well nothing to do now so i shall update my blog.

Here's a touching story.
(There is a girl who told me that she once liked me.
The thing i saw in her was
fun loving,
kind,
caring
and true enough
i fell for her.

i knew her for quite some time already
and finally i could feel that i had feelings for her,
but she had someone in her heart.
i was extremely sad
when i heard her tell me she had someone else.

How i wish she was in the same course as i am,
unfortunately that couldn't take place.
I told her i liked her way before i knew she liked someone
but after hearing that,
it left me no choice
but had to fade my feelings for her unwillingly.

After a while,
i liked her silently and told everyone
who knew i liked her previously that
i had no feelings for her anymore.

but i lied.

Months past and nothing seemed to take place.


Don't be surprise
if i tell you that girl is now someone whom i love
and she belongs to me.

she is my wifey, Zheng Wanlin Diane. )



TODAY

finally went to school without being late for class.
my teacher, Ms yue was like
"wow, alvin,
u're very early today.
it's the 1st time u're so early for my class."

well i was like so PS sia.
she's a nice teacher, or rather a caring teacher instead.
last 2 weeks i was not in school for many reason but
she never give up on me.
on the day before my ca, she's willing to give me 'catch up' lesson for me.
in order to let me pass my CA, she used up all her wit to make me understand the topic.
okay Ms yue, u got my support for the best female ITE teacher in our school.


around 1 plus, went to tampines mall to meet KOH PANG PANG!!!!
he's away from singapore to hong kong for some don't know wad trip is it.
a study trip?
he's away for 4 months.

so finally able to see him after so long of waiting.
yet,
he's still the same old guy. so funny.
but he's becoming more and more handsome or maybe good-looking.
can't praise him too much. later my blog will kanna spam by "others."

something happened during the waiting for MR KOH!!!
which leads me to think about many thing.

sometimes, if u can just listen to me for once? many thing can avoid.
i'm sorry to say but it's me, who still can't face the problem.
i need time to get over it and be able to face it.
but still, i wasn't given this chance to avoid it.
i know i am kinda selfish in love but who doesn't?
not many people know wad's going on in my life now.
i got no intention to share my problems with anyone.
so JI* X*, stop asking me stupid question if u happen to see me on the streets.

i know by now, i can't avoid anymore, i need to stand up and face it.
its just that, i don't have the confident to face it bravely.
i am a low esteen guy,
yes, i am. or maybe worse.
super self esteen low guy.
i don't even have the time to 'tear down the house and build the floor',
yet i need to face the reality.
i thought u will give me some time to tear down the house and
get over with the unhappy memories.
but,
God doesn't pity me and instead,
put another test just right in front of me again.

how am i going to take it?
one after another one?
i hate my life now!!!
why i can't find anyone there for me?
wifey, where are u?
why do i need to suffer all these shit which i don't think i deserve it?
why?
can someone tell me why?

I looked out the window,
closed my eyes and faced the wind.
i hummed a song of praise,
with tears on my cheeks

i asked myself,
why is this happening.
Maybe God put her in my life for a certain purpose.
it could because
He wants me to learn something.
Day and night i figure,
what's the best way to carve a love that will last.

I'll lay my life before her,
if that’s the only way
unless an alternative.

Anoint my lips,
so that the words i speak
will touch her heart.

If ever one day,
we are brought apart
remember what i tell you.

I was born to one day hold your hand,
to wrap my arms around you.
I was placed on this earth by the Almighty,
just to tell you how much
I love you.