re-edit =)

yeah, it's party time.
time to move our body!!!
=).
alright, going to meet marcus and co later.
haha, marcus, u gonna pay for all later.
lol, bet somemore. wahahahhaaha.
i will make u go malu in front of esther.
wahahahahahaha, *evil smile*

oh ya, j*n** = janis
kinda special?
alright,
gal, i am going out later,
erm, u wanna join me?
call me up yup.
there will be esther & co i told u about.
yup, if u don't mind.
haha and pls don't nag at me.
don't worry, i won't get drunk again.
no more nonsense.
well if u wan to be a nanny,
come bah. wahahhaa.
=).
gonna take lot of photo later. wahahaha.
MARCUS U'RE SO GONNA BE DEAD!

anyway, went to book my final theory test date in the morning,
and pay for the PDL.
oh yeah,
janis, this sep,
i think i am not really very free,
need to go for test and practical driving lesson. =).
see ya.



anyway, just change my blog song. =)
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

*
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done




30th Jul
well, it's 29th Jul night,
jaslin jie wanna eat supper with me,
so yup,
met at blk 85 hawker center.
near my house.
but then,
i was damn freaking surprise.
she's driving!!!
kns,
fast man.
so well, we went to pasir ris central and had our supper,
(saw someone at blk 85 so decided not to stay there and eat)
well at first i reject this idea to go there.
i am afraid i will saw someone.
but then in the end,
jie was the one who drive.
so shoooo,
arrived at central le.

from 11.30pm all the way till 6 am,
chatting and gossiping non stop.
talk about our life and wad happen.
"jie, i am glad u've found kor(she's dating my kor!)
he's a very very nice bf.
and seriously, u r just like a tai tai now.
he's giving u money to shopping and all these and tat.
he's paying your hp and wadever bill.
he's showering you with his love.
do treat him nice.
after so many incident,
hope u will learn not to betray kor love.
hope u will treasure him before everything's too late.
hope u won't cheat behind his back like how u used to treat other guys.
he's really a nice guy la.

anyway,
i don't know why after u heard my r/s story,
u are crying like hell.
LOL,
wad should i say?
dots dots dots.
i am fine don't worry.
yea i know,
i am naggy, demanding and somehow care too much.
well, don't worry,
my next r/s won't be the same.
no more naggy, demanding and over0-care for her.
thanks for saying i change alot.
haha it's great to hear u say i look better than last time.
OF COS!
hahahaha.

so went to work with this tiring and gonna fall apart body.
nothing happen,
only the hottest topic will be esther!
thanks for 'shooting' me.
it's marcus who's in 'love' with her not me.
and i didn't sms her anyway.
winnie and esther really killing my phone battery sooner or later.
marcus, i know u will be reading this so,
HAHAHAHA i told esther alot of things about u.
tomoro i will show u wad's her comment for u! haha.
U'RE DEAD!

anyway, winnie and esther both are not my type of gals.
to u guys, esther seems to be very pretty,
but to me, she's a friend,
won't upgrade or promote to
a GIRLFRIEND STATUS.
that's all.

31st July - (test at 4pm),
jie came to fetch me to ubi for my theory test,
and she's very 'pangtan'?
she say must have a lucky star with me if not i won't pass.
lol,
well, no,
i don't think so.
no lucky star or wad.
i am very prepared for this test,
nothing will go wrong.

so in the end,
jie went to fetch j*n**.
i was like.
wad the hell???
when did they both get on so well?
i was like so surprise la.
well before tat i was studying all alone.
alot of thought flashing through my mind.

i'm not afraid how ppl will think of me,
well it's the fact that,
i used to dream about this,
after i got my license,
wanlin will be the 1st person i will drive with.
plan to change some of the internal appearance of our car.
put alot of our stuff in it and these and that.
well, now,
it's just a memories.
nothing matter anymore.
so J*n** was there to cheer me up,
gonna admit,
when all these thoughts flashing through my mind,
tears came flowing out.
well it's okay now.
J*n** thanks for the tissues.
=).
so in the end,
i passed.
see jie, told ya,
don't need any lucky star or wad.
i'm fine alone.

