haizx, today damm tired, really very tired. ytd study till 1 am then sleep today morning 5 am wake up and study again. having mock exam today, the question is quite easy but all i need is time, left one question unfinish. die. i think i can get quite high mark for this mock bahx. hope so.
after mock exam, as usual play basketball with shui min they all. today quite strange to me. starting of the game i keep on scoring like free, but when left me shui min and darryl on the basketball court i seem to be moodless. something seem to to bothering me. we play lot of game and last part of the game is i vs darryl.wahahaha 11-4 i win. haha suddenly i felt i am back to the old self, but this is only the begining only.
having chemistry and physic tuition at 2pm, so tired, i drag my wore out body and keep on study. guess my will power increased, can hold on so long. finally at 4pm after the tuition while wait for shui min and darryl, i fall asleep, too tired.
i am too tired of this world, sick of this world. now i seem to be so lonely, everyday spend my life on my own. well i do have frenx and some other ...... but i seem to lost confident in relationship. or maybe put it in this way, i dun trust love anymore. but i do still hope my princess will come and save my heart, live in there and make it her castle. =) about 7 pm plus then i part with darryl they all, take bus 12 back home. although it is just a 30 to 45mins trip, it seem to me forever. in the bus many meomory flash through my mind, how my life used to be and how i share my joy with my frenx. luckily Father left for me 1 thing, frenx, i have a bunch of joker frenx but when i am in troubled in anyway whether in love or serious problem they will always be there for me. thank Father.
about 9 plus went for jogging, jog till 10 plus come back. my whole body is wore out, and my heart seem to be also wore out. because of this, i manage to write a new song, totally by me. whenever i sing this song, my heart will have a feeling of going to melt soon. well maybe other may not agree with me but i am sure if gal listen to this song, it will melt their heart and boi listen will have the urge to treat their stead well. hahaha.
a word of advise, treasure your love one well before they leave u. well thank Father give me the chance to experience this pain and write out this song, and this will also be a lesson tat will forever buried and left a scar on me which i will remember by hard. i am so so so so so so tired. before i sleep i listening to my song again, dunno y tears keep on rolling out, my whole shirt is wet!!! pls someone help me stop the tears!! i promise Father i won't shed a tear anymore. sorry Father pls fogive your son for breaking the promise, i know i am a failure but i hope u will forgive me and send an angel down asap to help your failure son. i beg for your forgiveness for making such demanding wish. i am truly sorry. thank Father for being with me during my lowest point of my life. thank God amen.