well,
attachment haven end but i had sumitted my report.
so i am feeling so great and relax.
no more huge pressure and anymore stress.

quite busy at the moment so i shall update at one go.

14th,
thanks to dearest best friend janis.
went all the way down to my attachment area to pass me my fav food at the moment,
udon.
well gal, your spicy udon,
seriously damn spicy.
drank 3 can of coke!!!
damn bloated.
LOL
cool la.

15th aug,
went back to school
well, different feeling la.
it's so cool man.
cool lo.
haha i am glad,
so many people still remember me,.
but well thanks to my new hairstyle.
lol.
some say nice,
some say prefer my long hair style.
well. it doesn't matter.

16th,
yeah, finally able to clear off one of the stupid debt thanks to him.
FUCK YOU MAN!
$650.
damn u.
dad suggeest me to make a police report.
i don't know why i am so soft hearted.
still thinking whether should i?
now it's time to pay jocey back.
sorry girl.
i need some more time.
seriously sorry.

but still,
after clearing one debt,
feeling much lighter. than usual.

so hit out at st james at night with marcus and co again.
this time round.
i broke my own record.
well on the strike of 12am, 17th aug,
i managed to drank 17 glass of pure martell.
dead drunk for 1 hour or so till marcus arrived with michelle.
why 17?
maybe to me it's a way of releasing myself.
reborn,
restart,
and new changes.

hahaha fatt and hao drunk too.
lol.
will post the photos up soon, =).
see how i am drunk. =).

17th,
around 5am,
they call janis to picked me up.
lol i don't know why they will call her but well,
thanks anyway.
so dearest best friend cab me home.

*janis,
i am sorry if i done or say anything tat hurt u on that day.
sorry.
i don't know wad really happen.
pls do tell me if i done something really overboard.
sorry.
guess u won't tell me anyway.
but hope u will still.

seriously u can find a better bf,
i don't know wad got into your mind tat i am the one?
i not good at all.
i am fooling around.
hugging and doing some stupid stuff during clubbing.
i don't think u can take it.
yes, u can say i am just trying to act.
but still,
i love my life now.
although i wish to be in love,
but i am really not worth for u to do all these.
it's not u're not pretty.
seriously speaking,.
i know we don't compare,
but still,
compare to my ex,
u're prettier, loving, kind, thoughtful and caring.
any guy would fall for u.
maybe it's becos u treat me too good.

i don't know wad i am thinking,
i love to go against all odd.
maybe with someone everyone look down on us,
i will be with tat gal longer.
yup.
strange isn't it?

sorry.

well done something to my body on 17th,
when i think or see it, it will remind me.
it will forever be a scar in me.
not even memories can wipe it off.
anyway guys,
pls don't think i still hate "her"( u guys should know who i am refering to)
cos why?

the opposite of love isn't hate - it's indifference.
if i hate her, that means i still care for her.
if she hate me, that means she still care for me.
which i think she don't hate me.
yup.

anyway, i didn't mature,
it's just that my thinking is way too different now.


18th,
went for my 1st lesson,
fuck tat instructor.
hey, i am not paying u to teach me history of singapore or wad.
my history isn't tat bad alright,
at least i am a A2 oe B3 student in history alright!
any way so wad i know how to drive already>?
just anyhow teach me will do.
i need to complete at least 20 to 23 lesson from wad i heard.
damn, gonna change instructor soon.
=).

alright time to go.
it's 1.52am now.
anyway,
dad suggested me to buy a camera 1st.
cos i am going for overseas holiday.
so yup.
psp or camera?
hmmmmm.
cool la.

oh ya,
my new blog song,
one of the best trance dance song i can dance with.
beats.
i love the beats. =)

and too,
i opened a new blog account.
private.
lol.
all my thoughts and lots of other things.
will be in there.
=).
thanks jocey. =)


i guess somehow,
my heart, my soul and my body,
start to feel the beat of love again.
should i get into a r/s or should i stay?
i hope my devil princess will be here sooner than later.
='(

