well, looks like i need to do some explaination here.

1st, yes, i didn't pass my tp.
i failed.
i failed quite badly.

i passed the circuit.
i got 14points only.
but in the end i fail in the road course

i was surprise i passed my parallel & vertical parking.
just one time and i am done with the parking.
i was like so happy.

s course, crank course & dir.change i passed,
slope/gradient i passed too.

so many people told me if u pass the circuit, u will pass eventually.
yea, i was feeling on the moon when i know i didn't fail the circuit.

in the end, when i was on the road.
the 1st time, i fail to stop at the stopping line.

i guess i was somehow tired on that day.
after so many days of accounting stuff, the image or vision i had, was quite blur.

the tp sir, which i called him.
he close one eye one the 1st incident,

and 2nd time, i was somehow, driving near the centre line if i am not wrong,
so he close one eye again.

when i was going back,
he told me i have passed,

i don't know what the fuck i was thinking,
i got failed because of
IMPROPER ACTION CAUSING NEAR ACCIDENT!!!.


damn, i did cried afterward.

it was like, i going to get it soon, but,
the very last min, it just flew away from my hand!

well, from the usual paper marking tp will determine you pass or fail,
they change to rather high tech.
it's a palmtop???
i think so.
i got no one to blame.


2nd, to joey,
sorry, didn't went along to celebrate your birthday,
my dad told me to stay at home cause of the coming tp next day.
i am sorry.
i will try to make it up for u.


3rd, it's confirm from SGH doctor.
i am having depression now.
i am too tense up it so much stuff.


thanks to some bitch i would say so.
one female called my house and talked to my mum.
claiming she's my teacher.
say my attendance below 40%.
i failed in my ca1.
and i done badly for blah blah blah.
in the end, got into big quarrel with my mum.


i am damn stress,
from school work.
dad's company stuff,
my background,
my driving's giving me problem too.
and, my friends.
don't ever back stab me.
i will curse and swear for life.



got to thanks dad, for talking to me.
hope all these problem will go away soon.
going take a break in life.

will be away from sg.
going back to the place where i grew up from.


ps. jordan,
i am going back for bl training.
if you are going back.
just leave me a sms.


god, pls let me take a break in my life.
if not, i am going to break down soon,
the feeling of knowing yourself having depression sucks.
damn sucks.