okay, my laopo had been bugging me to update my blog. so now i shall update since i am 'free' now.

okay well many things happen. alot of unhappy thing. why do i changed to such a different person.

well, i am trying my best to use all the english words i had learnt in the past 20 years of my life to tell the whole world and her how much i love her. how much i need her. how much i yearn for her.



I see you each and everytime,
i hear your voice like the howl of the wind.
The sound of your voice wouldn't be just described as chocolates for the ears,
it would be also described as the amount of comfort i feel as i absorb it.
If a picture paints a thousand words,
you would paint a thousand pictures.
If you asked me who are you to me,
i would say you are an angel from above,
and everytime i close my eyes,
i thank the Lord for giving me such a wonderful gift.

My love towards you is a permanient madness,
It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.
And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
You have to work our wether your roots have become entwined
together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.
Because this is what love is.
love is not breathlessness,
it is not excitementm it is notthe promulgation of promises of eternal passion.
that is just being
"in love"
which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away.
and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
I hope you and i have this,
that we would have roots that grow towards each other underground,
and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our brunches,
we will find that we are one tree and
not two.



















My sweetest one,
now i call on you
i have never loved as i love you.
If you cannot give your heart to me,
i will still and ever love thee.
My hand is weary,
i am thinking about you every hour
not a second goes by;
i know not why
unless i am holding you.
Answer me and say you care.
my darling one,
thou art so fair,
my heart and grace from within that lights every star
I long to hear you speak again
pretty words of love in gentle retrain,
just a word from you,
on paper of blue will tell me
if the greatest love is true.


Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's worth going through.
But if it falls apart,
i will know deep in my heart,
the only dream that mattered had come true,
In this life i loved you.


Until the oceans all run dry,
until the stars fall from the sky,
even if the words don't seem to rhyme
i'll be addicted to your smile.
And if the wind blows out the sun,
i'll still believe you are the one
No matter what we're going through
i'll plan to spend my nights with you.I
promise you my heart won't fade
i swear to you my soul always,
it isn't haard to understand
you're making me a better man.


As i sit here
i search my heart,
for the words to express my inner most thoughts.
my hands glides across the paper
In short strokes
it all seems so trivial and ordinary
compared to what i feel for you
i crumple the paper and start over
seeking for that word
that will say it all
that word that when you read it
you will instantly know how i feel.
its so close
i can almost touch it
its on the tip of my tongue
no matter how hard i search
it escapes me
i will have to be a thief
stealing age old words
.shared by millions
they are not original
But as i think of them
it feels as if i created them.
i treasure you as mine,
and i cherish you as a soul.
i long and desire to hold you near
for as many days as God allows me to breath
i immediately realize that my last thought
as i write this
was the same as my very first.
i started this letter
because i love you
i sought for words
to express that
but decided to choose
the three very words
that have been
chosen for centuries
are simply
i love you
and i do
and forever i will.