well... today i went to church with darryl ashui min and yong wei... haha know so many frenx... they are such friendly people.. well as usual when i know many stranger at a time i will be damm shy.. haha.. today 234795 = baobao... yay she become my baobao... although we haven stead but gonna let her have faith and trust in me 1st... well she asked me a strange question... if she left 15 sec to live wat will i say to her? hmm my 1st reaction is tat hmm dun leave me again... i was left alone by her oncce le... very scare to be lonely again.. so i reply her.. from the bottom of my heart... " dun leave me pls, i was lonely once dun wanna be again le... if can i'll request a wish fro God, let me die in her place instead and when i die, i can be her guardian angel and watch over her every min and sec" well... this was wat i thought when she asked me tat question... haha she reply saying she didn't thought i will answer tat way... she thought i will just go find other gal... well no i am not these kinda person.. she say she very very touch... tat very sweet of me... well i reply her le... saying this is not about sweet word... i gone through so much... learn many thing... got a lesson which is so painful so now it make me change as a person in its attitude... well i dunno y i feel kinda strange when never sms her.. haha then so i bet on everything i had in me and her relationship now... when about 2 something... meeting jeryl darryl and yw going to gym at tampines swimming pool there... 2.30pm reach there... wait for them for about an hour.. shit.... well i also need to thank them... hee eeee.. oink oink... i sms her... asking her does she feel my presense in her heart make an impression... well she dun get wat i mean so i just ask it directly... after all these days of smsing meeting and phoneing... she say dunno whether got anot... but she will also feel uneasy when never sms with me... aiseh... haha so happy... then she say maybe yes le bahx... i getting more and more into her life now... hmm well i dun intent to stead so fast... just wanna help her in her o lvl chinese in this year end... and her studies too... must really help her le... hmm she's also going more and more deep into my life now... well i cant say tat i can't live without her but i do know now i can't live when we are not smsing or talking ... haha she gone overseas ytd... miss her sia... haha when she come back she sms me tat question... wat if she left 15 sec to live... haha... she also like to say b**s then now becos of her i nearly get infected haha... so i now oink oink with her... haha then went to cut my hair... aiseh from a yandao hair to a army hair... sweat.. haha but still very cute... hmm after eating dinner... i wen to sleep awhile... dream of her... nice dream... dream of after o lvl... i get my car... i bring her go round singapore and malaysia.. haha so romantic seh... well nowaday i dun think of those dirty thing like i used to think in the past.. now i only hope to have a stable relationship and not crossing the border line... hmm now thinking for the past one month is like... hmm always cry in the starting but now is like i dun shed a tear for someone who dun worth it le... although is still abit paiseh when we meet in school but well i got all over it... give her a smile or maybe a hi then walk away... this is baobao and my cousin teach de... must learn... this is call gentleman... now... can't stop thinking of baobao... haha... is like her face... so pink sia... very cute... next time if our relationship really stable le... i will bring her go let my cousin see... now then i know dun becos of a tree give up the whole forest... i still very grateful to keying for wat she did to me... heehee oink oink... b**s b**s haha dun misunderstand is not a vuglar or wat is like dun wanna write all out later she angry with me... haha oink... thank God for giving me a new life when i am in my lowest point of my life... thank God for letting me know my baobao... i will promise to learn from the past to avoid another mistake again... thank God Amen