alright, i've been so busy with my attachment stuff and fetching & tc gf.

now shall try to update something in case someone say my blog's dead.

1st - oh yea, i got a new love in my life!!!
thanks dad.
u've always be loving me and taking great care of me.
thanks for promising me u will buy me a car after i pass my driving license.
well it's a red plate car or so call a 'weekend' car.
yes, i can only drive from 7pm to 7am weekdays and the whole of weekend.
well it's becos i am going to ns next year so yup.
i am thinking of asking for a normal car since i need to use the car quite often.
as in i had enough of taking bus and mrt to school or outing.
it's good to have my own car.
i can modify whatever i wan in my car.
wahhahaa. i can't wait for it.
thanks bestie elin for lending me the books.
i will pass de. =)

"it's quite sad about the answer when i ask u do u think u will be the 1st gal who will sit in my car after i pass my license. u reply me maybe." haix, be more confident gf!!!
well i know i am not the best bf but definitely i will be one of the good bf around.
i don't ask for much so tahan me abit.
hahaha

What is GOLD when i have something more important than that? which is you. my silly gf!

2nd - well it's a bad news.
i think i am going to sick soon.
just got a feeling something's not right. i am not sure what is it.
hope it won't affect anything much about me.

3rd - alright friends, i am sorry for not replying u guys messages. sorry.
okay i shall reply now. =)


RYL
eeyer wad pig head??? u never die before is it? stupid grandmama. still help me upgrade somemore.
KNS. same with tat su da bao!!!
one day i shall go back school and kill u all. wahhahahahaha.
must be u done something tat why the guy will be like magnet so attractted to u. wahhahaha.
KARMA for bullying me. SU DA BAO WILL GET KARMA SOON!
alright i will go and do the quiz soon. =)
take care


SUSU
si ah ma!!! su da bao!!! sms u something u wanna show her. KNS.
ask u take care will die arhx!!! KNS.
see la. she scold me leh.
u lo!!! si ah ma!!! one day i will bring a big big big big big big BAO go school
!!!!!
KNS. wahahhahaa
alright, shall meet up during early june and go eat. wahahhaa.
KNS don't rem much about wad i say to u. only rem i own u a treat!!!
si da bao!!!


JJ
kns!! u sure u wan to play with me? i scare u cannot take it leh.
u already cannot tahan wanlin words le u sure u can tahan mine?
u ask wanlin how pro i am to shoot someone till tat person become siao!!!
ask susu.
she nearly going to be siao when i shoot her until she angry and i own her a meal.
lol!!!yea!!!
MANCHESTER UNITED!!!
KING of the world!!!
CHELSEA, runner up life only.
wahhahaha.

ken
yeah, i will try to cheer up =).
haha thanks. okay i will link u up too
BREAD PIG!!!

WM
haha why are u stress?
don't worry i will be fine.
well hope same thing won't happen again, if not i don't know wad i will do to him.
hope his hand will be able to move if it happen again. lol!!!
hey pls take care alright?
heard tat u admit into hospital right?
yeah, wanlin will visit u tomoro. i am sorry i can't visit u.
i am having attachment. well
if tomoro after my attachment and meet up with lin le will see we have the time to visit u okay?
don't be sad. =)

yeah back from my attachment. =)
it has ben a tiring day for me. extra workload for me.
well took mrt home, it's like so fast, around 6.45pm reach my house already.
took a rest and bath. wash away all the dirts on my body.
i got infection on my wounded area.
just now in office it's quite sore.
but after a visit to doc.
everything "seems" to be okay now.
there's yellow pus follow out from the wound,
making me stink!

and thanks to tat stupid doctor!!!
out of nothing gave me a injection!
it'a like not link at all!!!

well when i'm on the way back. alot of things flow through my small pea brain =(
sometimes, there's alot of thing i wan to say it out.
alot alot alot.
but i don't have the chance.
i don't wan to spoil the mood of other and mine.

reflect on wad i have done in the past few day.
yes, i think i am still standing on square 1.
with more protective and more layer of sharp pointed horns pointing out.
i don't know why i've change to this way.
i guess i just wanted to protect myself.
but i'm thinking if i continue this way, someone will bound to get hurt in the end.

