okay back to blog again. My life's in total mess!!!

19th Nov
it's our 1st month anniversary can!!! i was like dreaming this day to come for so long.
well life in school is like so bored and scary. why?
bored - cos our new course, FDM, WIM and PP were like so dry pls!!! FDM - Freight & distribution Management. it's like something about Air, Sea and Land Freight. plus the teacher keep on talking to herself like that. WIM - Warehouse Inventory Management, Mr The lesson was not so dry after all but he's on service. ns reservice. well it's good la. so fat liao need to diet then can wahahahhaha. PP - Principle of Purchase, it's something like accounting and need to do alot of paper work. haizx so boring sia.

scary - well many people say my hair long le, i'm getting more and more handsome le. it's something i don't wan seriously speaking. why? musst be asking am i crazy or wad. there are so many people wanna be handsome but can't yet i choose to run away from it. well it's because somehow, girls in my school quite open minded. they can out of sudden appear in front of me and ask "hey, can i have your number" so scary. and my missy chouchou doesn't like it. i know. she's lacking of confident for herself. well i can't blame her. even me i am also a low self esteen and low confident guy. so gonna blame myself.

well actually intend to bring laopo to ajisan to eat de. cos laopo say she never eat be4 so i thought of bringing her there during anniversary must be very romantic. well this's just another wishful thinking of me again. after school business 'game' day, asked laopo she's hungry, and she eaten le. from her expression she seem to eat till very full like this. so don't wanna force her eat anymore. haha it's so seldom to see she can give me that expression of eaten till so full le. but well in the end because of my sleepy and some reason, we didn't go for the ajisan. but we had pizza for our anniversary dinner. i know i know, it's so unromantic right? sorry laopo, given u such a unromantic dinner on out 1st anniversary. i try my best next time. seriously i am such a failure in love life la. haizx. in the end managed to see laopo eat the pizza till she can just lay on her living room sofa there sleeping like pig. hahaha so de cute can. i love it. how i hope i can see her tat cute expression every sec in my life. well i know it's impossible. it's my fault

20th
well today another bad day again. was pissed off by 1 guy and a girl. they came to ask me am i laopo bf. then after that which i replied yes, the girl say to the guy in chinese "see, i told u, no chance le la. got bf liao." i was like rushing for lesson yet this kinda thing happen it's so hilarious can!!! hahaha well abit jealous and happy. jealous - cos laopo got another suitor. happy - cos my laopo can attract other guy means she's pretty. must try to keep her by my side only wahahahah! haizx i know i can't cos she told me before frenx will come before bf. so i need to get used to it bahx, i understand.

laopo went out with chee shen to town to shopping. quarrel with laopo again. i'm so sorry, didn't mean to quarrel with u. i was like so moody today and hope u will be there to accompany me but this is my wishful thinking only. she's not me so how does she know wad i wan. can't blame her. i am just too childish and useless. i don't blame her for wanting to drink beer today. cos she have such a worse bf by her side must be hard on her le.

hope she won't let me go in the end. i wan to stay by her side till we are old. but from her expression and body language, can see and tell that she's going to brust or let go soon if i'm gonna continue like this. so how? i don't wan to sit here and drink beer and think of the sad thing!!! haizx how i wish my angel will be there to protect her. just one old sentence, i am useless and failure in love life.

okay update finish le. wonder laopo back already? i make her angry so i guess she won't reply my sms or call le bahx.

haizx how i wish someone out there to understand me. there's so many thing i wanna say to laopo but i can't i don't know how to express it well. sigh!!!

sign off.