jie told me to get the PDL which will last for half a year,
then pray hard my final need one time to pass.
after tat,
TP!!!
then, here come my license.

well jie, u will be the erm erm,
not sure but i will drive u around if i get the license.
1st will be my mum,
2nd,
well not sure,
if happen so lucky to have a gf by then,
well she will be the lucky one. =)

anyway,
there's a major change in my family will be undergoing.
dad will be going overseas to work or relax?
not very sure but shld be next year,
then mum will be flying around the world to enjoy her life by next year.
so change in plan,
i may stay in sg,
yup,
had a talk with dad,
when he leave,
i will be using his car,
and of cos,
1st - change his car.
aiming for mitsubishi cars.
lancer? GDL?
not very sure but of cos he will be paying for it.
so means, i will be alone using the car.
pocket money must increase, if not,
car will go hungry.
seriously, i can't imagine,
drving my car with my gf,
sending her to school or work,
fetching her,
wad will it be life?
how will the feeling be?
i am looking forward to it.

yeah yeah, i know,
i am a fallen angel,
just hope,
someone will come and fix and repair my wings.
let me roam through the world of love again?
can i have this hope?
can i have this dream?
can i love someone again?
can i have a r/s again?
i wan to love and be loved by a her again.
after the test, was listening to
when you're gone,
well, totally cry like a baby.
i not sure why.
but tears just keep flowing out.

went to suntec and walk walk before my toe operation.
bought myself a bracelet, j*n** bought for me one too.
thanks.
jie treat me eat asian kitchen.
thanks.
as if i am going to have my last gift and meal.
LOL.

yes, i am happy that i passed the test,
but i am feeling so empty and lonely inside.

anyway, hope she's not visiting my blog.
jie,
yes,
i am a coward,
till now, i don't even dare to click on her bloglink or anything tat will have her photos.
i am afraid i can't control my emotion.
hope she's living fine,
she will!
hope there's someone there to take care of her (she's blur)
it's a long journey for me to walk on without her.


oh yea, had my operation,
it's not tat pain,
cos the infection area has gone.
weeeeeeeee.
i am so happy la.
no more pain,
no more bad memories.
nothing.

anyway, gonna get my pay together for june and july.
so yup, jocelyn,
i will pay u asap.
and yun ru?
i guess so.
so yup.
thanks for the help.

i will be changing phone,
whenever i'm using this phone,
lots of memories.
i need to change with brother or wad,
i'm trying my best.
try try try!!!



anyway,
guys can u help me soemthing?
do u think i should cut my hair?
below list of ppl i've asked already.
here's their answer!

marcus - cut, better cut botak, so no one will like u (thanks arh)
ah fatt- cut abit, maybe above your eye? (might as well tell me to cut armani hair style)?
ah hao - should leave it this way, let u look more girl! (damn u)
bao zhu - how much? (free) okay cut, cut botak more worth it. (shit u)
merilynn - huh? shit head wanna cut hair? don't wan la, later u look more shit how??
u're already so shit head, cut already look like shit brain! (F**k YOU)
dionna - if u're okay with it, i will be fine with it. maybe trim your hair? (yea, tat's wad i am thinking too)
J*n** - no don't u look more cute in this way. maybe just trim abit, u will look cuter. (okay thanks)
winnie - don't cut, u cut u not cute. (i guess i don't look really cute anyway)
esther - cut, yes, u should, and i will be the one to help u cut. (alright thanks for the help, your suggestion i will take it as nonsense will do)
jaslin - trim will make it do. (yea yea)
cousin kenneth - cut as short as possible. like mine. short and nice. when u'er doing exercise, it's so easy. and save shampoo money. (alright thanks for your comment too)

so should i or not?

anyway, going to buy some clothes tomoro.
jie treat me to the singfeast concert,
wonder any 'thing' will happpen tat day?


alright, gtg. i am tired.
my eyes are red again.
sleep and wake up,
forget about every sad memories. =DDD