i always want thing to be like tat but i don't dare to say it out how i wan the thing to turn out.
well, i am quite disapointed with the answer when i ask about how u going to put your status on friendster and blog and all that.
i thought, u will, eventually well... nvm, it's not any thing really tat important.
to other may not be importatn, but to me, maybe i got the thinking of yes it's important.
from your answer, it make me feel abit i am not important like i used to be in you.
give me a feeling of u won't wan other to know about our r/s.
yes u make an effort to put in your msn.
i am happy and feeling great to see tat.
disappointed when u promise u will change in your blog or friendster but it turn out the answer is not the same.
it has been 2 days.
u got time to upload and accept comment but no time to make an effort to change.
yes i admit, status to me is important.
i've been waiting for this day to come for too long.
after all my hard work and waiting,
seems like lady luck still not on my side.
well got to accept tat =).

thanks for promise me u won't say those words again.
i will in turn, keep my promise and dote on u more.
give in to u more.
i will try my best.
it's been 9mths long.
i am your 1st bf to last so long with u.
although in between there's lot of things happening.
but i am still feeling loved by u.

don't ever say things like 'i don't suit u or i think it's better we don't be tgt'!
if we are not meant to be tgt, we won't last long till now.
if we are not meant to be tgt, there's no way we could where we are now.
if we are not meant to be tgt, there won't be so many things to pull us back tgt when we almost give up.

thanks stupid grandmama for your comment.
yes, i admit, i love my gf, my dear dear, my smelly baby, my mrs tee wanlin.
alot alot alot.
there's nothing can measure the love i have for u.
i know i doubt u in these few day but i guess, it's normal human reaction.
as wad wm say, i am really afraid to lose u once again.
i don't dare to think about the days when u're gone.
i don't wan to go through tat period of time again.
it's so scary and so terrible.
i wan to be loved more by u again.
do u think u can do it?

if u can't i won't blame u =),
cos i know there's once u loved me so deep in the past, i am glad.
happy to know u.

no one will know how i feel now. =(
no one.

i guess this is wad true love is.
true love will never always be smooth.
there's always bound to be quarrel to happen.
why?
cos we are getting used to each other,
we are trying to get used to each other life.
i'm glad u enter into my life.

thanks wanlin,
my love,
to be there in my life.

i will always remember u,
thinking of u.

my friends outt there,
i am getting more and more busy in these day,
hope u all will take care of wanlin =)
she's always lazy!!! hahaha.
smelly smelly. =)

i'm lonely.

alright, back to blog about my life again.
i had the best and worst day of my life in these few days. =)
so it's gonna be a wordy post. well my blog looks dead so i think no one will read it after all. =)

1st of all, 1mins of slience for the countries and for those who've been hit hard by recent Natural mother wrath. =(
it's really very sad. i read the news paper and those photo s seriously make my eyes wet. ='(

2nd of all. happy birthday to Ms tay wanlin. finally she's 18 and able to clubbing and offically go pub and drink wine. =)
i know i spoil your birthday hope.
i'm sorry about it.
i am not a perfect person, i crush your birthday's party this morning.
i know u're upset about why i didn't celebrate your birthday with u. i am sorry about it.
yes i do plan about it. and i already plan it out everything.
on your birthday, i can't really celebrate with u alone is becos, my parents, keep on asking me is it true your birthday falls on my bro birthday.
yes of cos it's true.
they wanna celebrate with u tgt,
why?
well i think they have already treat u as one of family member le.
i didn't know my mum will gong gong till ask me those stupid question.
didn't know their planning was so bad.
i regret celebrating with them.
but, i need to spare a thought for my bro too.
both of u are important to me in my life.
seriously i thouught my mum plan somthing good for u and my bro.
but i didn't expect it to turn out like this.
i am seriously sorry.

