hi hi everyone. i guess not many people visit my blog le.
well due to some incident,
not updating my blog often.

so nnow let start with some topic.

FRIENDS

well well, topic about friend.
been having rollar coaster in my life,
many upset thing happen.
everything in my life had changed.

one by one, frenx had forsaken me and leave,
why? it's not becos i didn't call them out or wad so ever.
it's just becos i had changed.

they say i changed to another person,
yup,
i admit,
i had changed.

to a guy who will put family and gf on the top of his list.
i'm sorry if i had changed and drifting away from u guys.
many incident happened and show me that one by one,
frenx betray my trust and stab my back with just one hit.

i am learing to take thing easily and not being emotional.
forgive and forget,
but in our life,
we can forgive one person of his/her wrong doing.
but we will never forget about wad he had done.

i'm just human.


LOVE
well my love life been having rollar coaster ride too.
i done something which hurt u and cause some scar/hurt in this relationship.
i know u won't forgive me now. just wanna say i'm sorry for wad i have say.
if i am given the chance to turn back time, i will say
never once i regreted loving u.
loving u is one of the happiness thing i had done in my life.
bringing u smiles make me feel i am the happiness guy in this world.
bringing laughter to u make my heart pumping all the way into your heart.
sadness make us suffer and never will i wanna to taste it again.'
this time round, it's my fault and i know i can't be forgiven by u again.
i am down on my knee begging for your forgiveness.

Since I met you,
I've fallen in love with you
at least a hundred times
for a hundred different reasons.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
when I watch you doing something you enjoy,
something you're so involved in that
you're unaware of my presence.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
when I listen to you talk to other people.
Whether you're being interesting and funny
or warm and caring and genuinely concerned,
you have a way of making people feel better with nothing more than words.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
just thinking about you,
remembering all the memories we've made...
falling in love for the first time,
staying in love during the rough times,
finding more to love about each other every day.
And whenever I think about the wonderful things that lie ahead of us,
I fall totally and completely in love with you
all over again.

What my heart tells me
Is that there is no one else on earth
Who can make me feel the way you do
From the first day that we met
You made me forget all my fears
And you have shown me that God really does
Have one special heart for each of us to find
You are the one God has guided me to
What my heart tells me
Is that I can never love anyone
As much as I love and care for you
And how my feelings grow stronger each day
I can't imagine not being able to hold you
I want to share my life with you for the rest of forever
You make me the person I have always hoped to be
What my heart tells me
Is that God has provided me with your loving heart
And I will do everything within my power
To provide the best for you each and every day
Everytime I see you walk into a room
My heart never fails to beat faster and stronger
This is how I know you are the one for me
For the rest of the time the Lord gives me
I give you my heart and for you I will do
What My Heart Tells Me


You ask me if I love you,
and I ask myself how to begin
to share with you
the feelings in my heart.
You inspire in me a love so deep
words cannot describe it,
so powerful that it overwhelms
my every thought.
You ask me if I love you,
and I wish there were a way
you could just see into my soul
and find the depth of passion,tenderness, and love
that holds you closer to my heart
than anyone or anything else.
You ask me if I love you,and I look into the magic
of your eyes and promise,
"Yes I love you... ...I always will".


When I think of my love for you
the wonder of its beauty takes my breath away.
I cannot recall the moment in time it began,
but only the overwhelming feeling of ecstasy it brought to me.
For at that moment I knew happiness.
A happiness I had never known before.
For just the thought of you gave me joy beyond belief.
The thought of being with you and being held by you was my one desire
I knew once we first met none other would ever do,
for I knew love.
I knew love as I had never thought possible in this life time.
It is a love of passion and desire.
It is a never-ending need to you,
for you,
only you.
When I think of my love for you
I realize I now know the true meaning of love.
I will love you as long as this life endures and beyond,
for you are my dreams, my realities.
You are my heart
You are my meaning of true love.

I'd like to speak just how I feel.
I'd say it in front of you..
but my words just ran away
If you could understand
how much I care,
I think I'd be ok
I haven't felt quite like this,
this feeling for so long.
How in my life, I must have missed,
what feels right, not even closed to being wrong
If you understand what you bringin me,
so much I feel alive.
All doubt diminishes from my face,
your love,
I need in my place.
I'm not trying to flatter you,
as some may think.
I have no cause to play any kind of game.
My feelings are true and from the heart,
if we don't ever make it, I hold myself to blame....
For my mind and heart is open to you,
Diane, Zheng Wanlin
my darling, my dear,I love you very much....
I'll always want you near.

sorry for such a long post.
i am being too emotional now.
i lost someone important in my life.
i can't bring myself but to tears
been crying for the past 24 hours.
it's the 1st time i cried so much for someone.
some may think i am trying to be emotional
but only those who know when u lost someone important
will understand my feeling.
why does all these things happen to me
again and again,

i just wan to hide in your hug and cry out loud.
wan to show u how much i need u.
no one can ever replace that feeling.
everything's gone.
it's my fault.
i hate being so useless and careless.
why can't i have the thought of u when i am about to say those words?
i guess this is karma.
i brought all these upon myself.
i can't blame anyone.

alright i can't continue anyone.
my eyes are red and swollen.
no one will be able to calm my heart down.
only u.
how i wish u will be here and calm my heart down
but i know that will never happen.

just wanna say,
i'm very sorry for wad i have done and say.
never in my life i wanna lose u again.
i lost all my hopes and confident.
any kind soul out there,
will be able to pass this message to her?
although it's common words used from the start of human race till now.
but it's all i wan to say
i love u.
i really do.
i miss u.
missing u every now and then.

i am lost. lost lost lost.