Sunday, May 28, 2006
lost?
well after today then i know i am dislike by someone i love, care and hurt most... after all these years... i seem to lost so many thing le... even i do gain many thing and memory but my ending was a sad one... not the one tat will last forever and live happily forever... well i dun blame anyone... i only blame myself for bringing all these to myself.. well after i change the address i guess she wont be able to visit this blog anymore... well this may be a good news to me cos in this way she wont know wat am i think and wat is she thinking too... if not i going to hurt her again... while maybe is time for me to look for a new goal in my life.. and maybe find someone who can calm my heart down.. really calm it down... i been deeply hurt... keying u really dun understand me well enough.. dun really know wat am i thinking and wat my heart feel about it... but i must admit... wo zhen de shi bai le... i lose to u... u seem to be able to recover from the hurt more fast than me... well i cant blame u... since u had love jerrold so deeply before so i am just another of your past or memory.. but do u think for me? u r the 1st gal i ever so deeply love... so in love with u... and really thought can spend the rest of my life with u... but all seems to be just a dream to me... well u never know who much i dream for u... how much i done for u.. but after all i dun blame u... i wont blame u... thank for all these years of love and taking care of me when i am hurt... good luck for your 'o' lvl.. good bye... i will stay away from u le.. wont be disturbing u le.. i will try to avoid u as much as i can... hope my memory will not be touch again and waken again...