2 posts. =)
below will be the photo post.
=D


8th aug
friday,
went to cut my hair,
NEW HAIRSTYLE
had dinner with janis,
welll thanks God that we are still friend.
=).
well can't remember when but,
watched mummy 3, batman, journey to the center of earth,
chi bi.
yup.
watch mummy 3 tgt.
starting nice,
middle boring,
ending awesome.

after tat, hit out at ceinleisure kbox.
sang till sunrise.
LOL.
well, of cos,
tears dropping out again,
alot of the song...
memories flashes back.
too many,
can't control well.
well janis, u must be glad.
u're one of the few to see me cried so much.
yup.
i guess,
she should be living happily now

hahaha.


9th aug
sat.
happy birthday day singapore.
LOL.
woke up around 12 plus pm.
janis drag me to far east to buy some clothes.
in the end,
nothing caught my attention.
yup.
we meet up with jaslin around 4 plus to have dinner.
steamboat.
thanks to janis's idea.

7 plus meet up with marcus and co and michelle.
we gonna hit out at st james.
well, they had dinner at food republic.
well their food damn ex.
but like quite nice.

so around 9 plus,
went to st james power house.
order 2 bottle of whisky and martell.
due to boredom.
they wanna play a lame and stupid game.
before we play the game,
we drank 1/2 bottle of whisky,
damn hot man!
cool la.
well cos i am always losing in the guessing game.
dammit.

so yup,
they suggested to play this game of asking number and taking photo.
rules, simple.
ask as many number as u can from the opp. sex.
if u successfully ask for their number,
u must take a photo with them.

loser will pay for all the drinks and food we had.
so no choice.
i don't have so much cash,
haven get my salary.
yup.

in the end,
17number and 17 different photo.
17? nice number, i hate this number man!
fatt 8number,
marcus 8number
hao 13number
bozhu 1number only.
LOL!!!
so yup.

anyway didn't post their photo up because i don't even know them.
so yup.
no point.

thanks to this game,
one female came to ask me,
u look like sunshine boy,
but how come u are so white.
wth. marcus and fatt heard this comment and so,
now in sdv,
i got this sunshhine boy nickname.
so the not cool right?

well in the end,
saw merilynn.
thanks shithead for helping me to drink tat glass of pure whisky,
i can't take it man!
one whole glass.
damn bozhu!

anw,
got drunk before we even start dancing.
LOL.
well, i am feeling so empty tat why they say i will be more easily drunk.
i guess it's true. =(.

so after 1 hour,
start to dance like no one care.
haha,
finally,
i am able to create my whole trance dance move.
so cool.
=)

well, we hit out till 4 plus,
went to mcdonald and had our breakfast,
a big thanks to bozhu.
all drinks and meals on him.
hahaha.
he lost$600++
hahaha.

we chat till 6 plus.
janis called me up,
ask me for breakfast.
well fine with it.
meet at geylang there to eat her fav dian xin.
yup.
well i was still abit drunk,
having headache.
so janis cab me home.
thanks gal.
thanks alot.
i am sorry to cry and vomit on u again.
hahaha.
i am a big baby alright!

10th aug,
happy birthday to JANIS & COUSIN CHIN YI!!!
so i slept till 1.
janis was using my com.
lol.
playing dota.
so yup.
we hit out at bugis and orchard.
bought for her a dress.
alright,
and a present for chin yi too.
i shall declare i am broke.
yes.

her friend and jaslin came along after tat.
well,
sorry,
i can't grant u your birthday wish this year.
i am sorry.
u're my best friend already.
i hope we will stay in this way.
=)
thanks for everything.


so went to chin yi party.
eat and eat again.
play xbox360 with those kids.
lol.
damn cool la.
well,
thanks to cousin jiao wei,
anyhow anyhow.
told her friend i am single.
seriously i think,
i am more like an item in the supermarket.
why are they so afraid i don't have a gf?
LOL.

