okay back to blogging again.
since i got lots of time to blog.

Finally, after so many hours,
dear has forgive me.
but well, still can see the anger or rage in her eyes that
she's still angry with me.

at least for the time being i am happy.
from this incident,
learnt alot of thing.

used to think i can act normal if one day she has leave me,
used to think although i can't live well without her,
used to think there will be people out there to calm my heart down if something happen.

NO NO NO NO NO NO.
i was so wrong.
time passes so slow that it seems to me the world has stop spinning just becos of me.
i got no mood for anything. even friends joke or 'lovely act' can make me smiles.
no matter how many people out there to calm me down, i am still emotional unstable.

LOVE
from the past till now, it's a deadly posion that will posion living thing without taking in or touching it.
normally it's using eye sight and feeling to get posion.
while, i admit,
i'm being deeply posion now.
even remove my eyes or any part of my body,
it still can't cure me.
the only medicine or cure in this world,
being with her will let me being free from the posion temp.
holding her will allow me to change into another guy,
a guy with lots of energy. (okay i know, abit of manga animation.)
kissing her will slowly decrease the effect of the posion.
after all, being quite emotional now,
i am sure,
1 day,
without her,
i will be DEAD for sure.
nothing will ever be the same if u leave me.

I promise you my love
I promise you my heart
I promise you my life
I promise we'll never be apart

I promise not to hurt you(if possible)
I promise to never make you cry(i will try my very best)
I promise to always trust you(from on, yes i promise)
I promise not to lie(never did i lie to u before)

I promise you forever
I promise you tonight
I promise you my respect
I promise to do things right

I promise to always be there
I promise until the end
I promise to always love you
I promise to be your best boyfriend/husband in the future

I promise you my love
I promise you my life
I promise this forever
I promise our LOVE is my life


I love your eyes.
Everytime I look into them,
I am lost.
I fall deeper and deeper into the spell they cast upon me.
I can't help but look.

I love you smile.
Everytime you smile at me,
I feel the warmth of the sun shinning down on me.
It warms me more than cuddling in front of a brand new fire.
I can't help but smile back.

I love your kisses.
Everytime your lips touch mine,
I feel an endless stream of passion.
It sends me on a journey, a journey in which I do no mind taking.
I can't help but kiss you.

I love your touch.
Everytime your skin touches mine,
I feel the most enlivening feeling I have ever felt.
It is the feeling of a pounding heart and a shivering soul.
I can't help but touch you.

I love everything about you.......


My love for you grows stronger
Everytime I think of you
My life for you opens
Everytime I see you
My passion for your soul
Grows deeper everyday
My caring for your heart
Never fades away

The smoothness of your skin
Feels warm and makes me melt
The touch of you kiss
Is something i never felt
The way you hold me late at night
Makes everything feel heavenly right
the love I give to you
Is fulfilling and oh so true

I love the way you make me feel
I love the way I know its real
I love the way you look at me
I'll cherish your love for eternity

With the sky so bright,
I see it through
That i only want to be with you
With my love up above
Your love is like a flame
You took my heart
Your the one to blame

Now God I know you'll help us
Our love is in your hands
Make me the best man for her
As I'll make her be the best women!

I LOVE YOU!

becos of this incident,
discover something about me.
becos of so many incident happen to me in these few weeks,
i've got an illness.
well, not many people will visit my blog so i guess should be fine for me to blog it out.

well, let me write something that i can share with everyone.

FRIENDS

SUSU THE SI AH MA(ang shu shen) single
haha, she's basically a nice girl, yea, a very very ncie girl.
she can laugh alot, talk alot, eat alot, smile alot, EMO alot, pinch people alot,
be nasty at times, can be naughty at times, cry out of sudden & brighten up a sad person day.

WADI(erwandi) single
okay this guy here. how should i describe him?
he's my personal maid, thank to me he got the name wadi.
he's a very friendly person to me.
he can make u laugh out of nothing
laugh the hell out of u.
being emo at times too.
likes to shopping alot.
he's those who can shop till drop people.
he can be nasty at times.
can suan people like hell.
he's always the source of laughter in the group.
it's good to know him in my lifetime.

