well after today then i know i am dislike by someone i love, care and hurt most... after all these years... i seem to lost so many thing le... even i do gain many thing and memory but my ending was a sad one... not the one tat will last forever and live happily forever... well i dun blame anyone... i only blame myself for bringing all these to myself.. well after i change the address i guess she wont be able to visit this blog anymore... well this may be a good news to me cos in this way she wont know wat am i think and wat is she thinking too... if not i going to hurt her again... while maybe is time for me to look for a new goal in my life.. and maybe find someone who can calm my heart down.. really calm it down... i been deeply hurt... keying u really dun understand me well enough.. dun really know wat am i thinking and wat my heart feel about it... but i must admit... wo zhen de shi bai le... i lose to u... u seem to be able to recover from the hurt more fast than me... well i cant blame u... since u had love jerrold so deeply before so i am just another of your past or memory.. but do u think for me? u r the 1st gal i ever so deeply love... so in love with u... and really thought can spend the rest of my life with u... but all seems to be just a dream to me... well u never know who much i dream for u... how much i done for u.. but after all i dun blame u... i wont blame u... thank for all these years of love and taking care of me when i am hurt... good luck for your 'o' lvl.. good bye... i will stay away from u le.. wont be disturbing u le.. i will try to avoid u as much as i can... hope my memory will not be touch again and waken again...

wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi!!! well after so many year... just hope tat i can just stay by your dream and world just to be your guardian angel... hmm so many thing happen these few week... haizx sad... thought tat i have change le but still many thing goes against me.. look like heaven or god never take a good look at me how i have put in so much effort for something yet it turn out to be the most unacceptable way i wan.. haizx... another news is tat i leaving here when 'o' finish bahx... hope will be tat way... leave this place which had most of my memory and so many thing i wish to treasure... but once i leave this place for maybe about 2 mths? everything even the grass will also forget about me.. hope once i leave i will not cause any hurt or unplesant thing for the people who know me... well i dun think i will lahx... haha.. well hope in here i can say out my thought but no one will know... well maybe u wont visit this blog anymore so i can write something which i wanna write long long ago... i love you i really love u... hope i can call u dear or baby once more... hug u in my arm and sleep through the lonely night be there for u when u are in danger... i know with me u will face many danger... although i can't stop it from happening but hope i really can protect u til the day i left this world... haha kiss your forehead and calm your heart down when u feel despair... but all just some smoke behind the screen... i know none of these will come true again... so i'll be daydreaming for it... this is only the place i can be with u together happily again!!! so much for my 'happy' ending... jiu shi kai bu liao kou ran ni chi diao, jiu shi na mo jian dian yi sheng ye shou bu chu... wo ai ni... zai jian le forever love...

today for most of the people in sec 5 is their last paper... so good sia... actually they should also end on the same day as me but dunno which stupid teacher go change it... suay sia... but nbm la as long as u can slack le u should be happy le... hahah after noon go play basketball with shui min and darryl... very funny play also can play till slap here slap there... haha after tat go darryl house bath then start my 1st ever guitar lesson... woooooo... so damm fun sia... nice to play with guitar... looks like i never make a wrong choice this time round... i know people may say playing with guitar waste time.. but i think only guitar can be with me forever... stay with me during my happy and sad time.. after tat take bus 12 home... haha in the bus more funny... saw one bitch name call hui ying from my song writing lesson... still the same!!! face still so sucks... act till like wan give people fuck... voice like killing chicken... y i call her a bitch??? cos she can just come and sit beside me when there are still so many place for her big butt... guess wat... she ask y never go lesson le why dun wanna answer her call and all tat.... omg... stupid sia... still cant guess mehx??? of cos is hiding from a bitch like u laahx... so bitchy no wonder give people inn the class say so flirt and shui bian... hahaha...

IF U got anything... feel free to tell me or sms me.. for now... i will always be there when u need me... maybe bahx.. but maybe after secondary school... i will not be there to help u le... u must take care kks??? anything u can call your frrenx to help u de... as for this matter now... i will chap into this matter and stop it... this is the only thing i can do for u le...

finally got something i like to say...
WO DE REN DAO JIU SHI YI WANG GUO QU.... nice??? nice lehx... i like it man... haha.. ok stop here tomoro still got exam... go sleep le... haha wonderful day today... bye bye

hmm... today had physic examination in the hall... so sway... paper 1 do until half way stomach pain... feel like going toilet but in the end ren ren ren... after the paper i intented to settle my stomach but look like heaven is making me a fool... in the toilet, nothing seem to be coming out... lol... worst still my phone nearly drop out... haha... paper 2 arhx... more sway... write on the wrong paper... sweat... should write on the question paper itself... instead of writing there... i write on the fool scape paper... lol some more my stomach really know how to pick a prefect time to make fun of me... haha but ok lah... got no confident to passs also... just trying my luck... hmmm after exam, went back home and rest... haha jio jeryl shui min out to chiong the ball.. starting not bad... still can have outstanding perform by ME!!! lol... after tat maybe too long never touch the ball suddenly dunno how to handle the ball... haha but not bad, still go for many lay up and done some great movement of the past... haizx... sad, now so fat le so many thing cannot do well... studies, hobbies, basketball and love... all make me disappointed... haizx... after some match, i had a talk with shui min... lol today then i know how he think of me.. haha... he said i have the talent to play basketball but because of some changes, i lost my skill... haha example he said 'actually 'chong', u last time dun need train u have such professional skill already, now just get back your feeling and body then u will be pro again' wooooo... song arhx... haha abit BHB... haha but feel abit sad for shui min too... can see he train till so hard then suddenly skill also lost... not like last time can shoot from any angle...

as for u... i miss u so much... but today i learn something from shui min... if u really truly love tat person, dun tie him/her up... let them do wat they wan, just keep them in your heart and u will be glad tat he/she actually live in your heart... when have the chance to be together, dun ask for so much, just enjoy it... when thing really goes wrong... just admit every thing is your fault... and then sunshine will be out again...

so from today onward... must learn how to live by myself... learn how to keep u in heart only... learn to be more independent and cheerful... good and bad memory just keep it in heart and u'll remember it forever...