re-edit.
oh ya i just change my blog song.
it suits my feeling now.
totally.

i done wad i can.
i beg and plea,
i knee down(during the 1st break up),
i cried
&
i hope for u,
but in the end, no u're not there.

well i will enjoy my life with my special one but,
my miss special haven appear yet.

anw since u not coming, then it's okay with me.
and i told u before, when i totally give up on u,
i am serious.
i will give up totally.
by any mean or by crook,
i will do it,
push tat broken r/s out of my mind,
even if it hurt my heart badly i will still stab it.
put salt into my wound will make it heal faster.
yes,
u need to get out of my heart totally.
anw, it's up to u,
whether we will still be friend,
if u treat me as one,
tat contract still vaild.
so yup.


BYE BYE BYE



it's 12.50am now.
just bath,
damn tired.
haha.

alright,
i was so touched and surprised
by dionna.
after attachment,
as usual, alone,
taking bus from vivo all the way to ubi driving centre.
in between, i was so kuku
right elin?
haha,
i alight at the right bus stop
but becos of my stupidness.
i went to paya lebar mrt station.
in the end, gonna call elin for help.
hahaha.
kuku la me.

arrive at the bus stop of the ubi driving centre around 7.10pm,
test start at 7.30
so happen when i went into the customer service centre,
dionna was sitting alone there.
lol,
1st thought,
she's here for driving lesson too?

so went up and tap her shoulder,
"hi zhu tou"
1st thing she do,
use her file to hit my shoulder,
lol standard la.
so here's our conversation.
i asked her,
A: "eh how come u're here?
having driving lesson too?
here to sign up ?
or?"

she replied D: "u should change name, stupid(in chinese) zhu
of cos waiting for u duh"
i was like huh???
alot of question mark!

A: "how come waiting for me? i tot u go home le?"
D: "where's the dinner u own me?
A: "i tot u will read my blog de? haha today no time, sorry la"
D: "it's alright, then i wait for u and treat me supper.
A: "u sure? whole day in jc not tired arh?
D: "i got work to do, shoo go and do your test, i will wait for u at the sitting area at 2nd floor"
A: "haha it's not april fool today, can't trick me, quick, who's with u?"
D: "dots, it's 7.30 now, better be quick.
A: "haha ya ya, i know la, when i finish the test u will disappear le. hahaha. okay. bye"
D: "good luck, i've got confident in u. trust me." *bang* file on my head.


so went in and took the bloody test.
at 1st, i totally give up,
kns, there's 6 paper,
i fail the first 2 then pass the 3rd one.
so 10 mins break.
saw her really sit at there doing her work.
i was like, erm erm,
how come arh?

went over and say "gotcha"
hahaha.
her freak face.
damn funny la.

she really wait for me.
oh my oh my.
i was like so touched,
such a good friend.
nice.

so went in and done all the 3 paper.
in the end,
first 2 paper failed.
the rest?
i passed la.
wahahaha,
last paper 100% sia.
wahahhaha.

came out, she's not there.
tot she left already.
haha how i know.
*bang* file on my back head(gentle of cos)
D: so how's your test?
A:i passed 4 failed 2. whahaha. last one 100% leh!
D: alright dinner on u.

suddenly this sentence "dinner on u"
i was stunned for 3 sec i think,
well lots of memories flash back.
but it's all over now. =)

well took cab to tm, had pizza at pizza hut for dinner.
she order the new pizza, starzbites cheesy extreme.
not bad.
i didn't order, cos she's the boss. i own her dinner.
kns.

lol. we had fun talking and lots of funny photo la.
well, in the end, she's too full, i got to help her carry her file.
kns.
went to downtown east, Ehub,
walk around and well,
play with those stupid machine.
but then somehow, shoud i say it's lame or lucky?
$3, and we got a bear bear.
we ask the stuff how much does it cost, it's $49.90 okay!
lol.
yup walk her back home. before we reach central,
my nose bleed again.
lol.
i am afraid maybe every month there will be once nose bleeding for me.
but her,
LOL.
she's like going to cry soon man!
oh gal, i am not dead yet.
hahaha.
i was so surprise.

well in the end, hurry walk to her house there, she went up and give me 1 BOX of tissue.
LOL... ....
ahhaah funny la u.
well thanks gal.
thanks for the care.
thanks for this friendship.
thanks for everything. =)

i am sorry, i didn't mean to say those words.
cos i don't wish to lie to u.
yes, somehow,
some of your action,
really look like hers.
sometimes when u look at my eyes,
i got this feeling of looking at her eyes.
i'm sorry.

i know, i shouldn't
u ain't her,
i can't do this.
it's unfair.
but still, we too.
if we are tgt,
we will have lots of problems.
u'er a jc student.
but me?
ite student.
i look down on myself.
and u know wad happen,
u saw her blog and my blog.
u know i've been called a jerk.
a jerk will never be able to give happiness to the one he love.

and yes, i lost faith in love.
the love i gave,
the trust i gave,
the promise i gave.
all lost in just a day.
i suffer a heavy lost.
totally defeated by her.

now, i admit,
i am having phobia toward love.
i don't hate girls.
but just those who are nice to me.
i am having phobia.
i don't know why.
sorry dionna.
but i will try my best,
to get it cure,
i am sure i will be able to get her,
out of my mind.
no matter wad,
i must.
she got her own life now.
i need to get a life of my own.
no use blooding over the lost of it.
i guess,
i will do my best,
to find my heart back,
to find my hope back
and to find my faith back. =)

don't worry, we will still be the same good friend.
i am so touched u came all the way down from your school just to accompany me this poor old man!

and seriously i think i really need to give a serious thought of changing my appearance.
i need to buy more clothes.
yes.
and jeans?
haaha dionna,
don't accompany me,
i don't wan later,
your help,
the end product of me,
will be a clown.
hahahaha. =)
thanks.


later on, going out with cousin Kenneth!!!
haha i am going to be a big lightbulb!!!
wahahahahahahahaha.


p.s dionna, some of your photos are in my phone, u wan me to send to u?