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Thursday, March 06, 2008

there will be 2 posts tonight.
this will rather be the emotional one.

just received a rather bad news. or maybe a news that will dealt a death blow to me.
my recent action and way of doing things,
makes alot of people sad and hurt and disappointed.
i am sorry, everyone.
i will learn from now on.

i am so lost.
i've been trying to work very hard.
seriously real hard.

went to bugis just now to look for the anna sui umbrella,
thought i can find it,
in the end, walked the whole bugis street, can't find a single anna sui umbrella.
maybe i missed it. saw a anna sui umbrella but it looks kinda aunty to me,
so i thought u won't like it.

leave bugis street at 2 pm,
was thinking maybe u will come bugis street have a walked,
so i leave to avoid spoiling your day.

just had a chat with my friend,
going to taiwan tomoro morning,
an idea struck into my head.

instead of online shopping,
asking her to buy for u some bags which u say u need.
and i am sure it will be fashion enough.

but now, everything, to me, gone.
even your parents dislike me now.
i know it's my fault,
i know.
i really know le.

but why?
God, Fate, EVERYONE???
i know it's my fault le,
i've been trying my very very best to change.
but why?
dealt me with such cruel blow?
why?
everyone, i really know it's my fault,

stop blaming me can?
i know le.
it's inside of my head le.
i know!!!

my confident? gone straight down to zero.
i've got no more confident,
no more.
not even a single % left.

thought things change to the better le.
but why?
ANYONE can answer me?
at leasst i used my action to prove.
i really try my best le.
why can't anyone notice?

even my parents are blaming me.
asking me why did i chase such a wonderful gal away?
dad, mum, bro, friends, God, lin's family & lin.
i really know it's my fault le.
wo zhi dao le.
but why everything going against me.

elin,
i know wad u trying to tell me.
i too, trying to change.
i really regret le.
i really know i am in so fucking wrong.
screwing up everything.
i really wan to change.
my heart is so pain now.

dad and mum,
i know le.
i am such a bad son,
chasing away such a perfect gf.
i really regret.
is there anyway i can turn back time? NO.
as the promise i made before.
i will leave. i will with u all.
maybe there's really nothing for me to hold on tight anymore.
i am sorry to break the promise.

friends,
i am sorry,
i failed to take good care of her.
i failed to keep the promise.
i too, don't wan to lose her.
i am so heavily defeated now.

it's the 1st time, i am feeling so freaking terrible and so lost.
when i am on the way standing up,
reality hit me so hard, that i will never stand up again.
i really don't wan to end everything.
why? why? why?

lin,
i know, nothing i say now,
can savage anything.
u're so freaking disappointed with me.
u're so heart broken, heart been tore into million pieces.
i'm sorry.
i didn't mean it.
i didn't wan it.
i really wan to hug u again,
wan to kiss u again,
wan to hold u again,
wan to go overseas trip with u,
wan to celebrate every month anniversary with u.
wan to break our curse.
i really wan u.

but i don't think it will happen again.
i give up on myself le.
i am hopeless and useless.
u're such a good gf,
yet i took u for granted,
thought no matter wad u will be there for me.

alvin, alvin, wad the hell is happening?
i really hate this feeling.

i will seal up my heart.
i will close down all way of contacting u.
i will run, run as far as i can.
i will shut myself down.
i will force myself to be alone, loner.

alvin, no matter wad u do,
u''re just a failure.
anyone? just anyone?
can u let me hide for a moment?
i don't know how to face myself now.

the pain inside my heart is really killing me.
everyone stop blaming me le hao ma?
wo zhen de zhi dao cuo le.
i throw away everything.

thought from my 3 yrs of r/s with my 3rd ex,
i will learn something important.
but no,
getting from bad to worse.
i will freeze myself.

thanks dad, mum, bros, friends.
thanks for telling me i lost such a good gf.
thanks for blaming me.
thanks for scolding me.
thanks for letting me awake.
xie xie everyone.

Wanlin
thanks for giving me so much happy memories.
thanks for loving me so deeply before.
thanks for telling me wad is true love.
thanks for letting me know how to love someone so deep.
thanks for accompanying me for the past going 7 months.
thanks for sharing with me so many thing.
thanks for so many thing.
thanks for all the tears and pain u shed and bear for me.
really thanks alot.
u're a good gf which i can't ask for much le. =)
good bye my love.

冻结那时间
冻结初遇那一天
冻结那爱恋
冻结吻你那瞬间
我也会疲倦

你的项链 在我身边
带我穿梭回从前

冻结那空间
冻结有你的世界
冻结那画面
冻结不让它溶解

我若是疲倦
你的项链 在我身边
发光在我胸前
你的项链 在我身边
陪伴著我过每一天.

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