so yup.
get to know rinna, wendy, and don't know wad wad.
aiya, can't rem.
wendy cos she's serving me all the time.
lol.
don't know why,
thanks anyway,

as for rinna,
i will say,
she's awesome and cool la.
seriously she's the 1st gal to play qing tian and dang ni on piano
for me sia.
i was like.
awesome and cool
can't find other words.
at tat point of time.
i was somehow attracted to her way of playing piano.
i feel i am alive again.
well in the end,
i cried.
lol.
1st time la.
cool.




well dad,
i hope u will be in singapore to help me celebrate my 21st birthday.
it's one of the most important chapter of my life.
chalet!~ u mst be there.
u're really such a cool dad.

well told dad about one bastard friend.
help him to clear off his debt and using my name to borrow from my friend.
in the end,
he's happily enjoying life now.
dad offer to help me out but i say no.
cos it's me who get into this shit.
i will learn how to clear off myself.
i need to learn.
thanks dad.
after i get my salary,
i will clear off my every single debt.


to one of my ' friend'
no matter how busy u are,
if u still treat me as a friend,
u will at least send a sms to ask how's my life now.
after tat incident,
u seems to change alot.
maybe u side on her cos she's your friend too.
i am glad,
able to see how u treat me as a friend.
u're online so often than me,
but yet,
not even a single message from u.
i am totally disappointed in u.
so uncool.
no matter how damn busy i am,
at the very least,
i still sms or message u and ask how's your life.
thanks for treating me like a fool.
thanks alot.

*real friends are not those who are always around when everything is almost perfect.
they are the onewho dig deep into the ground when you're down just to pull you up and say:
"hey friend, need some help?"


alright,
i make up my mind,
decide to get a HONDA V-TEC.
turbo tune engine,
thanks dad.
=)


*12th aug'07
it's the 1st time i chat with u in msn.
from 8.33pm to 4.21am.
we've been chatting non-stop.
one year later,
thing changed.
everything's changed.
这是我最后的祝福
想着手心的感触
想着脸颊的温度
谢谢你这11个月为我付出
谢谢你的结束
冷却后的残酷
谢谢你的知足
告诉我别再付出
谢谢你的温度
记忆留在最初
谢谢你曾让我们幸福



anyway,
from 16th of aug till well not sure when, gonna change my blog link.
since i don't know how to make it into private.
i've got something to post out,
and i don't wish to let anyone know.
so guys, till further notice.
yup, will be changing my link.


anyway,
not sure,
should i go and tattoo?
thanks to shithead for tat tattoo design,
it's nice.
it suits my situation now.
a grave design,
with a name in it,
with a R.I.P on top of it.



谢谢了 伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声 听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

*why it is easy to fall in love & yet so hard to love back?
why should i feel sad when you don't even feel a thing for me?
why there is always a 'you' in 'me' but never 'me' in 'you'?

*i love to walk in the rain cause no one will know that i am crying.

*beauty doesn't make love but love make beauty...
break everything but never break the heart...
heart is the music, play it but never play with it.

COUSIN CHIN YI'S BIRTHDAY PARTY

seriously i am sick and tired of it.
jie stop all these fucking nonsense.
anyway i am sorry ytd u came to find me but i am not at home.
i went to east coast pub with jaslin jie & janis.
till 4 am then back home.

tonight i shall post every fucking shit of my thought out and that's it.
everything need to end alright?
for that fuck sake.
stop using the same way of writing style as me.
damn it.
fuck it to core!


re-edit

alright, it's time to clear every fucking shit.
if some of my words hurt any of u,
i am sorry about it.
it's gonna be a same old long post again.
not happy with my post,
get out of my blog.
this is my blog,
i have the say.
jie,
she's hugging her new bf is it my problem? NO!
she's kissing her new bf does it concern me? HELL NO!
she's haaving sex with her new bf does it matter to me! FUCK YA NO!