PANGPANG(koh pang chuen) single
this guy here?
a rather blur guy to most of us.
he look blur.
he looks like a lost kid in our school.
he's very friendly.
he's also very helpful which i don't know why!!!
he's one of the rumour in our group.
he's a shy guy.
he will like/love a girl and just kept quiet about it.
a rather MR NICE GUY!!!
he's a good friend. =)

PANDA(siew ling???) single
okay, sorry, i don't know wad's her surname and how to spell her name too.
she's a girl who can talk talk talk alot.
like a machine gun.
non stop action.
she's can be quite funny and blur sometimes.
oh ya, one of the way to identify her straight away is her
chinese cum english cum singlish cum some direct? malay slang.
very creative.

SI FANG GAY(jordan lim wee shen) unidentify
SQUARE GAY
okay la, this guy here. can be funny.
can be lame.
he love square. yea.
especially square face.
wahhaha.
he's one of my good brother in school!!!

HOLES GAY(alex wong chun liang) single
yea, he's a very friendly guy.
he love to sing.
love to eat nice food.
he can sing non stop for the whole day.
his hideout should be KBOX or PARTYWORLD
sometimes his action will make u feel that u're in the zoo.
wahahhaa.
his love??? siew chu.
haha. beauty therpy girl somemore.
wad a nice taste.
lolx

SI ELIN(elinkwan) attached
okay,
she's a gal,
who can keep alot of secret.
she can be your best friend or bestie.
she's a nice person to talk with.
she's not a nice person to be nasty with.
alot of swearing words can be heard from her.
she's a must have friend in your life.

TUDI(rosanne)attached
well she's a nice student of mine.
she can be helpful at times. depending on who's that person.
she a information collector.
chatting with her can update u with lots of stuff.
she'a nice friend.
she can be nasty too.
she got a big backing too.
so be careful.
wahahhaaha.

STUPID COMMON FACE(clarence wang) single
he is the best brotherhood i have in my lifetime.
we went through alot of stupid stuff during our secondary school life.
got into fights with other people or GANG.
a can be trusted guy.
will fly down if possible to help u.
quite nonsense at times.
always ask me for girls number
quite dashing.
quite romantic guy.
maybe a dream guy for many girls.

The 5!!! (shuimin, darryl, yong wei & jeryl)
they are the best secondary school friends i can have.
share alot of laughter and stupid stuff too.
share alot of dirty jokes too.(esp shuimin & darryl)
will always be there for u if u need.
thanks bros.

MU CHUN TUO SAI (di long kor) attached
he's my big bro.
taken care of me during my childish period
a good frenx of my cousin too.
both of them are always there for me if something happen to me.
that's one of the reason why i am still alive after so many childish incidents.
can be ruthless most of the time.
a quite good looking guy. yeah,

PMC
yea got alot of frenx there.
shaun, anna, jocelyn, marie, keng keong, sister ze yi & Dr yang qing.
yea, they teaches me alot of stuff.
they are also there for me too.
thank guys.

OTHERS
thanks for being part of my life too.
i'm sorry if your name are not mention here,
yea but u guys do play a minor part in my life too so u must be glad. =)


sorry for the long post. been typing for the past 2 hours.
yea.
need to rest too. =)

hi hi everyone. i guess not many people visit my blog le.
well due to some incident,
not updating my blog often.

so nnow let start with some topic.

FRIENDS

well well, topic about friend.
been having rollar coaster in my life,
many upset thing happen.
everything in my life had changed.

one by one, frenx had forsaken me and leave,
why? it's not becos i didn't call them out or wad so ever.
it's just becos i had changed.

they say i changed to another person,
yup,
i admit,
i had changed.

to a guy who will put family and gf on the top of his list.
i'm sorry if i had changed and drifting away from u guys.
many incident happened and show me that one by one,
frenx betray my trust and stab my back with just one hit.

i am learing to take thing easily and not being emotional.
forgive and forget,
but in our life,
we can forgive one person of his/her wrong doing.
but we will never forget about wad he had done.

i'm just human.


