like someone new entering my life... haizx hope she will not cross the limit bahx... the pain in my arm will make me remind of something which i rather not touch again...
no worry be happy...

wahahaha... i lost 5 kg in this holiday... wooooooo... it make me feel so unbelievable... wahahaha... so happpy man... today morning... my cousin jio me go wild wild wet with him for free as he receive 4 ticket free entrance to the wild wild wet... haha so of cos me him his 'wife' and his 'wife' frenx... lol we met before in the pub de... haha... when we reach there is about 9 am bahx... or maybe 10.. never see the watch properly... haha... when we went in change... i asked my cousin wat his stead wearing... need me to wear sunglass anot... haha he say no worry no one will take her away de... hahaha... we waiting at the lazy pool there... suddenly they appear beind our back... woooot... my cousin stead wear quite ok ok la... but her frenx... wa make me nearly nose bleeding... bikini sia... wa pang... after tat... memory flash through my mind... "she's" in my mind when we resting... but i told myself today should forget u and enjoy myself from these past few day of super stress... while we are playing the 6 man going down the tube.. one guy so pervert sia... always eat her tofu hahaaha... i told my cousin about it and he stare the guy after i told him... ahahha when we get down my cousin talk to tat guy... hahah very funny sia... hum like siao... he say cos he can't control the force so will touch here touch there... hahaha i almost laugh like siao... so lame sia... hahaha... after this incident... we went for a drink at the pizza hut inside... haha suddenly spotted my skin abit crack le... maybe slim down le then the skin return to it's old form le.. haha so happy... around 4 something we decide to go change and have some fun in the pool table... haha i team up with her while my cousin of cos with his wife... haha we play like a stranger like this... haha i dun dare take the shot while she was also shy shy de... haha in the end my cousin group win... after tat i told her we must win at least one round... so we team up strongly and kick their butt... hahaha final score 6-4 hahah we win lehx... dun siao siao... haha after tat i bring her home... she stay at kembangan... haha near my house mrt... but luckily cousin drive... save the money up... haha then just be a gentleman lo... bring her up... stay at condo sia.. rich gal... haha she say thank for coming out and accompany her today... haha i say i am still kid when in playing so i always there for fun.. no need thank de... saw her smile at me before she close the door... suddenly i thought it was u... ky... so sweet to me at last... after a while i awake up from the day dreaming... reality is always so cruel to me... maybe it is kind to me in another way bahx... haha after tat my cousin bring me home... haha thank man... thank for today fun... gtg le... going to watch world cup... got gamble some so must see whether got win money bo... haha see ya

haizx... me seem still the same... y my stupid brain cant think?? nb... always think here think there... think fun fare is it??? looks like i gonna stand up... really must stand up... family problem is my most important thing now... dun think of any other thing... i going take over family business soon... in these few years time... no more time to think of L O V E le... must think of how to work le... suddenly so mant people scolded me... my jie my kor and my mei... all scold me stupid enough... haizx i really good for nothing... must change my thinking le... everyday i seem to be able to grow into a adult... must also think like a adult... well now she's not in my mind le... i must put all my thinking and heart onto my o and then help my father le... rmb... before 22 years old must open a company.... before 24 years old make my 1st million dollar... come on... i can do it without u in my mind.. yes one day by one day... i will forget de... jia you le chong...

phew... just had a super long day from sing to aus... then from aus to sing... wooot.. damm tired... but now my blog has been reborn so nicely so shouldn't waste it.. where should i start? hmmm ok 1st i not going for a holiday.. while it is to get my visa done... so if i needed to leave sing and study at aus... with the visa it will be much easy than without it... ok my whole day was very confuse and maybe abit sad... well as far as i guess i think she never read my blog le bahx.. only the title bahx... yesterday had a conversation with her.. haizx so disappointed or maybe very disappointed from her... she was like... suddenly another person... not the same old innocent ky anymore... haizx.. she wanted me so fast to forget about her and stand up on my own... well when we are steading she doesn't allow me to go make any frenx while she have the right to have frenx... like yong wei si hui or other guys frenx... haizx... see her nick ke wang ai qing... haizx she can so fast forget me de.. nbm... i got nothing to say... maybe in yesterday conversation she may have hint me tat she may be in love with another guy le bahx... haizx dunno y seems to be able to forget her image in my mind le but suddenly see her like this and treat me like this make me so heart pain... real damm pain... suddenly she treat me like this make me really living in hell... haizx is she toying with my feeling??? now i dun even wanna ask her le... she's like dun wanna talk to me... she herself build a wall up and block me to the back of the wall... haizx god pls... wat did i done wrong to her... y must she treat me like this? i can swear my love for her really very very deep... maybe is becos she got frenx all these to help her forget about me le bahx... well i know she may have suffer when she was with me but after we break i really start to see thing well... able to know wat is childish and wat is the right thing to do... haizx
at the plane the airport waiting anywhere i was missing her so damm much... cant hide this feeling... gal... feeling cant be play with... i wan to study i wan to lve normally but she was so deep into my life and heart le... haizx... maybe i am thinking too much le bahx
maybe i will go lazer away my tattoo for her bahx... since i can't really bring her back and can't give her the love she wan... i ren shu le bahx but if she can find another guy i will wish her gd luk and maybe ask tat guy must take care her very well... she's a good gal.. i won't deny tat.. when she love u so deep she can be a really good wife... she don't even mind are u rich or poor... maybe all she need is a ai qing while not like me... i can't even give her a mature secure... while writing this blog... my tears couldn't hold back... now i feeling much much better le... maybe she's right... i not the guy suit her after all... all i can do now is to give her my best wishes... mei yi ci he ni fen kai... wo sheng sheng bei ni da bai... kiss goodbye... *as time goes by... she will forget me and forget all the promise or watever thing we had.. while i will rmb till the day i lay down in my coffin... thank to her.. i know wat is true love taste or feel like before*