so wad she got a new bf?
means?
she's recovering faster than me.
that all,
anyway,

so wad she's not serious with me? so wad's she fooling around with me?
come on it's all over.
for tat fuck sake, do u really know wad really happen? NO!

wanlin used to say i love to seek attention from other.
and seriously, i don't really know how do i seek attention from it?
my blog, seriously, both hand and leg add together.
tat all the readers i have.
most of them are my friends.
unlike her blog,
lot of people will view.
well i don't know,
i am just guessing.


seriously,
do u guys know everything in this fucking broken r/s?
NO!
so don't comment much.
anyway,
susu and cheryl, i am wondering if u gal still reading my blog,
if so,
remember wad i told u? it all came true!
yes, all came true.

thanks to those who doubt my words at 1st.
thanks for doing this to me.
like i say,
time will prove everything.
time will clear every of your doubt.

nope of u guys know everything,
all the fucking lies she say to me,
all the fucking shit she done to me,
all those fucking comment from any of her 'friend'
so this is my problem.
yes it's my fucking problem.

why?
why can't i even blog something out?
and seriously tat post,
it was meant for janis.
i don't wish to lie to her.
i don't wish to treat her as replacement.
i can't hide my feeling well.
i don't hide any of my thought.
it's the fact.
so guys and jie,
just accept it.
time will heal everything.
time will heal my wound up.

seriously i am going to go crazy soon,
even after everything ended.
thing still the same.
seriously it's damn fuck up!

attachment project,
final theory,
driving lesson,
looking round for the best affordable car,
janis problem,
esther problem,
my own personal problem!!!!

seriously all damn fuck up,
it's a bloody mess now.
how i wissh i never start any r/s at all.


jie stop all these fucking nonsense,.
u're not tired i am!
i am very very tired.
although i am single now,
doesn't mean i need to have a gf soon.
when the day i found the special one who make my heart beats again,
then.
so stop it.
told u before,
don't ever mention anything about her to me anymore.
no one really know wad really happen.
so wad u gonna do?
wan me to please and plea and beg her back?
wan me to scold her why she got a bf so soon?
wan me to go round saying wad and wad?
i am not tat free.
just settle janis problem,
now gonna settle this again,
damn fuck up u know?
i don't see any wrong with me.
i am still trying my best,
to forget about her,
time. please,
i need time.
seriously speaking,
they are asking me the same question as u.
why didn't i accept janis,
who's prettier, caring, loving and better gf than her?
how the hell i know?
the feeling just now right.
so fuck it off.
stop everything.
i didn't answer your call and reply your message is because i don't know wad to say to u.
let this come to an end.
fucking sick and tired of it.

i am 20,
i will still find a gf.
just need more time alright.
and my next gf,
i will show it to u.
my parents and your parents are good friends,
i don't wish this to cause any hard feeling between us.
thanks for being so caring to me.
i am glad.
but stop okay?


anyway, from this broken r/s.
i learn alot.
seriously,
who're my friend,
who're those wearing a mask.
who're like 2 headed snake.
who always like to backstab me,
the best way to heal this wound faster will be forget about her and find a new r/s.
yes i know.
and i will.
will find a better one. =).
trust me.



anyway learning break dancing from 2 shifu now.
they rock la! they really cool la.
i need to get back to the perfect weight for my body 1st. =).


anyway, well,
saw this HONDA V-SPEC.
it's so cool la.
although 1.6L is not turbo tune,
but the sound coming out of the engine,
damn cool la.
well asking dad is it possible for a 2.0L
it will come with turbo tune engine.
damn fucking cool.
woot woot.
the sound.
it really make my heart beats.

well gonna make up my mind soon before dad really leave sg.
if not,
no shit,
nothing.
needa ask cousin kenneth to bring me go round and 'see see look look'.

i hope this post will really be the last post of this fucking broken r/s.
no more problem pls.
damn it.


anyone can help?
why can't i upload video up?
well there's this video of us dancing in st james.
but blooger doesn't allow me to upload.
shit man!


anyway, won't be blogging so often,
driving lesson starting soon.
divert all my attention! =DDD


*anyway, tot dionna got a bf,
happy for her,
in the end,
LOL,
tat message is for her girl friend.
lol. nice one.
u got me!