LOVE
well my love life been having rollar coaster ride too.
i done something which hurt u and cause some scar/hurt in this relationship.
i know u won't forgive me now. just wanna say i'm sorry for wad i have say.
if i am given the chance to turn back time, i will say
never once i regreted loving u.
loving u is one of the happiness thing i had done in my life.
bringing u smiles make me feel i am the happiness guy in this world.
bringing laughter to u make my heart pumping all the way into your heart.
sadness make us suffer and never will i wanna to taste it again.'
this time round, it's my fault and i know i can't be forgiven by u again.
i am down on my knee begging for your forgiveness.

Since I met you,
I've fallen in love with you
at least a hundred times
for a hundred different reasons.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
when I watch you doing something you enjoy,
something you're so involved in that
you're unaware of my presence.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
when I listen to you talk to other people.
Whether you're being interesting and funny
or warm and caring and genuinely concerned,
you have a way of making people feel better with nothing more than words.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
just thinking about you,
remembering all the memories we've made...
falling in love for the first time,
staying in love during the rough times,
finding more to love about each other every day.
And whenever I think about the wonderful things that lie ahead of us,
I fall totally and completely in love with you
all over again.

What my heart tells me
Is that there is no one else on earth
Who can make me feel the way you do
From the first day that we met
You made me forget all my fears
And you have shown me that God really does
Have one special heart for each of us to find
You are the one God has guided me to
What my heart tells me
Is that I can never love anyone
As much as I love and care for you
And how my feelings grow stronger each day
I can't imagine not being able to hold you
I want to share my life with you for the rest of forever
You make me the person I have always hoped to be
What my heart tells me
Is that God has provided me with your loving heart
And I will do everything within my power
To provide the best for you each and every day
Everytime I see you walk into a room
My heart never fails to beat faster and stronger
This is how I know you are the one for me
For the rest of the time the Lord gives me
I give you my heart and for you I will do
What My Heart Tells Me


You ask me if I love you,
and I ask myself how to begin
to share with you
the feelings in my heart.
You inspire in me a love so deep
words cannot describe it,
so powerful that it overwhelms
my every thought.
You ask me if I love you,
and I wish there were a way
you could just see into my soul
and find the depth of passion,tenderness, and love
that holds you closer to my heart
than anyone or anything else.
You ask me if I love you,and I look into the magic
of your eyes and promise,
"Yes I love you... ...I always will".


When I think of my love for you
the wonder of its beauty takes my breath away.
I cannot recall the moment in time it began,
but only the overwhelming feeling of ecstasy it brought to me.
For at that moment I knew happiness.
A happiness I had never known before.
For just the thought of you gave me joy beyond belief.
The thought of being with you and being held by you was my one desire
I knew once we first met none other would ever do,
for I knew love.
I knew love as I had never thought possible in this life time.
It is a love of passion and desire.
It is a never-ending need to you,
for you,
only you.
When I think of my love for you
I realize I now know the true meaning of love.
I will love you as long as this life endures and beyond,
for you are my dreams, my realities.
You are my heart
You are my meaning of true love.

I'd like to speak just how I feel.
I'd say it in front of you..
but my words just ran away
If you could understand
how much I care,
I think I'd be ok
I haven't felt quite like this,
this feeling for so long.
How in my life, I must have missed,
what feels right, not even closed to being wrong
If you understand what you bringin me,
so much I feel alive.
All doubt diminishes from my face,
your love,
I need in my place.
I'm not trying to flatter you,
as some may think.
I have no cause to play any kind of game.
My feelings are true and from the heart,
if we don't ever make it, I hold myself to blame....
For my mind and heart is open to you,
Diane, Zheng Wanlin
my darling, my dear,I love you very much....
I'll always want you near.

sorry for such a long post.
i am being too emotional now.
i lost someone important in my life.
i can't bring myself but to tears
been crying for the past 24 hours.
it's the 1st time i cried so much for someone.
some may think i am trying to be emotional
but only those who know when u lost someone important
will understand my feeling.
why does all these things happen to me
again and again,

i just wan to hide in your hug and cry out loud.
wan to show u how much i need u.
no one can ever replace that feeling.
everything's gone.
it's my fault.
i hate being so useless and careless.
why can't i have the thought of u when i am about to say those words?
i guess this is karma.
i brought all these upon myself.
i can't blame anyone.

alright i can't continue anyone.
my eyes are red and swollen.
no one will be able to calm my heart down.
only u.
how i wish u will be here and calm my heart down
but i know that will never happen.

just wanna say,
i'm very sorry for wad i have done and say.
never in my life i wanna lose u again.
i lost all my hopes and confident.
any kind soul out there,
will be able to pass this message to her?
although it's common words used from the start of human race till now.
but it's all i wan to say
i love u.
i really do.
i miss u.
missing u every now and then.

i am lost. lost lost lost.