well wad about my plan?
i intend to bring u go gelaria or sth to eat wad u've been wishing for.
your elmo, elmo balloon, elmo cake and sth special awaiting for u at there.
i know i shouldn't doubt u.
we just been back for just one day and i sth like this happen.
yes, u're right, i am dumb.
in your eyes, i am a near perfect bf, i can't make any mistake at all.
but still i am just a normal human being,
although i am always like "anything anything" de.
but u know tat when i plan soomething so seriously about it.
i wan it to be perfect.
i don't wan anything to spoil my plan.
hey gelaria manager and staff, i am sorry about it.
make u guys busy for nothing, seriously sorry about it.
i knw u're unhappy why i didn't plan anything for u,
i am sorry.
i don't wna to tell u any of my plan in the 1st place is becos,
i wan to create a surprise for u.
it's been long since i last create surprise for u.
or maybe i shld put it, it's the 1st time i am being so romantic.
haha, can't believe right?

after the lunch, book the tickets for accurcy of death already, 6.10pm
i secretly went to book it ytd,
after movie, gonna bring u to somewhere special.
some where i've promise u before.
after tat go home!!! oh ya, before i forgot.
why i choose pasir ris downtown east gelaria?
cos it's very near wanlin house.
got the big elmo is already so troublesome.
plus the special thing and the elmo balloon. cannot plan too far away.
so u can bring it home. i am not gonna carry it if just now we went there.
it's your present.

friends must be thinking how come i am so rich arh?
well nope, i went to work part time job.
help to wrap or put handphone into their box.
it's very tiring.
no one knows about this job. not even my dad and mum.
just planning to have enough money for your birthday celebration with me.

thanks for saying those words to me.
many people say when someone is angry with u, they will say out how unhappy they are toward u or how they don't like about u.
sorry to let u see the ugly side of me like u say.
turning into a "beast". hey hey, don't think y y!!!
thanks for saying i am not same old guy anymore.
thanks for telling me u don't love me anymore.
thanks for so many wonderful things u given to me.
thanks for telling me i am not suited to be your bf.
i have tried my best to give u the best of me.

friends, jealousy will kill.
just like me.
i'm dead.
maybe i got no reason to be jealous. =)

yes, i saw your effort. i am happy to see your effort.
i am not blind.
tat why, i lied to u about the part time job, all the planning and all the gift.
i learn something,
i am just not the old me anymore.

i admit, i am very sensitive towards anyone now after wad happen to me 1 month ago.
i am very protective against anyone now.
i am afraid to get hurt again,
but it's so difficult not to fall in love with u again.
maybe u're right.
guys like me don't deserve any gf.
yes i guess many must be thinking.
i am sorry to doubt u. the r/s is still so new, although we've been tgt for 9mths.
i need time to have completely trust again,
i will learn.
for example, i didn't mention or talk about his name anymore.
didn't ask who's talking to u. i am trying, very hard.
i really don't wan to let it go.
it's so difficult.
(grandmama, finally i know how u feel now!)

i am not perfect. i am a normal human being,
i got my needs of love and care.
yes, u given me enough love and care,
i am glad.
i know it's stupid to compare abouit it.
sometime i wish, i nmake a small mistake, u will forgive me, instead of angrying with me.
i make mistake.
i been through alot alot these few weeks.
i've got my judgement for my attachment,
i give up on everything,
i lost hope in everything,
i lost confident totally.

now then i know, when i am very sad or hurt or feeling so low in my life,
i am always alone walking in the path of darkness.
no one there to share my pain.
no one there to comfort me.
no one there to cheer me up.
just no one.

God why?
did i done something so wrong in your eye?
always let me be alone?
do u know the feeling of being lonely is so terrible?
do u really plan so much pain in my life?
wadever i do, always can't get it right.
maybe u're right.
i am just a useless guy down here,
wasting earth resources.

i wan to throw everything away.
everything! including myself!
i am all alone all along.
sorry dad and mum to disappoint u guy.
Mr aloy, thanks for helping me throughout.
thanks bros for giving me your support even i am not a gd brother!
thanks wanlin for lending me your shoulder when i receive the bad news.
thanks for being my wonderful gf throughout.
thanks for everything.

from today onward,
i shall seal up myself.
no one will be disappointed in me again.

i really wan to cry out now!
really feel like crying non stop till my eyes gone blind.
living in darkness may suits me better.

or is there anyone who can bring me out of darkness?

well back to blog again.
seriously not much to blog about.

well maybe i do.
just abit of domestic stuff.
haha.

