well, looks like i need to do some explaination here.

1st, yes, i didn't pass my tp.
i failed.
i failed quite badly.

i passed the circuit.
i got 14points only.
but in the end i fail in the road course

i was surprise i passed my parallel & vertical parking.
just one time and i am done with the parking.
i was like so happy.

s course, crank course & dir.change i passed,
slope/gradient i passed too.

so many people told me if u pass the circuit, u will pass eventually.
yea, i was feeling on the moon when i know i didn't fail the circuit.

in the end, when i was on the road.
the 1st time, i fail to stop at the stopping line.

i guess i was somehow tired on that day.
after so many days of accounting stuff, the image or vision i had, was quite blur.

the tp sir, which i called him.
he close one eye one the 1st incident,

and 2nd time, i was somehow, driving near the centre line if i am not wrong,
so he close one eye again.

when i was going back,
he told me i have passed,

i don't know what the fuck i was thinking,
i got failed because of
IMPROPER ACTION CAUSING NEAR ACCIDENT!!!.


damn, i did cried afterward.

it was like, i going to get it soon, but,
the very last min, it just flew away from my hand!

well, from the usual paper marking tp will determine you pass or fail,
they change to rather high tech.
it's a palmtop???
i think so.
i got no one to blame.


2nd, to joey,
sorry, didn't went along to celebrate your birthday,
my dad told me to stay at home cause of the coming tp next day.
i am sorry.
i will try to make it up for u.


3rd, it's confirm from SGH doctor.
i am having depression now.
i am too tense up it so much stuff.


thanks to some bitch i would say so.
one female called my house and talked to my mum.
claiming she's my teacher.
say my attendance below 40%.
i failed in my ca1.
and i done badly for blah blah blah.
in the end, got into big quarrel with my mum.


i am damn stress,
from school work.
dad's company stuff,
my background,
my driving's giving me problem too.
and, my friends.
don't ever back stab me.
i will curse and swear for life.



got to thanks dad, for talking to me.
hope all these problem will go away soon.
going take a break in life.

will be away from sg.
going back to the place where i grew up from.


ps. jordan,
i am going back for bl training.
if you are going back.
just leave me a sms.


god, pls let me take a break in my life.
if not, i am going to break down soon,
the feeling of knowing yourself having depression sucks.
damn sucks.

alright, here to update my little fallen angel again.

hmmm, well photos will be up soon!!!
ALEX!!! the PHOTOS!!!!

haha we went to honey bar on last sunday.
damn i was somehow abit drunk.
thanks to both nico and jess?

cute nico keep on playing those games like 5, 10, 15 with me.
starting i was losing becos my reaction was like 3 sec slower?

in the end, after so much failure,
i won and won again and again.

cute nico was somehow unable to take it so i suggeested she had a rest 1st.
^_^.
see i am such a good guy.
gentleman!!!
LOL.

and pretty nico played games with alex too.
well she drag me into her side.
so well, alex, i am sorry for that day,
she's too pretty and her smell will make me go wild!!!
LOL
so i guess, i helped her. HAHAHA

i was being forcefully kissed by 3 people.
damn,

well there's 2 nico.
cute nico and pretty nico.
yup.

joke of the day,
i told all of them, if happen the pretty nico gonna be my wife or gf.
i will directly ask dad and mum for the fortune they gonna give me.

in the end, i was being scolded by some of them for being so ******
LOL. well joke ^_^!


alright holiday coming up.
although mum say before she wanna yang me throughout my life till i am married but,
i think i will be working.
cos i will get quite bored at home and outside.
i need to interact with others.
i find that somehow, i am very uncomfortable when i am outside with lots and lots of people around me. LOL.

strange?


well, recently i was damn busy by driving lesson, studying, helping dad's company to do some accounting stuff.
i know i know. i am not a accounting student,
but simple math and account wasn't that hard.
^_^.


somehow, i am starting to know more about dad and mum.
in fact. i know alot of stuff now,
so dad and mum, don't need to hide it from me.
i am part of this wonderful family too.
yes, i hate my uncle and aunty from my dad's side alot now.

they fuking hell cheat away dad's 100k!!!
that's fuking alot.
if i had know, i will ask dad to buy me a evo 10 then.
becos of this finanical crisis, they ask my dad to pay for them those stupid stock market stuff.
in the end, after my dad was so stupid to pay for them,
none of them wanna pay up now.
this mean, the IR project my dad was working all the way till now,
all gone down to drain.


alex, when the day i ps u i never go to school, was becos i am accompanying my dad to uncle and aunty house.
so for fuk sake, this is how they treat my dad. i am really damn disappointed in them.

my dad helped you guys so much, during the 1997 crisis, dad almost help you guys to carry 250k of debt.
now this is how u fuking animals treat my dad. i will curse and swear man!!!


well, promised dad, after ite life,
after ns,
i will be helping out in the company!
no choice, i got to give up my dream.
and i may be leaving sg to brunei or aus to take over the business.
this coming holiday and after grad holiday will be learning how to be a successful businessman like dad!!! ^_^.