*Forgive but I can't forget. Every day I deal with this. I live with the side effects.

well, 1st of all.
i am sorry janis.
i didn't mean things to turn out this way.
i am sorry to make u cry again.
i am sorry to let your tears drop again.
it's not i am fooling around.
but seriously, by the time u read this post,
u will be able to know why.
why i choose to end this r/s.
if u wan to say i am a jerk,
yes i am.

afternoon while going shopping with u.
i don't know why,
most of your action,
are just like her.
the way u talk,
the action u show,
the sa jiao way,
the way u kiss me.

i don't wan to treat u as a replacement.
that why jaslin keep on reminding me about it.
u're not.
seriously u're better than her,
in the sense of treating bf.
u're just too good for me.
but still i don't know why.
every gal i see now and then,
always have the shadow of her.

this is my karma.
it's the price to pay for loving someone so deeply in my life for the 1st time.
i need to learn,
i need time to forget about her,
as u say,
maybe she had forgetten about me.
maybe she got a new bf.
maybe she's having someone in mind right now.
maybe she's not coming back in my life.
no matter how much she hurt me.
no matter how many times she cheat me.
no matter how many times she lied to me.
it's still the fact that,
she's still somewhere in my heart.
no matter how hard i try.
no matter how much i wan to get a replacement or soemthing.
still,
it's hard to push her out of my heart.

it's not i never try,
yes i tried.
i told u before,
it took me 1 and half year to forget about keying,
who's with me for 3 years.
and at tat point of time,
i am still a kid?
it's puppy love maybe?
yet it took me so long to forget about her,
so wad do u think?
how much time i need to forget about wanlin?

yes,
sometime i hate,
sometime i regret,
for loving someone so deeply.
but still,
it's my choice to love her so deep in the 1st place.
i can't deny this fact.
tat why,
in the 1st place,
i didn't wan to get into r/s at all.
i am afraid u will get hurt in the end.
i don't wan any replacement.
i am already trying my best to push her out.
i am trying so hard le.
still it's useless.
all i need time.
and seriously u can get a better bf.
i am not your type of guy,

don't u find it strange?
i told u before,
i will always nag at my gf,
but can't u see i didn't nag at u at all?
i am not ready.
it's not easy to be in love with someone u will love so deeply
let alone forget about the one u love so deeply.
this message is for u, janis.
i don't wan to lie.
i don't wan to take u for granted,
no matter how she treat me before,
she's still somehow the past of me.
she got the only reason why i will love her so deeply.
it's not easy u know?
do u know while i am typing this post,
i am letting my tears to flow again?

no matter how much i don't wan,
how much i wan to forget about her,
how much i wan to push her out,
how much i wan to love someone else.
i can't.
i don't know.
i am foolish i guess.
it's going one month soon.
one month.
i told u before,
i may need 2 years to forget about her.
i still have 23 months to go.

well i know u've been asking me to ask her for patch.
but seriously i doubt it's impossible.
no matter how much i still miss her,
how much i still love her.
how much i wan the r/s back.

i don't have the confident.
i am not the same anymore.
maybe time,
time will heal everything in my heart.
time will mend my heart back to it.
i wan to forget her.
i really wan.

can anyone teach me how?


just go and find another good guy.
yes,
u can.
believe in yourself.
be more confident.
i know i am in no position to say this.
me myself i can't even do it yet i wan u to learn from it.

