re-edit.
finally, make up my mind.
yes, i am going to tattoo.
i will rem how this r/s,
wad we went through, wad we learn and where do we make mistake.
in this way.
if happen,
the next one,
i will know how i shld treat her.
how i shld prevent.

in this r/s, we need to sit down and talk.
i know, wad we lack is communication.
we need to solve the problem one by one.
why?
why can't u, give this f**king stupid idiot,
who's crying, missing and dreaming of u,
a chance?
why? wad can make u come back into my life?

breaking up is the only way to solve our problem?
i don't know.
i really don't know wad u're thinking.
i haven't visit your blog ever since tat day.
i don't know wad u're feeling now.

i got this feeling,
we both still love and miss each other.
we both still hope there will be miracle appear to save this r/s.
we both still wan each other back in our life.

GOD, FATE, WHOEVER,
why must u make us a fool?
why must u took away?
is it really tat hard?

from the start,
we are being look down by other tat we will not last for 6 months.
in the end,
we still make it past 10 months going 11 months.
we go against all odds.
we surprise everyone,
why?
in the end,
our ending is this?

this feeling sucks.
it kills.
is it really tat bloody difficult to start all over again?

when u love someone so deeply,
in the end,
when things goes wrong.
u will hate tat party.

i am starting to feel this way.

ai yua shen, hen yua shen.
why?
i hate u. i really hate u.
all becos u afraid we can't solve it.
all becos u think we will make the same mistake again!!!

didn't adam incident prove anything to u?
after tat incident,
our love turn stronger.
and now, he didn't do any damage to our r/s.

this prove in r/s we need to learn.
aren't friend's r/s the same?
aren't other r/s the same?

u didn't give me a chance.
u didn't.
u back off.
u give up.
u end it.
THANKS.


TAT ALL.


p.s
anyone got any idea wad to buy for a gal 20 yrs old birthday?
well she's my 1st ex cum bestie.
not sure wad to buy for her.
give me some idea pls. =)







it's the last post about this broken r/s.
it will be the last time.








Days without you : 14 days.
sunny


today went to those places with memories.
had a good look.
it's true tat going with different person,
u will have different feeling.

hey gal,
thanks for accompany me today.
well, just hope u will be able to get some fresh air,
thanks for the lunch today.
well, dinner on me so we are even now.
=)

sorry to let your tears roll down again.
i didn't mean to.
i'm sorry to shed tears in front of u.
i didn't mean to make u cry too.

told myself, it's the last time i will be visiting those places.
there's lot of memories with lin in those places.
and the ring,
i have buried.

u're the 1st and last girl,
that i will ever love so deeply.
u're the 1st and last girl,
who's able to capture my whole heart totally.


went to "mussle man" at vivo for lunch.
it's the last place we celebrate our anniversary.
order the same things again.
in the end,
finish all by myself.
it taste bitter.
now then i know,
when u lost something important,
everything will lose it taste and feeling.
it's wad i deserve. =)
when she's with me,
i didn't know how to treasure it.
that's karma.

went to changi village, just to have a look and took some photo.
went to clarke quay.
went to our previous workplace.
=)

had dinner at "ti amo" at Ehub!
order the same usual food.
the same female waitress serve us.
she asked me is her my new gf?
nah,
i told her no,
she say she still prefer to see lin and me tgt.
thanks.
sorry to say,
u won't be able to see it anymore.

tat waitress had a chat with me.
yea, i am alright.
saw me wipping my tears
it's okay.

after tat, went to lin's house downstair.
alot of memories flash back.
thanks for all the memories.
hope wad lin say will come true,
i will be able to forget u.

took 12 back home.
still rem,
i used to hug u on train and bus.
it's like u're always so tired.
and u will always sleep on my arm.
the feeling, your sleepy look, your scent.
lingers me all along.

tears been rolling down already.
i guess i shld stop here.
i am like a cry a baby.
crying every night.
man do cry.

got this tag by one of my friend,
lol,
the title kinda lame but well,
post it out.

title : ever cried for a girl/guy becos of happiness?

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
yes, it happened.

What's your favorite card game?
UNO!

Who was the last person you called or message?
it's her, wanlin.

Anything you're giving up on?
yea.

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
only to my bestie. in the past, it's only to her.

Think of the person you told "I love you" last, did you mean it?
yes.

Do any of your friends have any of your clothes at the moment?
erm nope,
only hers.

What's your profile song right now?
wait for you - elliot yamin

Ever cried because of happiness?
yes, when i think of those words she say and the memories.

What's some things people hate about you?
when i am angry, my words can be hurting.

Thought about someone today?
yes. she's always on my mind.

What do you hate about your best friend?
nothing.

Are you in love with the last member of the opposite sex you hug?
she's the last one i hugged.

Overall mood today?
confuse.

What's something you say too much?
kns.

Last game you played and with who?
not sure.

Know anyone who's been drunk recently?
yes.

Are you happy with who you are?
i don't get it? with?

Do you judge others?
yes, but i take time to observe.

Do you enjoy drama?
hong kong drama.

Would it hurt seeing someone kiss with the last guy/girl you kissed?
yes.

Who do you tell everything to?
not everything.
bestie and parents?

Did you speak to your mother today?
yes, just had a long chat.

How many months until your birthday?
8.

Who do you wish you were with right now?
her, if i am able to turn back time and possible again.

What are you listening to?
same song as this blog now.

What color is your hair?
black.

What is the last movie you watched and with who?
ironman. with her.

Who's bothering you right now?
nope.

What makes you happy?
it's obvious.

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
just 1 hour ago.

Are you happy?
no

Do you miss someone?
yes.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
yes.

Who was the last person you gave your number to?
secondary school friend.

Where is your number one right now?
gone forever,

How was your day, what'd you do?
not really good. went lot of places with memories.

Where do you hide your money?
bank.

How did you wake up this morning?
by phone. either sms or call.

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
sunrise. she's the 1st gal.

Last time someone surprised you?
when she post something touching on her blog.

Who's the last person who made you smile?
no one.

What's the last bone you broke?
nope. ligament tore consider?

How many letters are in your last name?
not sure.

What are you excited about?
nothing.

Do you curse a lot?
seldom.

Do you drink bottled water?
yes.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
yes.

What's something you wish you could understand better?
the phrase 'i love u' has no meaning anymore.

Is there anything you want to say to the person u love?
alot. there's too much words to say.