someone asked me this question.
"does her image or voice run through your mind once in a while"
well, i didn't answer cos i don't really know wad's the answer.
but i guess it's a yes.
i do think of her and i got to admit, whenever i am driving,
i will think of her.
well, it's all in the past now,
gonna stop thinking and move forward.
i got my own life to live.
she got her own future to create.
and jordan,
hope u don't always mention her again and again in front of me.
pls try not to show any of her image to me anymore.
i was just about to forget her,
u rank the whole thing up.
it's a painful and heartaching memories.
and when all these memories flashing through my mind,
i will still cry man!!!
LOL.
clarence ask me before, if i can turn back time,
will i still be in love with her,
well the answer's yes,
becos of wad happen in the past,
it makes wad i am today.

somehow, i really regret coming into simei ite.
thanks to all these incident.
if i had chosen to RP,
nothing of these will happen.

but if i didn't come to simei ite,
i wouldn't know a bunch of 'bad' friend!!!
esp alex, joey, seng hong and jordan.
they always make my day like rollar coaster.
up and down,
up and down,
up and down,
fun right?

esp ALEX, stop saying i am gay man!!!
shut up si bottom!!!
u can say me coward,
yes, i don't have the courage to be in love again.
i am afraid to get hurt once more.
once was enough for me to take it.
and thanks for saying i had change to the better.

JORDAN!!! don't anyhow intro gals for me!!!
esp le han!!!
i am not interested in her la.
sabo me.
you and le yi,
one day, i will take a chopper and chop you guys!!!

JOEY!!! well, this gal here,
always tell me lots of funny stuff which she don't find it funny.
but i am sometimes i am already laughing like mad.
LOL.
anyway, we love u like a sister to us.
although sometimes u really shoot like ****
but one day we will arise and use machine gun to shoot you back.
don't worry,
will try to shoot leon down 1st!!!
LOLOLOLOL

SENG HONG!!!
this guy here,
really damn funny alright,
he always can't stop to make me laugh.

even today,
our BCM ROLEPLAY!!!
when he's serious,
he can give me a face which will make me laugh like hell too.
hahaha, and he's alex partner!!!
alex = chicken/ seng hong = duck!!!
that's the nick name they give each other.
and they love to play SM too!!! hahaha
^_^!!!


anyway, dad's car.
honda, vtec, 1.8
damn power man.
when i am in gear 2 only, it can go up to 45 to 50 without strange sound!
hahaha,

dad suggest to own 2 cars.
one for his uses.
another for me or sometimes mum.
but mum say before, she wan me to be the 'taxi driver'
LOL.

well i guess it's a waste of money.
and finally i have psycho my dad not to buy for me mitsubishi lancer GLX,
since so many of my classmates complain about it.
so i guess, wadever dad and mum gonna give me for my 21yrs old birthday present,
i will just accept it.

even it is the BMW i hated most!!!
i guess when alex reading this post now, must be high.
LOL.


any it's confirm, mum had help me booked the chalet for my birthday.
next year, 20th march.
friday.
downtown east.
hope i won't see someone there. ^_^!
should be driving by then so transport is not a problem.

anyway, thanks dad.
he lift the order of not having gf.
well, i can get a gf provided i don't be like the same as last time.
hahaha.

yeah yeah yeah!!!

well later going to pub with seng hong, jordan, alex, jon, le yi.
friday going to zouk with marcus and co. the wolves gang.
saturday may be going to st james.
need to plan well.



oh ya last but not least.
i lost my wallet.
thanks to alex.
i think i lost it in the pub.
LOL.
well nothing really important inside,
ic, master card, posb card and cash all gone,

but wad makes me heart ache is......
well one photo which very important to me.
maybe to other it's nothing more than a trush
but to me, it hold certain memories in it.
but it's fate.


okay, gonna go xbox360 now.
i am so into gears of war 2 now.

and after finish watching rolling love.
i am watching wish to see you again. ^_^.
these 2 took away alot of my beauty sleep. ^^

to all social smokers!!
hope you 'GUYS' try not to smoke so much.
do take good care of your health. ^^


tkae care everyone.
enjoy your holiday!!! ^^

to leyi
hahaha sorry la, not yu yu aunty.
it's YI YI AUNTY!!!
wahahahahaha.
don't u know i am always kinda lunck in this kind of stuff?
yeah, lucky didn't go clubbing,
if not, blue black here and there.


to stanley,
yeah yeah, it's so the very special.
hahaha.
well u and alex wanna play is it?
shoot me huh>?
nice one.
sunday ALEX WONG & U are dead!!!
really gonna be so dead!!!
hahahahahaha.


to susu
wow!!!
chill down man.
okay okay,
my fault.
miscommunication!!!
sorry about that.
i always have miscommunication.
okay,
will flood u with sms if i am in doubt of anything!!!
^_^!



to alex
yaya, best bro!!!
best bro won't ps me during s/w lo.
kns.
haha yeah,
can't wait for this coming sunday la.
i wan to see someone drunk again la!!!


to joey
hahaha, well take it as a joke ^_^
hahaha of cos m18.
u came to the right blog to see his m18 photos!!
hahaha well, maybe they will be tgt soon???
LOL.


to elinkwan
haha, well, it's okay la.
share with everyone how pretty are u. ^_^!!!


to stanley
haha sorry, type wrong name!!!
hahaha it's so rare and surprise u will come and tag!!!
haha tkae care,.
see u this sunday!!!


to jordan
hahaha must let other people think and guess ma.
and it's fun to type in addias.
can see how 'angry' and jumping around you're.
also see your face turn black!!!
^_^!
hahahahahaha.





well, deleted some bloglink ,
either they didn't pm me their new blog link
or somehow can't contact them.
so
forget it. ^_^