okay it's mother's day today.
well i bought for my mum "legend" DVD. yup it's the korean shows going on air in 25th may soon.
and yup, a keychain by Ms TAY WANLIN.
and a hong bao of $100 inside.
and last but not least. my LOVE. =)

it's the 1st time i felt my mum will accept the gift with smiles and some evil smiles too. hahaa.
thanks to Ms wanlin for your idea. haha.

alright, plan's changes. cos lin's parents going overseas on 20th.
so 21st will be spending with her since i am the one who promise her de. =)
and yes, there's surprise for u. =)
well i can't give u the phone now. if now, it's meanningless le. ='(
i have 3 letters for u on tat day with the presents too.
so yup. hope everything will go along with the plan. =)

suddenly i got a very weird feeling inside me now,
i don't know why. yup.
seriously, it's so strange to feel this way.
alright don't talk about it. =)

yeah now i am going to watch MAN UTD VS WIGAN.
GUESS who will win?
I AM ON MAN UTD SIDE!!!
MAN U will be the champ this year again. =). haha

alright now it's reply friends tagging time. =)


SU DA BAO
haha don't need pity me seriously. u know why?
i am shaking my leg in the office while u are mugging for your upcoming exam.
POOR BAO!!!
hahaha. yea, i miss school alot. misses the food the smell the people there and everything la.
hahaha attachment office here de food is cheap but it's the feeling tat so different. haahaha.
i go back school no matter wad u must accompany me to eat hor!!!
who say i copy cat?
i actually wanna post about those BBs and their photos.
but it's just tat i am lazy la. not like u so free okay? hahaa
hahahaha book u le. then can suan u SU DA BAO all the way. hahahaha.


JJ
haha yes she must be floating in the air right after reading my post.
hahaha. i am her so called best bf she ever had too. hahahaha,
u can ask her personnally. it's not good to ask in here. u know.
ahaha.
yeah her hotmail have a angel there.
u're right.
hahaha. so how's u and SU DA BAO now?
any process?
need my help?
and if can, bully her more. wahhahaaha. i got motive de., wahahahaha.


RYL
wah call me stupid grandpapa.
KNS
stupid grandmama. KNS.
no la, don't mistaken, it's not i don't wan to reply your sms,
it's becos i am lag.
u know, my processer only
WINDOW 2000 only.
very slow right,. hahaha.
sorry la.
nope u are not like tat. it's those guys out there who need it more than u do. hahaha
be careful of tat stalker through =)
yeah i am alright.
u know, sometimes,
i can get emo.
u ask SU DA BAO!!!
hahahaq
she saw me emo till i drop my tears and saliva. hahahaha.
=)


❤ DIANE
yes yes, scold JJ more.
scold till his pants on fire.
haha
yes, post his unglam photos up.
i wanna view. and make some nice comment.
right? MR JJ DA TIAO!
hahaha wad a nice name.
an why u scold me si alvin? kns.
and u wan me to die too?
alright, don't regret leh. u sure u wan me to die?
quick say sorry or, u will know.
nope not as famous as u.
so many friends and so many guys wan to woo and wan your number too.
wahahhahaa. say SORRY QUICK.
jhahahaha. =) take care. =)

Alright, readers out there, sorry about it. this post of mine, will be a very long post.
if u feel that u can take it, go on, read it. =)
if u think it's too long, well the cross button is just at the top right there. see it? hope u won't press it. ='(

it's gonna be photos and words post. so get ready. =).
i am having alot of thoughts today, so that why, i am posting such a long post. =)

1st let's get off with myself. =)





OMG, WHO'S THAT FAT GUY THERE? BROWN BUTTON SHIRT!!!
yeah yeah, it's me. yes, u're right, wad u are seeing now it's me.
BUT, that's the past. in the past, i am so the very fat alright.
can't imagine right? well, this is better, my fattest record, nearly 90 kg!!!



yea, this is me now.(well not really, it's been long since i last took any photo.)
but well, manage to slim down alot. for those who don't believe i used to be so fat before,
here's the proof. =)
the way of my slimming road, well, i don't encourage anyone to try it.
it's painful. not about physically but mentally.
yea, stress and lost in love will make u slim down alot. ='(

