today seems to be a boring but meaningful day. lock myself up in my room and study the whole day long, only during lunch and dinner time i step out of the room. recall many things when i am studying my humanities subject, some words inside the book makes me remind of unhappy memory. but life still gonna goes on and on so no point blooding over it. well i am glad, happy and congrat my brothers able to find their happiness. jeryl now got a marie no time for basketball le hahaha, i called him jeryl tan turn out to be true now, everyday sms sms sms ahahaha. well as for shui min, he's doing fine with eileen teo. hahaha although they keep on quarreling but after a while everythings fine, hahaha good man. SHUI MIN dun ever let her down, rmb wad u teaches me dun ever let history repeat itself again!! LAST but not least, darryl!!! hahaa this bro here hmmm, well i let him down many times, glad that he's not angry with me, but i try to change. i don't promise and swear cos i know promise is just a word with no meaning so better don't give empty promise. well i don't really know about swear but i heard shui min said don't ever swear. haha glad darryl now got 2 choices to make for his future after 'o'. hope all will turn out fine. DARRYL i respect the final decision u make cos who ask u r my bro! but don't regret it after that. hahaha good good good. everything in my surrouinding seeems to be fine and that's great man. ;-)

"Father, thanks for everything that u teaches me today. i'm glad that you've been so gracefully toward me and my friends, my parent and whoever know me. since 8th june '06, i've been living in lonely everyday, done something i shouldn't have done it and now i'm regret for what i did in the past. But u have been forgiving me everytime about this sin i have committed since the day i known u, showing the path or telling someone around me that this sin u have bear for me already. now she is living happily and someone already there taking care of her, you bring my sin and guilt away, i am truly grateful to u for what you've done for me. thanks father for being so kind to me. thanks for healing this heart with lots of scar that seems to be unable to heal. thanks for being with me everytime i needed you. thanks for everything. in jesus name i pray, amen.

haizx, today both eye swollen like SHIT! can't even open my eye when i wake up. damm intend to go church today, and ask for forgiveness from FAther! haizx i've been under lot of stress. during this 1 week holiday, not even a single day i'm able to live in peace! everyday HW HW HW, TUITION TUITION TUITION and STUDY STUDY STUDY.

There is 1 guy from SEC 3 in CORAL SECONDARY SCHOOL name DANLEY seriously PISS me off! lolx wanna play gangster with me! well i'll wait for him to find me problem or trouble! seriously i'm waiting for that day to come~! last 2 weeks ago, i told his frenx if he not happy with me come down BEDOK and find me. Pasir Ris not my place, can't really TALK with him! oh well, 'O' level coming, can't get into trouble with the school or police! so gotta REN or LUN. WAIT till 'O' level finish, gonna settle it with him once and for all. call my cousin down and speak NICELY with him. too bad i am not SINGAPOREAN if not i'll be able to SETTLE it with him 1 on 1. IF my cousin still can't teach him lesson then i guess i gonna call my OLD frenx down and speak with his SIS EX so called a GANGSTER. lolx small kid sia, ask me to try him. oh well u're lucky kid, i got 'o' to settle then i will settle with u! wanna xia lan with me. lolx don't think i became so low profile mean i won't fight back! eh 'SMALL kID' what u went through was what i went through 4 years ago. NEVERMIND, write so much also can't do anything now! wait till 'o' finish, and i make sure u pay for what u said to me THAT TIME! i HATE people scold my PARENT for nothing! JUST WAIT AND SEE! after 'o' i will unleash the DEVIL again!!! BE prepare BOY!

"FAther, sorry again! seems like i keep on repeating SORRY this word but without the intention to change myself. as you know, i won't allow other to offended my parent when they are not involve in the problem! seriously he can insult me or what but i really mind when he insult my parent! SORRY, i still can't get the DEMON or DEVIL out of my character! i'll try to get them out as soon as this matter is solve. this will be the last time i unleash the devil. tomorrow will be the start of prelim, hope everyone will pass with flying color. hope 'she' will pass too, find her love soon and don't always get sick soon. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY. AMEN."


Waiting for an angel to save me from HELL. ;-) don't worry be happy. =D

My Happy Ending
by Avril Lavigne
album: Under My Skin (2004))

Oh, oh
So much for my happy ending
oh oh
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2
So much for my happy ending
Oh, Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh Oh Oh

haha, finally got time to blog lo. these few day, very busy, seriously very busy. everyday after school need to rush home and change and attend night class. well i learn lots of thing during the night class, so many frenx helping me along. i am glad tat at least my math teacher praise me my math has improve haha. thanks man. well my life everyday fill with work work work, 'o' 'o' 'o', basketball basketball basketball and study study study. haha, well i guess this is the way many student will be facing during 'o' level period.
well about my love life, hmmmmmmmmm, there's nothing i can write it down. haha, because i haven manage to find a girl i can really trust right now. well not i don't trust them, maybe just put it as i having phobia toward love or girl. haha, but i am happy i got so many frenx accompany me through my days without a her. although they keep on disturbing me but i seem to get used to it. haha.
haha tomoro we'll be having teacher day celebration in my small group. haha i prepare a special jelly and bee hoon where i gonna be the main chef. haha hope it turn out fine since i had not touch my wok for a long time. haha

=)

'looking back of the thing i done, i was trying to be someone, i played my part, kept u in the dark, now let me show u the shape of my heart.
i'm here, with my confession, got nothing to hide no more, i don't know where to start but to show u the shape of my heart.'