hmmm update about wad? well just mention a few things bahx.



there's a gal in my school seriously pissed me off. i don't wanna mention her name cos i'm not that heartless!!! i save her FACE man!!! but i can give some hint!!! she thought she's flirt and look like some ancient creature??? but the fact, she's not man!



okay why she pissed me off??? well the story was, she's the one suggested to 'break' and the one who look so impaient. wad can i do? just accept the fact and carry on with my life. yet she can't even let me off after break!!! why? she twist and bloody hell turn my words! her frenx M scold me through msn when i'm with suyu(my dear). oh my freaking shit! i was thinking when the hell i say those words to M!!! i didn't say i am pro in basketball? i didn't say i'm proud or wadever she can name it! well out of kindness then i mention there's some wrong method in their lay up. in the end she twist and turn my words! FREAK!!! okay forget it! i'm so going to blow myself up when i think about it.

thought this will be the end of this bloody hell nonsens or maybe childish thing! in fact NO! when my gf(suyu) accidentally went to her blog, one of her post wrote "FUCK YOU MAN"!!! OH MY BLOODY SHIT! when the hell i offended u? come on pls be more mature!!! how old are u? still live in secondary school life? well maybe she can say that post wasn't for me but when we read finish that post. i am bloody hell sure she's refering to me! okay For God Sake i shall stop blowing myself up! damn, spoil my day!



(all my classmate and frenx scold me becos of her!!! speechless. they say i am so bloody stupid, why didn't i confront her about this matter? why didn't i scold or 'shoot' her back? okay i know i am stupid not to defend myself. but i believe i didn't say those words and i didn't wanna find trouble, well u can say i am timid but this will only make me look like a kid! after break and it turn out to be this way only secondary school kid will tend to do it.)



okay back to my life now! well thanks to suyu, i'm feeling so happy with my everyday life. she's a good entertainer to me. she's always out there to cheer me up. haha. she's cute and pretty la! when she put on make up, FOR GOODNESS SAKE, that wasn't her i swear! she look so different! well she's a good gal and very social too. she doesn't need to put up a different attitude when she's with me or my frenx. that's great. well i believe she say she wont smoke means she wont smoke! well i don't wanna mention a gal! okay forget it! yup!



now it's around 1 am plus, why am i still awake blogging? well maybe suyu wont be so hardworking and read so much about all these so maybe i can write down wad am i thinking and why i am look so out of sort in these few day. it's becos of my character, i tend to think alot of things when i feel insecure. okay i know guys shouldn't be sensitive but this is who i am. Suyu ex-bf felt regretted and now he wish to start anew again with her! seriously i don't really know wad to do and how should i react. i think i should be a gal instead!! i feel like crying now! i am so scare! i feel so lost in this world. okay everyone must be thinking suyu bully me or wad but guys she doesn't know about it. is it becos of my character that i look so weak in front of this word "LOVE". okay i'm crying like hell now. I DON'T LIKE THIS FEELING!!! well she's pretty and so good toward her bf so there's always suitor waiting to knock her door of love! come On God PLS give me a ANSWER! why am i feeling so insecure??? i really love her alot. although it's just 9 days but i know we can last long if she wan. i really wish to last long with her. i can't imagine how am i going to live on without her!!! okay it's 2 plus now, i must be in the bed now. i'm sick!