GIRLFRIEND
you're welcome.
don't worry,
it's wad i promise u in the 1st place.
although there's once i break the promise,
but i hope u won't mind.
this year the christmas sure got a big big christmas tree for u.

yup, it's going 6th month soon
yet we are stil so lovely loving with each other.
who say i am not bored when u are around?
someone always so busy online de,
buay tahan,
so popular.
keep on ask me online so that u can talk to me
in the end others talk to me.
KNS.

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine.
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

In you i see beauty,
a bonny feature well in born.
Perfection creates the fininshing touches.
What a ravishing sight i glance at,
i have to admit that you are a gorgious matriarch.
Manipulating my heart,
touching the core of my soul,
you mean absolute significance.
It's an honour to have you a part of my life.

maucks,
i love you FOREVER.

My Friend

seriously speaking,
if u're my friend,
u will leave your name behind.

rather than just leaving some question for me and
leave your shit here for me to clear it up.

for your infomation,
your ip address seems to be same with one of my 'friend'
i hope u're not him.
cos my wifey asked him ytd,
he say it's not him.
so i shall believe 'him' 1st.

if it turn out to be you.
i will look down on u forever.
if u treat me as a friend u should leave your name down rather than
just 'your friend'.
it's so rude.

i can't give u a perfect or rather full meaning of wad's love.
because
through love all that is bitter will be sweet
through love all the is copper will be gold
through love all dregs will turn to purest wine
through love all pain will turn to medicine
through love the dead will all become alive
through love i would be able to tell the world she's mine.

nope, it's not any 'spiked feeling' like wad u say
that reminds me of the past then my senses are all activate now.
before i am with my wifey, or
lets say it before i enter to this school i am now,
i've already changed and activate my senses.
it's just i can't find a suitable or maybe a girl
that she's willing to last with me.

don't tell me you don't have 'any' past?
don't tell me u can forget about the past?
all i can tell u my friend, we human always say
we will forgive and forget,
but let me tell u something.
in human memories,
we can always forgive things of unhappiness stuff
and get on with our life,
but one thing for sure,
we will never be able to forget things that happened in our life
after we are "3 or 4 yrs old".

our world will not stop turning for us just because
we are hurt or we lost someone important to us.

if u're in my school,
or let say if u were me,
u will have the same thought as i am having now.
in this school,
there's so many "fake" friends out there
who will back stab you if u're not careful enough,
who will bitches u around if u're not smart enough,
who will use gossip/rumour to kill u sliently.

i've few friends facing this kind of problems in this school now.
they gone as far as asking her to suicide in front of them.
u may feel nothin about it but it'a a toture to have this kind of friend and life.
the pressure and stress will be freaking huge,
it's like a metor crushing down to our earth.

so that's why i say there are many bitches and sluts around in my school.
well, true enough,
my school is a school for a group of people who learn things at a slower pace,
i admit after sometime,
they can be as good as others.
but from wad i see,
there are lots of childish people in my school.
u don't have the need to know the detail but
there's alot of childish thing happen in my life now,
such as you asking me this lots of freaking question.

i know wad i wan in my future to be.
i will work hard toward the goals i set in my life.
i am used to be a low confident low self esteen guy.
but with wifey around,
my confident will be sky-high.

that's all i have for you.
satify? got the answer u need?

PANDA
KNS
si panda
upload my unglam photos!!!
neh neh
you & my wifey hor.
one day i shall hold a chopper and KILL YOU GALS!!!
u all always like to post my unglam photos huh?
KNS KNS KNS KNS KNS KNS KNS!!!

SUSU
haha okay can.
i wanna join your emo group.
eeyer, someone these few day so emo.
si ah ma.
i thought i make u angry that why u walked off.
KNS.
cheat my feeling.
same with your aiai.
always cheat me posing some unglam position
and take photo of it then post in the blog.
all cheater!!!
LOL!!!
thanks ah ma.
one of my good friend.