wahahaha... so long never blog le... almost forgotten my pass le haha... haizx so many thing happen... starting couldn't get used to it but after sometime my heart seem to be able to calm down le.. so strange... about 1 week ago i went to bugis there... alone sia.. so lonely.. haha then went past a tattoo shop... suddenly have a idea to make a tattoo there.. y i choose tat place?? cos many memory flash back my mind and i got lot of memory there... haha... went in and directly ask for some words... woo... starting i nearly wet my pant haha... saw the needle so sharp.. sharp like hell sia... but when he start to draw on my arm... i feel so... hmm so call calm down alot.. cos the pain is taking away all my attention... haha... suddenly i only know the pain is having in my arm... not on my heart hahaha... but after some day she scolded me... scold me till very jia lard... but thank to her.. i suddenly awake... woot... finally heart dun feel so pain le... haha.. ok this story end... another story... haha ytd... went to play basketball with shui min and jeryl... something very very strange happen... suddenly my arm with tattoo de become very hot and pain... wtf... play till half way so pain... make my game like shit... luckily got jeryl in my team... he manage to scold 6 out of the 11 balls... i am saved.. after the game... went home and bath... later on my cousin jio me out to make me forget about all those pain i having now... we went to MOS... haha watch world cup with other... haha... i still wondering is it true my life is filled with tao hui de... went there... i thought i saw u man... really i saw the back view just like u... i went to call tat gal with your name... shouted keying so lot sia hahaahaha but when she turn around... omg i got the wrong person... haha.. after tat i went back to the sit with my cousin... haha her gf come join us for a drink... with her frenx... lol 17 years old only same like u.. haha then we chat lo... i told her these few week just break with a 3 yr relationship with my gf and feeling very down... then she ask how i get out of it.. haha i say i stupid enough to get a scold from u then i awake de... haha suddenly she spotted my tatttoo in my arm... haha she say i am so chi qin... in this age so hard to find le.. haha by tat time i already abit drunk haha... but still i am awake only my face red red only haha... when we finish our party in the MOS my cousin brought us home.. hui jia lo... haha in the car damm funny her frenx come and ask for my number.. haha i say i fat short and not very handsome de dun waste a space in her phone memory... haha she say nbm she now very interested to get me out of my lost world and create a new one with her... siao man.. just break can go for another relationship... sorry i not tat kind of person now... under the pressure of my cousin and cousin's gf i gotta give.. sad... haha this morning sms me at 10... siao... i ytd 6 then sleep where got so early wake up... haha wondering wth my charisma is... but too bad i am reeally deeply in love with her be4... wont so fast forget her de... i know she wont bother to read my blog de but still hope after o she will give me a chance to be her devil... last time always she is the one who fu chu alot alot... so if i got the chance again i hope she will let me be the one fu chu all my heart and soul just to help her get out of her problem now... i know she facing lots of problem so i dun expect her to come back to me... but i know when i finish o... i will find way to help her and her family de... i swear if she can give me one more chance after o... i will try or maybe never let her cry again le... she will only cry becos i done something xin fu thing to her and make her smile like angel... haizx but i know she wont bother to give me chance le... so just hope i can be her guardian angel... hmm i got a plan... if i got the change to stay in singapore... i will open a shop with her name... sell clothes... haha like this i will make her the designer... design for my shop only... hahaha... smart lehx... the money income she get 60% of it and i will get 40% hahaa... so she can help her dad in some way bahx... haha good plan... ok ok gotta go aus now le... sianz... going for a 3 days break... also to bring my mum and bro back to sing... haha go there to make my visa so i can study there if i need to de... bye bye... =)