ELINKWAN
u're my buddy cum bestie ma. so of cos, your name will appear in my blog. lol.
so how's life? how's your study?
haha, know wad? u know who is that special gal meh?
don't anyhow guess hor!
i got a new name for u.
ELIN KWAN XIAO BAO!!!
wahahha. cos got SU DA BAO already,
then now need XIAO BAO. u and susu so close. so u know. wahahahahaha


JJ
haha, are u sure u helping me?
or u are trying to use other hand to kill me?
matchmake me and who?
haha u know anything?
don't know right?
don't anyhow say ma. very wad de lo. no gong de XIN
i never sabo u leh, i trying to help u and SU DA BAO.
she's such a "nice" gal wad, not bad right?
well well, thanks for asking me not to eat her da bian,
cos u know why>?
u will be the one eating SU DA BAO da bian ma.
to u, her da bian is the best in the world.
wahahahha.


SUSU
wah, so good to see u tag my blog arh?
come my blog only know how to call me ah pek,
aiyo, i am still young u know?
still can do "alot" of things leh.
well i admit i got la, but mine one small.
not like SU DA BAO!!! wahahhaa.
okay la, don't make fun of u.
but cannot leh, one day never make fun of u,
i will feel so uneasy.
too bad, now no one control me so u can't stop me.
wahahahahahaha. SU DA BAO!!
i wan breakfast.
1 susu(milk in malay), 2 SU DA BAO.
enough to last me for 1 day. wahahhahahaa


RYL
wahahhaa, tat's my motive.
sooner or later, the whole BLs and the the whole SCHOOL will know,
who's SU DA BAO, ELINKWAN XIAO BAO and MR & MRS BREAD PIG.
wahahahhaahaha.
yup, it's okay already. thanks for your concern.
wahahahaha. how's your sickness?
about the outing with them, i will help u arrange asap. yup. =)
cos they are busy too. maybe this weekend or next weekend.
it will be real fun with them.
since u are single, wanna consider them? wahahahaha.


❤ DIANE
why change for me? i like this blogskin,
it's like, giving other a very SHEN MI GAN leh.
then people will wan to know more.
somemore u wan to help me make into rainbow colour de blogskin,
people will think i am so happy and so cheerful.
okay, i am to some other.
yeah yeah, now i am updating, =)
don't work too much alright?
exam coming, later u wore out how?
your mummy sure nag and scold me de lo.
i become your part time mother.
=).
don't ever drop the phone after i pass to u hor,
i will cry on the spot man!!!
=).
miss me? i bet no la.
someone so busy with TUTU!!!
=p

alright back to blogging again. =)

2nd May' 08
went to watch ironman with "chouchou"(evil smile) on 2nd may'08
wahahaha, keep on letting me smell the nice chouchou feet.
alright, this movie "ironman", 2 thumps up!!! it's like damn nice lo.
the way they handle the storyline, the effect and the conversation.
it's worth the movie back. confrim de. yes, friends out there who haven't watch,
pls hurry your way down to the nearest cinema to watch it. yup.
if not, i am sure u will regret it. ='(
although it's $20, but seriously the money will be worth well after u have watch it. =)

saw one of the BBs in long john silver. well her name not BB,
she's one of the student we took for orientation on the Jan'08 intake.
i was so surprise she still remember me.
when i was walking toward the counter, buying combo1, she called out alvin.
i was like, who's that?
about 2 sec later, oh ya, she's one of the BBs. haha.
well funny thing is, i nearly fell down.
hey guys, don't mistaken it. she's not the type of gal i wan.
it's just tat i happen to step on the wrong place at the wrong time and she called me,
which make me so surprise and so, yup, nearly fell.
i am glad most of the BBs still rem me, well i bet it's all of the BBs still rem me.
haha it's about going 3 weeks since i last step into our school. wahhaa.
i bet many people will miss my voice. =)
especially, SU DA BAO, BREAD PIG, ELIN KWAN XIAO BAO and maybe her?

