hi hi everyone, can anyone tell me wad's going in my life now?
i am lost. i don't know which way should i be heading to.
everything to me is so unreal.
i don't dare to dream any more.
keep on having the dream of being back with you again.
but wad if, the dream, was just a dream?

Lin, my dear, thanks for willing to celebrate with me during 17/03/08.
thanks for creating another happy memory into our memories.
i hope u like the special gift i gave to you.
it took me quite long to finish it.
i know i may miss out some detail but hope u don't mind.

i can say out proudly to everyone,
it's the 1st time i ever done something so meaningful for a gal.
u're the 1st gal to ever receive such gift from me.
i have to admit, i still love u alot.
i know my feeling for u still going on so strongly.
it reach to another stage already.
i don't know how am i going to live on without u.

many people console me, "hey, don't worry. time will heal everything back."
it's hard. to me, time doesn't even heal my wound and let me forget about u.
it makes me misses u more. making the wound as fresh as before.
nothing can heal my wound.
can anyone show me a way to turn back time?
if i can turn back time, make u mine again,
i will treasure it.

i got alot of thing to tell u.
i still wan to share my love with you.
like i always say, with you around,
nothing can break my confidence.
i went through alot, alot alot,
it's the 1st time, my heart was missing someone so badly.

do u know how do i live on the days without u?
i was just like a walking zombie,
nothing can brighten me up.
nothing can cheer me up.
nothing can put a smile on my face.
was thinking of u now and then.
even through the feeling of us being together was fading away.
even when the feeling was fading away.
my love for u was still there, still so strongly.

hope u will like the dumpling alot,
it's the 1st time i make.
never in my life will i willing to make it for someone.
becos i have phobia for it.
i was nearly choke to death by flour.
it's a long long story.

it's you who let me face it and make it all for u.
see that u ate everything up i was so happy.
nothing can describe my feeling.
it's a sense of happiness feeling in my heart.

may be by the time u read this post,
i am not being with u anymore.
i may be somewhere else.
thanks for having the thought of celebrating my birthday with me.
i am so happy u still remember and wanting to celebrate with me.
glad that i can still be your 'yati' till my birthday.

i am not a romantic lover at all.
i know it all along.
i can never be as romantic as other,
never be as funny and happy go lucky as adam.
never be as cheerful as susu.

so that why, i am so caring,
i know my flaws.
someone special like u, so pretty, sexy, cute, attractive, kind & lovely.
sure wan alot of romantic.
i am sorry,
i failed to be a romantic bf.
i can only care for u. care for u as much as i can.

still remember u told me on bus 31,
that after u being too long with someone,
u will start to get bored and if someone pops up look fresh
u will tend to get close to tat fresh guy?

i understand, i know i am very boring.
i am sorry for not being able to create so many surprise for u.
not being able to be as attractive as u.
i am sorry.

i am really gladful that u once enter into my life.
u bring so much happiness into my life.
so much memories which make me so greedy wanting for more.
sorry that i have took u for granted.
thought that u will always be with me.

thanks for showing me the hard way,
i can say maybe i regret in someway being with keying, samantham, merilynn, jia xi & suyu.
but not u.
never once i regret giving u my whole love,
i only regretted for not giving u more.
i am sorry to make u cry and heart break during that period.
sorry to make u can't have faith in r/s anymore.
sorry to break your heart and love into millions of pieces.
sorry to destroy our fairytales.

i am sorry.
i am such a stupid fool.
for letting u go.
letting u leave my side.

if in my next life,
i have the chance to be with u again.
i will, i mean it,
i will treasure u whole hearted.

well sometimes, i was feeling very funny for myself.
well i do get jealous when u are out with adam,
but after so many things, i learn to let go of this kind of matter.
u're not my gf anymore during that period of time so all the more i can't jealous.

thanks for scolding me.
thanks for slapping me.
thanks for insulting me.
thanks for letting me know once i really hurt u so deep.
thanks for letting me know your parents objects us together.

promise me something will ya?
pls take good care of yourself okay?
i will miss u alot.
alot alot alot.
"mum, yati going back hometown."
"mum, yati really don't wan to go back,
but my 'work permit' has expire."
haha.
=)

remember to drink more water and bath more often.
=D.


爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为
我就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了
还能用什么感觉

谢谢你曾经爱过我
给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺
未来的路该怎么走


我舍不得睁开眼睛
害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里
是我们最近的距离
想念你温热的手心
冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临
这温度该怎么延续


Goodbye my love.
xie xie ni de ai.