seriously somehow i hate myself to not to be able to forget about her,
yes u may delete all her photos.
but all of it still in my phone.
everynight,
somehow,
i will look at it.
although it's getting lesser and lesser but still.
human are creature who will need time to get rid of their habit and learn a new habit.
i am not the one u searching for.

we meet at the right place,
right situation,
right person,
right thinking,
but the wrong timing.

i am sorry.



sep to nov i got no time at all.
i need to revise for my final and going for my PDL.
after tat,
i need to choose a car before my dad leave singapore.
after tat,
i will use all my time and love on my car, study and family.
i am afraid to get hurt in r/s again.
after wanlin,
i will never love someone so deeply again.
i am selfish.
i find everything worthless after u love someone so deeply.

i will improve myself.
i won't be a jerk again.
i don't wan my next r/s to be so broken again.

remember, get yourself a better bf.
u can.
with the quailty u had.
any guy will fall in lvoe with u.
i am a adnormal one.
thanks for everything.

take care. =)

re-edit
going out to eat supper with janis later.
well seriously,
i am not sure should i say it out or not?
i don't know why,
but still,
the feeling is not right.
i don't know.
hmmm jaslin jie, give me a call later.
i need some help.
i don't know.
i'm just like the lost ship u were talking about.
yup.

and well
someone force me to blog it out wad happen!!!
it's marcus.
CURSE U!!!
i shouldn't own u one!












1st of Aug' 2008
we rock the party man!~~~
here's some photo. =)
























oh hell yeah,
serious we rock st james power station man!
why?
5 of us,
guys,
dancing like no one care on the standing stage.
woooooooo!!!!

well here goes the story! =)
went to meet up with marcus and co at summerset.
went to ceinleisure pool.
they teaching me a new game,
kinda blur still but it's fun.
yup.

marcus meeting esther around 11.30 to 12 so we play till 11?
before tat,
janis came,
lol, she really came and nag at me.
well we are gambling.
hahaha somehow, it's funny la.
any ball game also can gamble.
well i lost $20 at 1st.
then when janis came and nag and nag.
somehow, luck change,
win back $64.
hahaha so free entry for us both. =)
janis seems angry tat i was laughing when i am losing money.
sorry then.

after tat took mrt to vivo city.
yup.
while waiting for esther and co,
janis and i had some talk.
talking about the possibility of being tgt.
well,
it's not impossible,
but somehow,
i am quite confuse.
yup.
she's really too good for me.

so went in to power house,
it's not pack,
order erm erm,
not sure wad it is.
marcus ordered some weird drink?

haha. then off we go,
enjoying.
in the end,
esther and co reach about 12.30.
with their friend,
marcus and co misunderstood.
hahaha.
thought they are their bf.
all look so down.
in the end i am the only one dancing.
HAHAHAAHA.
well not alone,
janis was there with me to dance.

so again,
some hot body dance from her.
gosh!!!
awesome la. *evil smile*

then all the problem started when we are dancing.
esther came over and ask janis
E: do u mind to let alvin dance with me.
J: (looking at me) ask alvin about it.
A: eh, i am fine with anything.
E: alright, then lets go.
J: okay i am tired, going back to have some drink.
A: jan, don't drink too much (with a smiling face)

so yup dance with esther,
well marcus and co,
esther's friend,
JANIS,
all watching us dancing.
then saw janis keep on drink and drink.

i am not sure why,
but esther keep on dancing and touching.
erm sorry marcus, i didn't do anything.
i am innocent la.
dance till half way,
kinda tired,
so went over to our table.
marcus was asking me how's the feeling.
LOL.
i replied,
u wanna know? go and ask her for a dance lo.

