well,
attachment haven end but i had sumitted my report.
so i am feeling so great and relax.
no more huge pressure and anymore stress.

quite busy at the moment so i shall update at one go.

14th,
thanks to dearest best friend janis.
went all the way down to my attachment area to pass me my fav food at the moment,
udon.
well gal, your spicy udon,
seriously damn spicy.
drank 3 can of coke!!!
damn bloated.
LOL
cool la.

15th aug,
went back to school
well, different feeling la.
it's so cool man.
cool lo.
haha i am glad,
so many people still remember me,.
but well thanks to my new hairstyle.
lol.
some say nice,
some say prefer my long hair style.
well. it doesn't matter.

16th,
yeah, finally able to clear off one of the stupid debt thanks to him.
FUCK YOU MAN!
$650.
damn u.
dad suggeest me to make a police report.
i don't know why i am so soft hearted.
still thinking whether should i?
now it's time to pay jocey back.
sorry girl.
i need some more time.
seriously sorry.

but still,
after clearing one debt,
feeling much lighter. than usual.

so hit out at st james at night with marcus and co again.
this time round.
i broke my own record.
well on the strike of 12am, 17th aug,
i managed to drank 17 glass of pure martell.
dead drunk for 1 hour or so till marcus arrived with michelle.
why 17?
maybe to me it's a way of releasing myself.
reborn,
restart,
and new changes.

hahaha fatt and hao drunk too.
lol.
will post the photos up soon, =).
see how i am drunk. =).

17th,
around 5am,
they call janis to picked me up.
lol i don't know why they will call her but well,
thanks anyway.
so dearest best friend cab me home.

*janis,
i am sorry if i done or say anything tat hurt u on that day.
sorry.
i don't know wad really happen.
pls do tell me if i done something really overboard.
sorry.
guess u won't tell me anyway.
but hope u will still.

seriously u can find a better bf,
i don't know wad got into your mind tat i am the one?
i not good at all.
i am fooling around.
hugging and doing some stupid stuff during clubbing.
i don't think u can take it.
yes, u can say i am just trying to act.
but still,
i love my life now.
although i wish to be in love,
but i am really not worth for u to do all these.
it's not u're not pretty.
seriously speaking,.
i know we don't compare,
but still,
compare to my ex,
u're prettier, loving, kind, thoughtful and caring.
any guy would fall for u.
maybe it's becos u treat me too good.

i don't know wad i am thinking,
i love to go against all odd.
maybe with someone everyone look down on us,
i will be with tat gal longer.
yup.
strange isn't it?

sorry.

well done something to my body on 17th,
when i think or see it, it will remind me.
it will forever be a scar in me.
not even memories can wipe it off.
anyway guys,
pls don't think i still hate "her"( u guys should know who i am refering to)
cos why?

the opposite of love isn't hate - it's indifference.
if i hate her, that means i still care for her.
if she hate me, that means she still care for me.
which i think she don't hate me.
yup.

anyway, i didn't mature,
it's just that my thinking is way too different now.


18th,
went for my 1st lesson,
fuck tat instructor.
hey, i am not paying u to teach me history of singapore or wad.
my history isn't tat bad alright,
at least i am a A2 oe B3 student in history alright!
any way so wad i know how to drive already>?
just anyhow teach me will do.
i need to complete at least 20 to 23 lesson from wad i heard.
damn, gonna change instructor soon.
=).

alright time to go.
it's 1.52am now.
anyway,
dad suggested me to buy a camera 1st.
cos i am going for overseas holiday.
so yup.
psp or camera?
hmmmmm.
cool la.

oh ya,
my new blog song,
one of the best trance dance song i can dance with.
beats.
i love the beats. =)

and too,
i opened a new blog account.
private.
lol.
all my thoughts and lots of other things.
will be in there.
=).
thanks jocey. =)


i guess somehow,
my heart, my soul and my body,
start to feel the beat of love again.
should i get into a r/s or should i stay?
i hope my devil princess will be here sooner than later.
='(