3rd May' 08
alright early morning i was damn pissed off by sony ericsson W960i.
why? 1st of all, i didn't touch the phone,
2nd, the phone is still in the box. not yet open up.
3rd, it's just beside my bed and there's no way it can drop from a higher ground floor.
and so the phone screen was cracked!!!
i was like, WTH! i didn't do anything, yet it just cracked.
KNS!
damn!it!!
went to exchange the phone, luckily that CSO didn't asked much about it.
if not, sorry to spoil your nice day by me.

after that, brought the kaya and butter bread to lin house, cos i own her mother de.
lol. yup, keep on saying i will bring and in the end, always out of my mind.
sorry about it aunty.
i got lots of new scar on my hand and body.
got scratch by a very very very big "CAT"!
around 50+kg?
her "claws" are damn sharp and it's so strong.
in the end, luckily, manage to hong the "CAT".
stay over and had a very nice chat.
the "CAT" cried becos of arguing lost tto me. lol.
strange right everyone?
hahaha. =p

Today
sent lin to her workplace. after tat, went to bought some sushi and water for her.
cos keep on complaining she's hungry. lol
ask u eat breakfast don't wan yet u wan to sleep. don't blame me. =)
decide to take bus 14 home. it's about an hour of trip.
alot of thing flash through my mind.
thinking about wad these 3 months i had gone through.
no wonder i slim down alot. hey friends, stress seriously can make u slim down alot.
but trust me, that will be the last slimming method u will ever wan to try.

reach home about 2. yup. never eat "brunch"(breakfast cum lunch).
found out something wrong with lin phone. so having check with faith sister, yes,
W960i do have this kinda problem.
some touch screen not sensitive enough. some software got problem
so in the end, faith sister ask me to exchange with them instead of doing software update.
alright, around 5 plus went to PP to change the phone, cos my parents going there shopping.
then they went to roxy square to eat steamboat.
so join them for free dinner.
well, they advise me to monitor the phone for 1 more week.
extending the exchange period for 1 more week.
yup.
reach home around 8 plus, i am so full can.
well well, my parents damn noisy can?
how will i know the phone will have so many problem.
screw me up for buying such lousy phone as present for her.
KNS, u guys treat her better than me.
might as well ask her be your daughter.
neh neh.

reach home thought lin will sms me, in the end no. well
it's okay then.
used to it. shouldn't worried so much in the 1st place.

now rushing the project. or so call task given by my attachment manager.
so headache can?
there's so many problem in the warehouse.
it's driving me crazy.
I HATE U MR THE.
wad a bloody teacher i have.
POST me to such a nice attachment place.
and now, this project is making me go mad.
for fuck sake,
Mr aloy came to visit me on last monday.
talking fucking nonsense to me,
"alvin, u got be do wad the manager told u.
rem u're on the ite name here.
do us proud. if the manager demand a good project from u,
put in extra 200% more to complete it.
u can make it."
wad the fuck is it? make me as a dog?
manager wan me to clear shit i got to clear it?
why not u be the one replacing me to do it.
and for the fuck sake,
manager demand a so fucking screw bloody difficult project.
i am not very good in COMPUTER, BASTARD!
so wad i am a RP transfer student, Mr aloy?
doesn't mean i am better than other?
i am just lucky alright?
stop giving the excuse like helping me to somewhere it's goood.
BULLSHIT!!!
FUCK!!!



yes, i can see the effort and feel the effort.
thanks for changing for the sake of me.
thanks for everything.
pls, don't ever repeat those words and incident again.
it's not worth to do this to me.
stop being so easily angry with me.
after so many thing, of cos, i amvery very protective of myself 1st,
i can't be like last time,
yes, i trust u and i believe u,
but it takes time to build the whole mutual trust again.
i may not be perfect,
yes, i am easily jealous,
and i can be sensitive to alot of thing. yup.
hope things will turn better as time goes by. =)

P.S - hey friends out there, have u guys watched ytd guess guess guess by jacky wu?
remember the ending part where how much do women know about man?
jacky say that when a guy 2 timer a women, the women may be able to forgive the guy?
when a women 2 timer a man, it's impossible for the guy to forgive the women?

well, there's lot of example out there, to prove that guy do forgive their beloved women.
=)
but it come with great price,
just had a chat with my friend, YW, his gf 2 time him and done something wrong to him.
in the end, they are back together but it will take the gal about 2 months to prove to him.
YW, was being damn nasty to her now.
but how come she doesn't complain anything?
well not very sure, but i guess this is wad true love is.
they've been together for about 3 years.
that really cool and good. =)
send my blessing to them =)

so yup, treasure your loves one before it's too late. =)