well trouble start.
janis doesn't wan to talk to me at all.
so i just keep quiet lo.
then she's abit drunk,
getting high.
pulling me to dance again
*i haven even drink a slip of water yet*

i say some harsh words to her
J: can u don't dance with her?
A: why? it's just friend only.
J: she doesn't treat u as friend.
A: yes, we're just friend only.
J: wad about me? only friend?
A: erm, i can't answer. yes we are friends. =)
J: why can't u answer me?
A: i don't know, i really don't know.
J: fine enjoy yourself. enjoy dancing with her!!
A: i didn't enjoy okay! she keep on touching me, i told u,
marcus wanna woo her so it's impossible alright!
J: but she's single and u're single.
A: but she's not my type.
J: if she's not your type will u dance with her like fuck?
A: wth, i told u she's not my type, wan me to repeat in chinese?
and why are u so angry? u ain't even my gf!
J: yeah, i am not even your gf, i don't have the right to be jealous,
u can flirt all u wan. fool around like i care!

well, she start crying and ran out of the power house.
marcus and co push me out of the table and chase her.
funny right?
like drama can?

so ran out, she's crying near the fence.
wa lao,
damn malu lo.
cool right?
i am always making gal cry.
well so went there say sorry.
keep on say sorry also no use.
nice one.
well in the end, no tissue,
use my shirt lo.
did i really done something wrong?
hmmm.

pull her in to the table and ask her sit down.
must serve her like princess!!!
sit there for about 10 mins
janis drank 3 glass of martell.
nice one.
sad also don't need to drink so much.
well marcus told me to prove to him i don't like esther.
LOLOLOLOL
how do i prove ass?
i told her i don't have gf and i am not interested in her too.
so how?

talking in halfway,
janis pull me to dance again.
thanks arh.
so same thing happen again.
like the previous incident.
we had deep smooching and well this time round,
i don't know why,
i seems to fall in love with her.
so well,
she's high till she and marcus push me up to the small stage and dance.
wooooot.
seriously i like this feeling.
and finally,
i am dancing like no one care,
haha.


yup,
dance till 3 plus,
very tired,.
all of us like just bath finish.
LOLOL
specially marcus.

janis was so drunk she can't even stand!
got to piggyback her.
she's erm "not really heavy"
well in the end, she keep on arguing with me,
she can't go home, she lost her key.
nice one.
in the end, she suggest to come my house.
nice one.
O_O
so well,
reach home,
she's talking nonsense.
found out her phone wallpaper,
it's our photo.
hmmm, i am confuse.
yes,
well she got up and use my laptop.
surfing net!!!
nice one, told me she's drunk.
LOL.
tag my blog somemore.
while she's busy,
went to bath,
i am so smelly.
so after tat, ask her wanna bath she say no shirt and short.
well,
no choice, use mine.
look damn funny la.
when she allow i will post it up.
damn funny can.

yup then well,
we keep on cam whoring.
hahaa, her cheek damn red.
lol.
luckily i am not drunk.
so well,
we had a heart to heart talk.
now then i know,
maybe i should give myself a chance to let go of the past.
so yup.
she's my gf now.
then well, well well well =)
something very funny happen.
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... ... ... ... .... ... .... ....
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

she's hungry after she bath, so cook for her udon noodle.
haha with some hotdog, meatball and crabmeat.
yup.
it's the same feeling.
as through everything flash back.
well.
gonna throw the memories out of it.





yup. so erm.
like this lo.

well i don't know why she mind so much about her.
so well,
she deleted all of her photo in my laptop.
both the memories of us and her private photo.
well, somehow somewhere there's a pinch in my heart but yup,
it's okay now.


3rd Aug ' 08

kinda tired now,
baby accompany me to shop shop shop.
well it's her who's the one shopping.
she bought for me a shirt.
not bad.
on our anniversary i will wear it. =)
anyway,
baby,
u know hor,
be more confident in yourself.
well don't worry about esther =)
she belong to marcus.
and another her...
she will never be in my life again.
never.
don't worry.
she's just passer by in my life.
=).
i am sure, u will be better =).
and pls don't ever do tat to me again.
kinda weird u know?
serious.
anyway,
thanks for the 1st. =)